This is just a verse, I might use it in future collaborations or just keep it the way it is. And guess how I got inspo for this? I was watching a movie about the Russian Sleep Experiment and one of the victims suddenly was on the verge of breaking down and was like I can't breathe in my own skin. And boom, I wrote a verse about that one sentence bc I kinda felt relatable, except that I'm not a victim of an experiment lol. Anyways I'll shut up now, hope y'all like it.

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I somehow can't remember where the hell I've been
Life's got me feeling like I can't breathe in my own skin
Can't survive a day without some pills and a bottle of gin
Don't know who I am anymore with these tears streaming down my chin
Sometimes in order to survive you're gonna have to sin
And try not to look in the mirror 'cause you don't wanna see these demons grin
Back at you as you try to find yourself in this darkness within
I wish I could give up and end it all but I know my demons don't deserve to win
Ain't got a choice but to fight back, yet I feel so defeated and I can't help it
The thought about freedom has become my heroin
And all these battles I fought made me become an addict to adrenaline
And I don't give a damn no more if my life's gonna be ending
All I know is that in my final minutes I'll be proud of my achievement
Sitting in this prison, freedom is my hope and it's all I believe in
Fighting my own demons in a place I never felt relief in
I'm not faking when I say I'm breaking, yeah I'm the only one you gotta stay real with
Once I escape and survive this prison I won't care about your disagreements
I mean I don't care already, I'll just walk past all this hate and hope you'll decrease it
You're acting like a damn pirate but in reality you're seasick
Then telling me I write for attention but honestly I need this
And I won't let you erase me easily, get close to me and you'll end up in pieces
I don't just write for the fame, these are my secrets
This used to be my diary that I wrote in everyday and I still keep it
This is my story but I don't care if you don't take the time to read it
It's either writing or staring at the window and remember back when I was a free kid
Don't know how I got in this cell once I lost all of my feelings
Used to feel so alive but now I can barely feel my heart beating
I used to be fearless, never thought I'd ever let my fears win
It feels like I'm standing in front of my own grave, not even grieving
Just staring quietly at the old me under my own feet two meters
You think this'll be over? Nah, this ain't just a simple fever
It took 18 years of my life and more as long as I don't believe this
One lie that everyone believes but I don't wanna believe it
If I wanna survive on my own to get freedom then I'll achieve it
I know I'll escape one day, but for now just let me take a moment to breathe yeah