This rap is basically one of those convos between me and my fear or the voice in my head or whatever. It was kinda hard to write because it's very close to the description of what a person with anxiety/depression feels most of the time so sorry if some bars weren't clear. Anyways I hope you like this one, it's inspired by the song Intro III by NF.

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(Whispers and sobbing in the background)

-Verse 1-

Yo stop! What the fuck do you think you're doing?!
Are you tryna speak? Can't you get through this?
Did you forget about all these moments you've ruined?
Or do you just wanna be ignorant again and screw it
Up like you always do, sit back down. Actually the truth is
You always say you're hella strong but never proved it
I see the fear in you eyes, you think you can hide this bullshit?
If I wasn't here for you you would be fucking useless
I'm the only one now who can see behind this ruthless
Rebel but one day this mask will break and you'll no longer be fooling
Anyone with your fake smile, this ain't gonna be amusing
But you only taught me how to hold this gun, I never knew I had to shoot with it
Oh so you never thought you had to use it? You think I'm just cool with this?!
You should be grateful that I'm gonna be the one who's gonna be choosing
Your fate and future, now shut up and sit the fuck down and stop moving
I'm the only one who should be in control here, you can't refuse this
After all you asked for this
Because at that time I was weak, all alone, broken, bruised and
Lost. I never knew who or what I should be pursuing
Nothing but your dream right? (Haha!) But it's too late now to choose it
But I'm supposed to be-
Quiet! No one wants hear your fucking voice
Your game is over, you weren't born to make some noise
You gotta live like everyone else does, don't act like you've got another choice
And you're gonna end up dead by your own hands, now be a good girl and don't avoid
Listening to my voice and my orders, don't you dare act annoyed
When I tell you to hide your emotions, cause if you refuse you'll disappear in the void
I don't give a damn about your little heart getting destroyed
Nor do I care about your brain and fear of being paranoid
All we gotta think about is being good enough for the dead that you're gonna join! Wooh!

-Verse 2-

You're disgusting! Are you actually gonna eat that?
Are you insane? That's too much, can't you see that?
It's like you actually wanna be fat
Then at the end of the day you look in the mirror and feel bad
I mean you better feel bad! You're a fucking disgrace!
Look at yourself! Don't you feel any shame?!
Do you think when you're gone they'll remember your name?
Stop acting so numb, I know you feel too much pain
Now get up and handle your shit, I don't care if it rains
You're gonna keep training, I don't wanna see you gain
A single calorie, you've got one meal a day
I don't give a fuck about how much more you crave
And we're gonna do something about your pale skin, grab that blade
Don't give me that look, you know you deserve all this pain
But those scars will stay a secret, don't you dare say
A word to any human being, it's just their opinion that'll change
They won't help you, I'm all you've got so you don't need to think or pray
I know your body's working against you now, but don't obey
Darling, it takes alot to be perfect for what society wants these days
I never wanted to be this way, all I want is to be the winner in this game
Well now you know it's not as easy as it seemed when you were a kid. Is it, Jade?
You thought nothing could stop you only to see your voice fading away
Your fear's became a reality and all you did was be afraid
To say a word against me now I'm about to fucking burn this place
And I'll warn you already, don't you dare move or speak
You've always been and you will always be too weak
You've always had the gun in your hands but never dared to aim it at me
Why are you giving me that look? Pull the trigger, you freak!
This fear in your innocent eyes will never disappear
I may look scared but don't you dare doubt the fact that I can bury you deep
Yeah don't forget that at the end of the day I'm still running towards my dream
And one day, whatever it takes you'll see me becoming a queen
But for now I'll focus on not being fake, I'd rather be a freak
But no matter what you do you'll never dare to speak
About what's going through your head and that's what makes you weak
Now let's end this little convo, it's time for you to go to sleep
And I don't wanna hear your voice again, next time you get a nightmare don't you dare scream