I don't know. I've felt like this for all of my life. I've been abused. Hurt over and over again and I was forced to endure. I eventually got used to all the hate and the pain but there was always that one time where it would get to me and make me feel like I should go die or something. I felt bad for everyone who's had to deal with me and my problems. I've felt bad since birth. I'm sorry for making those who are close to me suffer. This might be the last time I say ;"Till next time my fellow readers" but don't be sad I'll be fine. I'll be happy and maybe others will be too. Who knows? I'm sorry for rambling. Till next time my fellow readers~ 8') 8)