as rachel got home after the party she went straigh to her room flopped on her bed and started to cry why was everything such a mess she thought. she didnt try to told her tears in she felt them flow she needed to let them out. as she laid there her phone rang looking at ths scene she saw it was noah she didnt want to talk but she knew if she didnt he would come see she was alright so in the end she answered.

rach: hello

noah: hello rach are you alright she didnt seem it when you left

rach: no im not alright

noah:want me to come over i will cheer you up with my guns

rach: no i want to be alone

noah: im sorry if the game made things hard i just wanted a distraction for us all

rach: i understand

noah: rach be honest who are you crying over

rach: both of you

noah: really

rach: i miss him  and i miss what you and i could have been

noah: well at least your over blaine thats one down

rach:look noah i know you mean well but i really just wanna go to sleep hopefully things will seem easier in the morning.

noah: okay baby doll oh and rach im here if you need mr

rach: thank you

the call ended rachel was beyond tears now her eyes stung she got changed for bed and got in under the covers like they were her shield from the world as her phone bleeped with a message. rachel looked atvthe scene and saw it was from sebastian.

hey im sorry
if kissing you
made you feel
uncomfortable
i just couldnt
hold myself back
i mjss you

rachel fwlt her eyes fill up she didnt know wether tp reply or not but she knew like she knew with noah if he thought she was upsetvhe would come over so she texted him back.

its okay im sorry
too it cant have
been easy for you
it was all just so
awkward with
you guys there

rachel wanted to put she missed him too because she did but she didnt she chickened out be ause her head was all over the place. a minute later she got a message back from him which read.

i know it wasnt
the best position
to be in but it was
nice to see you
outside of school
i do miss you
rach

she read a d reread his texted she didnt know how to reply as for what the consequences could be she turned of her phone she didnt reply to him. she had a horrible nights sleep she kept waking up in tears why was love so hard she thought.

in the morning after she showered she decided to reply to his text message figuring she owed him that.

hi sorry for not
replying last
night im not gonna
lie and say i just got
the message the
thruth was i didnt
know what to put.
it was nice to see
you outside of
school too.

rachel put her phone down and got dried and dressed she decided to go for a walk figuring the fresh air would do her good.

as she walked her mind ckeared slightly noah was right she was over blame maybe not the embarassement but she was over hi  she hadnt thought of him in a romantic way since they broke up. she had feelings for noah she did she cared about him very much. what got to her was if she hated sebastian why hadnt her feelings for noah made that deminish. maybe she wasnt over sebastian yet did thst mean she shouldnt persue things with noah then ofcourse their was quinn and the baby did she want to get involved in thst situation. 

then people seemed to think she liked hunter but she didnt well she did but not in a romantic way after all if she had two men in her heart there really wasnt room for another one.

then her mind went back to last night thst kiss was amazing awkward yes but it felt like their first kiss had done he thought of that moment.

FLASHBACK

they had been on their third date they had gone to see a movie and were walking back to his car she had turned to say something to him and he thought she was gonna kiss him so he kissed her it was magical it was how a first kiss should me it had feeling but wasnt dominent.

END OF FLASHBACK

rachel walked around the park watching a couple about her age looking all loved up she put her hed down and walked past them.

after walking about for an hour or so the weather turned somshe was forced to jog home whennshe got home she saw sebastian's car in thw driveway she didnt know how she felt zbout that hut as the heavens opened she ran inside as she hadnt put her coat on.

"hey"sebastian said ge was sat on the couch with her dads they had always liked him they werent impressed by what he did to blaine put they did like him.

" hey" rachel said not wanting to make a scene infront of her dads

"can we talk"sebastian asked

"okay"she said she didnt know why she didnt reallywant too. they msde their way up to her room.

" well" she said once they were there

"about last night i have to know do you like hunter"sebastian asked

"only as a friend"rachel said

"and blaine"sebastian aske

" i dont fell anythig for him anymore" rachel said

" what about puck" he asked they werw both stood awkwardly in her room

" yes i do have feelings for him" rachel admitted

" do you love him though" sebastian asked his eyes looked like he wanted to cry

"i just dont know"rachel said

"and me"sebastian said

"what you did was wrong..."rachel started to say

"no rach not about that i mean your heart what does it think of me not what i have done"sebastian said

she didnt answer but instead stood there looking atvthe floor with silent tears running down her face.

sebastian walked to her put his hands on her arms and kussed her  she didnt kiss him back at first but eventually her heart overruled her head and she found herself kissing back. sebastian moved his gand moving her hair out of the way as he depened the kiss.

once they broke for air rachsl burst into bif giant sobs as her emotions she had clearly held in came out sebastian simply held her kissing her head as she sobbed.

" its alright"he told het as they stoid there