Chapter 1

Celebes Enna Escuadro

[ Ogre 1: LAYUAN MO ANG ASAWA KO! PUNYETA KA! PUNYETA KA! YOU FUCKING BITCH! MAMATAY KA NANG PUTA KA!!! ]

I giggled at the horseshit language used by this crazy bitch. Akala ko ba may class? Eh kung makamura aakalain mong lumaki sa kalye. Tsk. Hindi na ako nagulat na mas pinili akong makasama ng asawa niya kaysa marinig ang kanyang pagbubunganga.

My irritation shot up so I let go of the phone and looked at Damien who's currently lapping my pussy like his life depended on it. My back was on the bed while he's going down on me on his knees. His tongue flicked and sucked expertly and started fingering my core but I could only roll my eyes.

I really don't like being eaten or fingered. Mas gusto kong burat na agad. Sino ba kasing nag-imbento sa foreplay? Nakakaasiwa. Pinatagal-tagal pa eh itutusok din naman.

"Hey, your wife just texted me," pag-iimporma ko sa kanya at narinig ko naman itong bahagyang natawa.

"What did she say?" he asked in amusement. Kumislap pa ang mga asulan nitong mata habang pinupuntirya na ng kanyang kahabaan ang aking hiyas. "Did she ask what position I'm using right now to please you, Enna?" pagbibiro pa ng walanghiya. Hinawakan niya ang magkabila kong hita at marahas na ibinaon ang kanyang pinagmamalaking walong pulgada sa loob ko. "Ahhh fuck. Ang sarap mo talaga, puta." Napaarko ang katawan ko sa sarap ng pakiramdam ng mainit niyang alaga na nagsimulang maglabas-masok sa akin. "Wow. You're squeezing me good," ani pa nito at sinuklay pataas ang kanyang magulong blonde na buhok. He looked like a damn Greek god on top of me. Nangingintab ang kanyang bato-batong katawan dahil nakailang rounds na rin kami ngayong gabi. I traced his abs with my hands so he flashed me one of his killer smiles, one that could make any woman begging in her knees. He was too dangerous. I let go of his body and began playing with my own breasts. "So what did my wife ask you this time, Enna?"

I pinched my nipple and I saw how Damien's eyes glinted with desire. Wala na siyang ibang nagawa kundi magpatuloy sa pag-ulos habang naglalaway na lamang na mahawakan ang aking katawan.

I won't let him though. He can fuck me but he's not allowed to touch me as if I'm his lover because I'm not. We're just friends with benefits. Nothing more, nothing less. Ito ang napagkasunduan naming arrangement. I can touch him but he can never touch my boobs, kiss my lips, or do some romantic gestures. I just want his cock, his mouth, or fingers for my pussy and he can also fuck me anytime anywhere as long as he'll do it quick.

Quickies...my absolute favorite type of sex. Fast and mind-blowing.

"Wala naman. Minura ulit ako ng asawa mong tigang." He smirked and began pounding me like crazy. Klarong na-e-excite ito sa pagtataksil niya sa babaeng yun. Such a weirdo. "Seriously, you have to fuck her some time. Kapag nakikita ko siya, halatang napapabayaan eh," I said with a smile.

But I really don't like the idea of him fucking that woman. Kahit ako ang kasa-kasama ni Damien, umuuwi pa rin ito sa babaeng yun. Fucking frustrating.

Damien licked his lips.

"How can I even fuck her when you're always milking me so good?" nang-aakit nitong sabi at diniin ang aking bewang sa kama. Nirapido niya ako ng ulos kaya nanginginig ang aking balakang sa kanyang bawat salpok. He cursed under his breath as my pussy clenched his cock. I began licking my lips as the pleasure quickly built up inside me. "Ohh fuckk. You're dripping wet for me. You really like my cock so much?"

"Ohhh Damien ahhh ahhh..." He groaned and hammered inside me so I moaned and began shaking my hips to receive his forceful thrusts. "Sige pa ohhhh ohhh Damien!"

"Damn it, so tight! Ahh fuck!"

"Faster~ Faster~" Tumirik ang mga mata ko habang nararamdaman ang pagkiskis ng kanyang burat sa aking loob. "Ohhh shit, Damien..." malakas kong usal nang walang pasabi niya akong binaliktad nang hindi hinuhugot ang kanyang kahabaan. He continuously slammed inside me while my boobs were rubbing on the pillow. He began slapping my ass while he fucked me from behind. "Ohhh Damien~"

"It's nice to hear you moan my name," he said and chuckled. "Am I being rewarded because my wife is pissed off?" I squirmed. "Fuck! You're too good!"

I laughed and started clawing on the bed sheet as I felt his cock throbbed and became bigger inside.

"Ohh you know me well, Damien... Too well... Ahh ahh!"

"Hmm," he hummed and said. "You're even letting me fuck you beyond 5 minutes now. I thought my maximum is 3?"

Fuck. Baka mahalata pa ako nitong may pagnanasa sa kanya.

"Oh shut up and just fuck me."

Natawa ito at mabilis namang sinunod ang utos ko.

"Gladly, baby."

My heart thumped hard in my chest as I heard the endearment. Pinikit ko na lang ang mga mata ko at umungol para hindi mapansin ni Damien ang aking reaksyon.

Damn. Why'd I have to fall in love with this guy?

—

I didn't know when it started. Naging masyado akong kampante na sex lang ang habol namin ni Damien sa isa't isa kaya hindi ko naprotektahan ang puso ko. I ended up wanting for more whenever we're together and I know this wouldn't end well. We're just playing around. He has a wife and he just calls me if he's sexually frustrated. I've become his regular booty call. Magrereklamo pa ba ako kung call boy ko rin naman siya? Hahahaha.

Damien can't resist my body. Bali-baliktarin man ang mundo, nag-iinit agad kami kapag nakikita ang isa't isa. Dati naman ay hindi ganito. Ako ang dehado. Kaya nga hindi ako nagpapahawak masyado kay Damien dahil baka hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko at masabi kong ako ang piliin niya.

Damn it all. I should do something about this growing feelings. Dapat kong ibaling sa ibang bagay ang atensyon ko. Kailangan ko na siguro ng iba pang lalaki. Mago wouldn't like it though. Argh.

Dalawa ang regular kong sex partners na alam ang gusto kong hanap na quickie, si Damien at si Mago. They know each other and they're both committed. Alam din nila na silang dalawa ang mga longest regular sex partners ko. Ayos lang naman yun kay Damien pero kay Mago... Tsk. Paminsan-minsan kasi ay nagiging seloso ang isang yun.

"What are you thinking?" Nagitla ako nang marinig ang inaantok na boses ni Damien. Pupungas-pungas itong nagkamot ng buhok at nahigit ko na lamang ang aking hininga nang makita siyang gwapong-gwapo na nakaupo sa tabi ko. Ang sarap talaga nito tingnan kapag bagong gising. His blue eyes were almost liquid from too much sleep and his perfect body just made my pussy wet again. "May problema ba, baby?"

Umiling na lang ako at tinago ang aking nararamdaman sa isang ngisi. Hindi na niya kailangang malaman pa.

"You know... I'm thinking of finding another sex partner other than Mago and you."

He blinked then he grinned—a usual reaction from someone who doesn't have any bit of interest in my heart. Dapat hindi na ako umasang magseselos ito.

"We've been fucking for two years. And Mago had been with you for a year too. Hindi na ako nagulat na may gusto ka na namang makilalang iba." Tila balewala lamang ang ideyang sinabi ko dahil sa kanyang swabeng pahayag.

Not even a hint of disappointment there. Tila wala talaga itong pakialam sa narinig. Parang mas na-e-excite pa nga ito.

Geez. Him and his passion for cheating.

"I'm still looking for the quickest sex," sagot ko na lamang.

Bumunghalit ng tawa si Damien at napahampas pa sa unan. Tawang-tawa ang gwapong loko. Madalas itong seryoso pero kapag magkasama kami, lumalabas lagi ang mga tawa nito. Ginagawa pa akong clown. Tsk.

"Yeah, right. Of course you are," pagbibiro nito. "Are you still up for that world's fastest quickie you're dreaming of?" He playfully licked his lips. "Wanna set the record with me?"

I pouted. Tsk. Binibiro pa talaga ako nito. Hirap na hirap na nga itong malabasan agad. Ang lakas-lakas kasi ng stamina at resistensya. One time I wanted to know how long he can last and we ended up fucking for hours. I even tried edging for him. Psh. Halos mamatay ako kakapigil na malabasan kaya mas gusto ko talaga ang mga quickie.

"What's wrong with a quickie? It's exciting!" Hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit ba pinapatagal ang sex. "Our fastest quickie is 1 minute and 30 seconds. Mago and I have 2 minutes. I need just a few seconds to set a world record."

"I don't even know why you like premature ejaculation. Sex should be enjoyed longer." Inilahad pa nito ang mga palad na para bang nag-p-presentang businessman. He shrugged his shoulders. "I mean, some girls even want it longer! Ikaw lang ang may gusto nang mabibilis."

Hindi mo kasi alam Damien na sa tagal nating nag-s-sex, mas nahuhulog ako sa'yo.

Napailing na lang ako sa naiisip.

"It feels good for me to know that you can't keep yourself from shooting your load in me."

Parang nagulat pa ito sa narinig.

"Really?" he murmured and groaned. "Fuck. Just hearing you say that is making my dick hard again." Uminit ang pisngi ko sa sinabi nito kaya dali-dali ko siyang hinampas ng unan. "Ow~ Geez, love. I'm just kidding. I know you're so sore right now."

Mas lalo ko lang siyang hinampas dahil sa pinagsasabi.

Gago ka Damien. How could you make me red with just a few words?!

Hindi na ako nagulat nang hawakan ni Damien ang unan at saka tinapon papalayo. Naramdaman ko na lang ang paghila nito kaya napasalampak ako sa kanyang hubad na harapan. Napasinghap ako sa gulat at natagpuan na lang ang sarili kong umuungol dahil sa pagsipsip niya sa aking dibdib.

Hindi ito kumukurap habang dumidila siya sa aking dunggot. Nakagat ko ang labi ko habang tinititigan ang klarong pagnanasa sa kanyang mga mata. Wala sa sarili akong napasabunot sa kanyang buhok at nakita ko kung paano kumislap ang kanyang mga mata sa tuwa.

His tongue licked and bit my nipples hungrily. My lips parted as his cock slowly eased its way inside my core. My cunt was already so soaked with juices when he rammed inside me upwards so I squeezed his dick hard.

"F-Fuck, Enna," mahina niyang mura. "You feel so good." Tumingala ito sa akin at saka napatitig sa aking mga labi. "I want to kiss you so fucking bad. Is it okay?"

Yes, yes! I want you to kiss me!

I bit my lips to stop myself from uttering those words but Damien already knew what I wanted.

Napalunok ako sa kaba nang dahan-dahan niyang nilapit ang mukha niya sa akin.

"Enna," he whispered. "I—"

Ring~ Ring~

Shit. Istorbo. What was Damien about to say?

Pareho kaming natigilan nang marinig ang tunog na yun. Mabilis akong umalis sa kanyang kandungan na para bang napaso. Kita ko ang pag-iling ni Damien bago ako tumalikod at ikinubli ang sarili ko sa makapal na kumot.

Ring~ Ring~

Nagbuntong-hininga si Damien at naramdaman ko ang paggalaw nito.

"Hello, Daniel?" I heard Damien said. Daniel. I recalled it was his younger brother. "W-What? Come again? Hospital?" nauutal nitong tanong. Naintriga ako kung anong nakapagpakaba sa kanya kaya nakinig ako nang mabuti. "S-She's really pregnant?" Tila gumuho ang mundo ko nang marinig yun. Nanlamig ang puso ko at iba't ibang senaryo ng pag-iwan ni Damien sa akin ang pumasok sa aking isipan. "L-Let me talk to Keera." Fuck. It's his wife. Tsk. Pinikit ko na lang ang mga mata ko sa sobrang pait na nararamdaman. "Y-Yeah? O-Okay! I'm going! Wait for me, love."

Love.

Hah. I should've known. Nakuyom ko ang kamao ko hanggang sa bumaon na ang kuko ko sa aking palad. Hindi ko man lang maramdaman ang sakit na yun dahil mas masakit ang mga narinig ko mula kay Damien.

Wala naman akong karapatan pero ang sakit pa ring malaman na magkakaanak na sila.

What was I even hoping for? I'm just someone he fucks. He makes love to her while he just fucks me like a dog.

Narinig ko ang mga kaluskos at tunog ng zipper kaya alam ko nang nagbibihis na si Damien. Para pa itong natataranta dahil nabangga pa ito sa kama. Halata ngang gustong-gusto na niyang uwian ulit ang asawa niya.

I sighed and slowly sat up. I saw him fiddle with his buttons but he was clearly panicking. I rolled my eyes at the sight and got up. Then, I strode towards him so he paused. Nanlaki ang mga mata niya nang hinawakan ko ang nanginginig niyang mga kamay.

"Ako na."

He froze and looked at me as if he was seeing a ghost. Did he just forget that I was still in the room because of the news from his wife? I blinked to stop the tears from forming. Hindi rin naman mahirap magpigil ng luha dahil nasanay na ako. Hindi na bago itong gusto na akong iwan.

Hindi nga naman talaga ako kamahal-mahal. Hindi rin ako karespe-respeto. Hindi ko man lang mabilang kung iilang lalaki na ang inakit ko mula sa kanilang mga asawa. Maybe the world is punishing me right now. I fell in love just to be left alone again. How can they even love me when it's so damn hard to find the pieces that'd prove I'm capable of loving or whether I'm worthy of being loved.

"Enna..." His pleading voice snapped me back to reality.

I gave him a reassuring smile and started doing his buttons for him. Pinigilan ko ang sariling manginig at iilang segundo lang ay natapos ko na ang pagbubutones sa kanya.

"E-Enna, I-I—" Napalunok ito, tila kinakabahan. Hinaplos ko ang kanyang magkabilang pisngi at saka pinisil ang kanyang ilong. Nanlaki ang kanyang mga mata sa ginawa ko.

"It's okay." Unti-unti kong nilapit ang mukha ko sa kanya at ginawaran siya ng isang mabilis na halik. "I guess this is goodbye, Damien." Pagkatapos ay muli ko siyang hinalikan. Sa pagkakataong 'to, diniin ko ang sarili ko sa kanya at pinulupot ang mga braso ko sa kanyang leeg. My fingers tangled with his hair and opened my mouth to receive his tongue. He groaned so I playfully laughed.

Nilayo ko ang sarili ko sa kanya at pinagsalikop ang mga kamay ko sa aking likuran para hindi makita ni Damien ang panginginig nito. Tumitig siya sa akin nang maigi at kitang-kita ko ang kakaibang emosyon sa kanyang mga mata.

"I love—" he whispered and paused—no, scratch that. He stopped. He chose to.

It was the best choice. For both of us.

Ayoko nang umasa pa at mas lalong dapat suportahan ko na lang ang kagustuhan niya.

"Go..." It took all of my courage to muster that word without stuttering. He stared at me. Nang hindi man lang ito gumalaw ay mahina ko na siyang tinulak. He stumbled and gave me a complicated gaze. "Go to her." It hurts. "It's okay. She needs you, Damien."

He cursed under his breath and stepped forward to give me a hug. Naramdaman ko ang paghalik nito sa aking noo at narinig ang mahina niyang bulong.

"I'm sorry, Enna."

Pagkatapos ay tumalikod na ito sa akin. Kinuha na niya ang mga gamit niya habang nakatayo lamang ako roon at tulala siyang pinapanood. Ni hindi na ito tumingin sa akin nang binuksan nito ang pinto at sinarado sa kanyang pag-alis.

I stared at the door for a few minutes while silently waiting for it to open again, while silently hoping that he'd come back to me.

But what the hell was I in his life? I was the one who draw the line and I was the one who first went pass it. I shouldn't have... Fuck love. Ako ang nagsabing walang pagmamahal na dapat mamagitan sa amin pero ako ang naghangad. Ako ang nahulog.

Ngayon, ako ang iniwan.

Bumigay na ang mga tuhod ko at sumalampak ako sa sahig. Hindi ko na napigilang masigaw sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman.

I hate this. I hate this feeling.

And I burst out crying while remembering Damien. I met him on one of the darkest days of my life. Maybe it was the timing which made my heart choose him. Maybe it was the pain. Maybe it was because he wasn't there for the sex but also to be a friend, a companion. He made me feel alive. His smile gave me a reason to live again. And love again.

Gods... Bakit ba laging ganito? Bakit siya pa? I thought I made my heart love-proof but his soothing words just slowly crept inside the cracks of my dying organ. Kung kaya ko lang pigilan ay tinigil ko na pero mas lalo pa itong lumalakas kapag nakikita ko ang mukha niya. His lips... His smile.. His laughter... The way he explodes inside me as if he wanted to give me his world.

It was all a fucking delusion.

He can love me but he chose her. I love him but I can't even choose because I'm just his mistress, a dog begging for his spare affection. He might have just mistaken his desire for me for love.

Nakakatawa. I'm so pathetic for even thinking that he'll say that he loves me. I shouldn't have hoped. I should've just broke off our arrangement when I started to fall for him but I was deluded by his sweet words.

Nakakatanga.

Ngayon wala na akong magagawa kundi pakawalan siya dahil siya na ang kusang umalis. Magiging ama na rin siya. Hindi ko kayang isipin na may bata akong pinagkakaitan ng atensyon dahil lang sa kamunduhan. Argh. Nakakatawang may konsensya pa akong natitira.

I sighed heavily and buried my face on the bed. I could still smell sex on the sheets so I groaned.

Ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. Sabi ko na nga bang nakakasakit talaga ang magmahal. Naririnig ko na ang sarili kong pinangangaralan ang mga kaibigan ko tungkol sa pagmamahal noon at akala ko sapat na ang paniniwalang yun para maprotektahan ko ang puso ko.

Love is like a quickie. Fast and painfully pleasurable but that's just it. It can end in just a few minutes. Heck, even seconds.

But I still love it anyway. Yep, here I am. In all of my naked dirty and broken glory, just left by the man who was ramming me a while ago. Just a few words from his wife and now poof Nakakabaliw rin talaga ang magmahal.

Nagpatuloy na lang ako sa pag-iyak habang tumitingala sa kisame.

He's not coming back. He's not.

He's not coming back. Never again.

My heart tightened because of the pain but I could only cry. Marahas kong pinunasan ang aking luha dahil nanlalabo na ang aking paningin. Kinuha ko ang unan sa gilid ko at buong puwersa itong tinapon palayo. Kinuha ko naman ang unan na ginamit ni Damien at hinampas-hampas ito sa kama.

"I hate you! I hate you!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as if I wanted everyone to hear me. "I hate you Damien Gold! I hate you!" Napaiyak na lang ulit ako at napahiyaw sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman.

He's not coming back.

It was always the same.

Why would he even come back?

Why would the world have mercy on a dirty soul?

I closed my eyes to stop myself from crying but the tears just won't stop. Tila tinutuya ako ng mga luhang 'to na kailanman ay hindi ako sasaya.

Fuck. I just needed quickies but here I am. Hurt.