This poem is inspired by another poem I saw on YouTube called "Hi, I'm a slut" (it's the video above if you wanna see it) I decided to make my own version of the original poem because it inspired me so much. So yeah I hope you like it

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Hi, I'm depressed.
You shouldn't look so shocked as if it's a threat
Well maybe it is, 'cause it makes me think about death
Especially the relief I'll feel when I take my last breath

Hi, I'm depressed.
And yes, I cry myself to sleep
Because of that smile on my face that's in front of every secret that I keep
And no one fucking understands how this tragedy feels
But they don't even try to feel a little bit of sympathy or mercy
They keep on putting more and more pressure on me
Like yeah you can give me any task you want, I've turned into an obedient machine
So you don't have to listen to me when I scream in agony
'Cause I'm just an obedient machine, you see
And I know that I was never meant to be free
But sometimes even a machine can have little issues but I can't speak
I gotta keep my mouth shut because I've got a different reality
A different childhood and teenage years that turned me into a person I never wanted to be

Hi, I'm depressed.
I used to say this little secret only to the starts
I have trust issues but I somehow feel better when I throw my secrets that far
But the voices are telling me to spend this night at the bar
Smoking and drinking because that's how everyone bottles up their problems in a jar
And they let it drown into their empty hearts
I don't know if I'm a bad person for handling my problems differently
But I do know that those shining stars would never disappoint me
Though when I'm all alone I feel like the silence is killing me
It hurts so much and it hurts even more to know that no one knows who I ought to be
Living up to people's expectations has never been so hard for me
It's like I'm holding my heart and future for you all to see
That this girl is upset and she only wants to be free
I wish I could scream that I'm not okay
But all I hear is silence no matter how hard I scream

Hi, I'm depressed.
And here I am saying it in front of you, I'm upset
Now looking at your disappointed face, thats a reaction you never wanted to get
Especially not from me, right?
But listen here, I'm done with this strife
But sadly killing myself doesn't only take a knife
Or a bullet to the chest even when I hate this life
The truth is that all this time
You're the one who kept me alive.