-Verse 1-

Oh man, there she is again
Been friends with her for awhile but she never understands
How scared I used to be back then
I mean I still am
Thinking a thousand times about telling her a word, like damn
Whenever we hang out all I do is spit on the grass
Listening to her saying one day we'll kick the world's ass
Never actually trusting any word that she said
Then it's my turn to talk, hope she won't get mad
I'm only telling her the truth, I can't trust any man
Or woman or kid, and I can't choose that
It's simply what I feel, I swear I wish I could control that
'Cause every time I wanna tell a secret these voices come back
Making them trust issues hit me like a rushing van
Feeling so hella paranoid when I think about those flashbacks, they're the worst
The past's making me feel like I'm fuckin cursed
Unsure if I'll be ever reachin' the first
Place and win this game, demons glaring with their lips pursed
Feeling like my life's reversed
To the time when I felt the worst
And these trust issues ain't makin' it any better, my thoughts only getting worse
They're the reason I never talk to you, that's why I never converse

-Hook-

Look me in the eyes, tell me it's gonna be fine
'Cause I'm scared outta my mind
Feel like you'll leave me behind
I promise that I will try
To be a better person but it's hard for you to realize
What it's like to fear everything you're surrounded by
But believe me, we can get along just fine
Just think about your own feelings and forget about mine

-Verse 2-

He's waiting for my arrival as he continues smoking
Said we need to talk about what I actually cope with
I don't want him to worry so let's just keep on joking
About those bruises he saw and hope that he won't know it
But it seemed like that's not the only thing he had to say, looking like he was hoping
That I won't fuck this up and actually try to expose him
I know I never would, for some reason I feel like I owe him
Not sure for what, but my anxiety is growing
Stronger as he starts to talk like he knows what my goal is
I keep telling myself I own this
Even when I'm the closest to breaking down
But I don't wanna fuck this up now
I know what he's trying to say but I don't wanna let him down
But yo, is there any other way to go?
All I'm feeling is my dreams going cold
And all I'm looking for is a dream to hold on to
But all I'm writing about is my nightmares, let me fold
Those papers and throw 'em, but I still can't forget 'em
Yeah I can't, those words will stay written in the back of my mind! Damn!

-Hook-

Look me in the eyes, tell me it's gonna be fine
'Cause I'm scared outta my mind
Feel like you'll leave me behind
I promise that I will try
To be a better person but it's hard for you to realize
What it's like to fear everything you're surrounded by
But believe me, we can get along just fine
Just think about your own feelings and forget about mine