This song is dedicated to someone I lost exactly 2 years ago, without being able to say goodbye to her. Since it still hurts to talk about this I wrote a song of it, because writing helps me to cope with alot of things. So yeah, I hope y'all like it.

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-Intro (talking)-

Y'know, it's been two years since you've found your way out of here. I'm kinda jealous of that. Yet somehow I'm still not convinced that you're gone, because... I don't know. It still feels like you're here, like everytime I look up I manage to smile because I know you're here for me, listening to every word I say even when everyone leaves. I miss you though.

-Verse 1-

I'm looking above, right at the sky
Wondering what would change if I cried
Wishing I could just turn back in time
To fix our problems and erase my lies
I said I was fine, but whenever I sigh
Breath leaves my lips and tears leave my eyes
Because this is the loss that's made me realize-
How ungrateful I was, yeah life made me blind
And it's only right now that I regained my sight
That's when I saw your pictures on my device
Laying in a hospital bed all dressed in white
With a tired look on your face you still smiled
Letting the world know you haven't lost this fight
Like an angel you faded from this cruel life
Still staying a memory in your family's minds
So here I am now seeing one more light smile-
Back at me whenever I glance at the sky
Just know that you're the brightest star inside-
This beautiful galaxy, I'm not gonna lie-
I was never prepared to say goodbye
Just know that I'll never forget you as long as I'm alive

-Chorus (sing)-

I guess we all know
What it's like to lose control
While looking at their grave, remembering the mistakes we wish we'd never done
Yeah we all know
What it's like to lose hope
As you try to let go of the person who helped you through it all...
But now they're all (gone)

-Verse 2-

Gone, and you can't replace 'em
All I can do is write on this paper
That I knew she was meant for something greater
Than being here in pain, she finally met her saviour
While I'm here waiting to meet mine sooner or later
But it's taking ages, someone must've managed to break 'em
Although I wanna end this myself I promised I'll be patient
That's what's keeping me from aiming this gun at my brain and-
Pulling the trigger, while this girl's a mess the whole world hates her
Yeah, I'm the type of girl who's surrounded by haters-
That she don't look at, just hoping someone will answer her prayers
That one day some kind of miracle would happen and save her
From the demons inside her who can't do shit but blame her
For the loss that's made her feel dead inside yet more faithful
Y'know after you left I saw you in my dreams
Said that you missed me with eyes full of tears
I was so shocked to see you right here
As you held me so tight that it felt real
But suddenly your grip on me started to ease
You fell in my arms, couldn't stand on your feet
So I carried you to the couch and told you to breathe
Still not able to hide the shock that I used to feel
I wiped away your tears, said I'll always be here
You will be alright and I'll never leave
I don't know what I did but forgiveness is all I seek
And I hope you'll be with me in my moments of grief
' Cause I want you to see that in this world of beasts
I've been a survivor who's always lived free
And I hope I'll make you proud when I die as a queen

-Chorus (sing)-

I guess we all know
What it's like to lose control
While looking at their grave, remembering the mistakes we wish we'd never done
Yeah we all know
What it's like to lose hope
As you try to let go of the person who helped you through it all...
But now they're all gone

-Outro (Sing)-

Now they're all gone
(Now they're all gone)
She's gone.