"Tell the truth." My mother, this morning.

Tell the truth.....

Tell the truth?!?

If I told the truth to her, she'd think I'm a monster!

....Last night was the first time I cried in a long time. My emotions were in a crazy mess, while the tightness in my stomach had come back again.

I don't think my emotions are messed up over the ROLEPLAYING.....I think my emotions are crazy cause mom doesn't seem to true me anymore.....

"O, come on...."

"Tell me the truth."

"Come out of your fantasy and come back to reality."

"Everyone's playing nice, right?"

...... Yes, were playing nice.....

But right now, I feel as if I wanna scream at my mom to accept me for me.

I feel messed up....

Stupid, weird, crazy, insane.....

If I hadn't made a vow to never curse, I'd use those words to describe how I feel.... Especially the S word and the F word.....

What do I do?

Tell mom how I feel and be threatened to have the tablet, and you guys, taken away from me?

Or keep these emotions bottled up inside and emotionally die to all emotions and feelings for my own mother?

Or should I just stop doing Roleplaying again? I don't wanna, but I don't want to hurt anyone, especially my mom...

*Sigh*......May I have a hug? 😢😭