Siddharth went to the balcony and Avanya went behind him, he was again lost in his our world, looking at the starts.

Avanya: Siddhath!

siddharth dosent reply to her and keeps looking outside. After giving a few trials, she went near him and shouts in his ears

Avanya: S I D D H A R T H!!!!!!

Siddharth comes to sence and looks at her.

Siddharth: kya Ha?

Avanya: ans!!! Why were you trying to till your self, koi bhi Insan Ko essa hi marna ka shokh to nahi hota na, I am sure kuch hua hoga

Siddharth: hua bhi ho ya nahi, ussa tumha kya? Apna Kam se matlab rakho Na!

Avanya: I am just asking nahi batana ho then dont tell, Mana to bas essa hi pucha, like koi essa hi thodi marna ki Bata karta Ha

Siddharth: ma karta hu Na

Avanya: then your stupid! Vasa sach ma apni family ka koi contact nahi Ha tumhara pass? Where is your phone? And Tum essa lost lost kyu chal Raha tha? And why don't you wana contact anyone? Atlest ek bar you should call and inform them, sab parashan honga

Siddharth(shouts at her): tumha dusro ki life ma inta interest kyu Ha? Essa hi pucha na! Then muja bhi essa hi marna ka shokh tha, and thanks to you, that didn't happen!!! And muja contact karna hoga, then ma kar lunga! It's about me, my life!! So just stop telling me what to do!! Davai Lani Ha! Eat food! Rest! Contact and tell your family!!! Just stop telling me! I know muja kya karna Ha and I will do it myself! Ma yaha bhi nahi rukhta if uncal aunty had not forced! So just stop interfering in what I do or should do.

Avanya: I I am s sorry

Avanya goes from there to her parents room with out looking at him, Siddharth takes a deep breath and also goes inside the room.

(Siddharth pov)
God! Ok I know I shouted on her without her fault, she was just trying to help me... But I was just...

(He punched the wall with his hand)

She just reminded me of everything again, ma vo kasa kar sakhta Hu! Why did I do that! All happned due to me! JUST ME! HAD I LISTENED, MAYBE LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT, but what ever it was, uski galti nahi thi! but yet cant she mind her own business! Ussdin Jo kuch bhi hua, I was the one to be blamed, Mari vajase Bhai, Vishu di, Reem, all.... All are suffering the lost, just due to me. Abhi bhai is suffering the most, he lost his smile due to me, just due to me! Vishu di lost her charm, due to me, and Reem... She lost something she loved the most.

(Pov ends)

(He was continuely punching the wall, blood was ousssing out of his fest, just then he heard a song, he turned to see Avanya phone yet on his bed, ringing. He went there and saw 20 misscalls of someone. Thinking it to be important he leaves to find her and reaches her room, he was about to knock the door but saw that it was open, he heard few sobs from inside. He knocked on the door, but just a voice came from inside

Avanya: it's open

He went inside and saw that she was sitting in balcony with a book (holding upside down) and looking out side.

Siddharth: amm your phone! You had forgotten it in room, it's been ringing, there are 20 misscalls of someone

Avanya: ok, just put it on the bed

Siddharth: ok

He was about to leave but stops and turns back

Siddharth: avanya vo I want to say something

Avanya: yes say

Siddharth: I ......... I........ Am............ Vo.........

(Avanya was Waiting for him to say.... After he keeps stammering for 10 minutes)

Avanya: say na

Siddharth: I, h Ha, I vo, yaa, apni book Sidhi karka padho,ulti pakadi Ha!

(Avanya gets shocked and looks at he book and then at him)

Avanya(think): was I really expecting him to say sorry to me! Why on earth was I even expecting it!

Avanya: yes so what? I like to read my book upsidedown, you have any problem, well even if you have, I am going to read it like this only

Siddharth: your wish.

He starts to leave but again turns and faces her

Siddharth: see ma Na kabhi kisiko sorry nahi bolta, when I feel ki jalti dursa Insaan ki bhi thi.... But Abhi bol Raha Hu... Bye...

He again starts to leave

Avanya(thinks): what was this!!!

Avanya: ooi wait!! Bol to Sahi

Siddharth: kya?

Avanya: Abhi bol Raha tha Na, aan bol Raha Hu... Sorry?

Siddharth: bol to Sahi

Avanya: really! Mana na essa Suna tha ma kabhi bol ta nahi Hu and aaj bol Raha hu

Siddharth: Ha to bola to Sahi

Avanya: kaha bola

Siddharth: yad kar what I exactly told

Avanya: ma kabhi kisi Ko sorry...

Siddharth: see aaya Na sorry!

Avanya: yeh sorry tha?

Siddharth: amm yes... Bye

He again starts to leave but while going, at the door, he turns to her

Siddharth: sorry, I know I shouldn't have shouted like that.

He leaves from there, while Avanya tries to digest what just happened! She goes back inside the room, takes her coffee mug and again sits in the balcony looking outside. It was raining heavily, she saw a figure sitting outside on the bench on the garden,

Avanya(pov)

now who is this inside the house Siddharth to room ma Gaya Na? Siddharth!! Wait yeh vahi Ha Na!! I went out of the room, and down in the garden to see, and indeed it was him! God!! Is this boy insane! It's raining so heavily!! And o shit! How didn't I noticed before, his hand is bleeding! I should get him inside first.

(She shouts his name few times but he didnt listen was was just sitting like a statue)

Yeh to sun hi nahi Raha! What to do!! Ok this is enough now!!!!

(She goes out and pulls him by his hand and brings him inside while he was just like a robot following her)

(She brings him inside the room and hands him a towel but he was yet standing still)

Avanya: Siddharth!!!! Mr lost soul, Siddharth

(When he didn't listen for a long time she shakes him hardly)

Siddharth: h Ha kya hua?

Avanya: muja nahi, tumha kya hua ha? Essa itni des barish ma kya kar Raha tha?

Siddharth: vo ma, kuch nahi, I didn't realise

Avanya: and yeh hat pa chot kasa lagi, ruko, I will get the first aid box

Siddharth: no it's ok, I am fine

Avanya: who asked you?

Siddharth: ha!

Avanya: did I ask you if your fine or not? Just sit here, i will get the first-aid box.

Avanya goes , gets the first aid box and takes his hand to apply it, when he takes it hand back.

Siddharth: leave it, it's fine

Avanya: it's fine!!! Are you insane! Kitna khoon nikal raha ha!

Siddharth: i know, but I don't wana get first aid done, i am fine

Avanya: kyu dar lagta ha first aid se?

Siddharth: dar! Vo bhi first aid se! And muja ek gym... Nope muja nahi lagta dar first aid se!

Avanya: then lagva do na!

Siddharth: nope muja nahi lavna, chot malam laga na ka liya nahi lagai ha!

Avanya: what!! Yeh tum na khood lagai ha!

Siddharth: ha kyu koi problem ha?

Avanya: ek bat kahu, only if your not bona shout but....

Siddharth: say

Avanya: nope first promise that you won't shout

Siddharth: i won't shout, promise

Avanya: why did you want to die, siddharth life is not a joke, not everyone gets it, go ask someone who knows that they are gonna die in few years! Life is very precious! Your life is not just yours, uska sat, life of your loved ones is also connected. Have you ever though what will they go through, your mom, dad, siblings, friends.... I don't know why your doing all this, or what is the reason, but I am sure, i can't be bigger then the happiness of your loved ones. They all will be worried about you.

Siddharth: Avanya yeh sab na sirf bolna ki bata ha, and happiness of loved ones right! But if your the reason there there happiness was taken away....

Avanya: Ha! Matlab! And Siddharth even if by any chance you have harm them, it would have been unintended, and not on purpose, and if they love you, they will know that

Siddharth: you wana know kya hua tha?

Avanya: if you wana tell....

Siddharth: my mom! She d died because of me!

Avanya: what!!!! H how?

Siddharth: I I am a gymnastics player, it was raining heavily and I was practiceing on a open group, Mom had warned me to practice later, but only one stunt was left so I decided to do it. it was a flip, I was doing it, when there was a sharp object on ground, which I didn't notice, Mom came on time and pussed me away, but slipped and hence that object hurt her on head badly, she was taken to hospital but after operation, c couldn't s survive..... I I was too broken, I left from that place and I don't know how but came here.... all all lost everything they had due to just be, bhai, di, Reem all are suffering...

To be continued...

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