I pushed back from the kiss.

"What are you doing?!" I screeched standing up. She just looked at me and smiled.

"What's wrong?" She asks, stepping close to me and putting her hands on my hips. I stare at her, eyebrows knitted, and thoughts start to swarm my brain.

Is this girl crazy?

What is wrong with her?

Why did she kiss me?

WHY DID I LIKE IT!?!!

I kissed a girl and I liked it.

It felt so wrong, but it felt so right.

I'm confused. I just...I need to...

"I think I should go." I mustered up.

"Why? We're just getting started." She kissed me again and slowly slid her hands into my leggings, touching my kitty cake: Michael's KittyCake.

"Sss" she began to rub me down there. It felt so good, I didn't know what to do. My mind was convulsing. I was confused. I know this is wrong, I know this is bad. "Get away from me!!" I pushed her back. I looked at her like she was crazy, which she was by the way, and grabbed Serenity's baby bag and car seat and walked to the door.

"Sofia??" Zack called out.

"Leave me alone. I need...I need to get out of here." I got into my car and drove to Bella's house.

**

"Fee!! Where have you been?" Cassidy scolded as I stepped out of the car and getting Serenity out as well.

"I had to clear my head. I'm sorry about that."

"For an hour?"

"Yeah."

"Well, Michael is in there and he says that he needs to talk with you." I looked at her.

"About what?"

"I don't know. He didn't say. "

"Is he upset?" I asked like a child being scared of her father for doing something bad.

"I can't really tell. He won't look at any of us. He's just siting on the couch with his head down." I sighed.

He's upset.

We walked into the house and everyone greeted me with hugs and kisses. I smiled at them because they made my day. I'm so stressed out, it's ridiculous.

"Hey Michael." I spoke softly with a smile on my face, as I sat by him on the couch. He slowly lifted his head to look at Serenity, who was in Avery's arms by now.

"Where did you go with my daughter?"

"Out."

"Where?"

"I just went out Michael. Why does it matter? I mean I am her mother and it shouldn't matter where I go with our daughter." He looked at me than got up. He walked to Bella and whispered something in her ear, then came back to me.

"Get up." He stated calmly.

"Why?" Not feeling in the mood, and even more annoyed and irritated, he snatched me up, and led me to the back room, where he shut and locked the door.

"What did I do Michael? Is something wrong?"

"Where did you take my daughter Sofia." I sighed and rolled my eyes to the ceiling.

"Why do you want to know so badly?"

"Because Serenity is my daughter Sofia, as much as she is yours. I had no idea where you were or went. My daughter's safety is everything to me and I don't want anything bad happening to her at all."

"I get that."

"So where did you go?"

"Zack's house." He looked at me and started to chuckle unamused.

"Alright, but seriously Sofia, where did you take her?"

"To Zack's house Michael." I stated again with a little more exacerbation.

"You took my daughter to his house!?" He raised his voice.

"Yes.."

"Why on earth would you take my child to his house?"

"Because you're done with me. You don't love me anymore."

"I don't?" he questioned with an raised eyebrow.

"No." I stated lowly, looking down to the floor.

"How would you know this?" He crossed his arms and took a step closer to me.

"Because you didn't even pay attention to me when I left your house. You keep throwing my mistakes, that I did with Zack, in my face. You don't trust me. You don't care for me. You just simply don't love me like the way you use to. We're broken. Do you know how worthless you make me feel? We can't be fixed, Michael. It's obvious we shouldn't be together."

"Is this you speaking or your heart?"

I looked up at him for a second, than at my hands as I said. "Both" it was quiet for a few seconds. I looked back up at him as I saw the pain in his eyes return.

He hesitantly spoke, regretting his decision. "If this is what you want, then so be it."

"What are we?"

"Done. Just like you want it." He replied teary eyed. He turned his back to me.

"We're always breaking up Michael. Our relationship is terrible. I want us to stay together. I want to be with you forever, instead of breaking up every two seconds. I can't have that around our daughter. We just need a break, to let us reconnect, and if we were really meant to be, then we will be together again only this time we aren't gonna break up--."

He walked out of the room, slamming the door on the way, stopping me from speaking further. I sighed and looked at myself in the mirror.

"Life is full of drama" I sighed again and just stared at myself.

I was once this broken girl, who was afraid of everything. Didn't know what the true meaning of love was until I met Michael. He saved my life and truly cared for me and loved me. It seems like everything started to go downhill when Zack reappeared into my life. I wish he hadn't....Everything would have been okay between Michael and I. We wouldn't be going through these things.

I just don't know anymore.

I walked out of the back room, after wiping tears that slipped from my now hazel eyes.

"Is everything okay?" Bella asked as I walked into the kitchen and grabbed an apple.

"Everything's fine. What are our plans?" I asked rinsing my apple off with cold water.

"Well, first we are gonna order pizza, than we'll watch a movie or something, put the girls to bed. And finally have our first mother/girl talk."

"Alright. Where did Michael go?" I curiously asked.

"He took Serenity to the other room a while ago. Probably like five minutes before you came out." I slowly nod and bite into my apple. It's so good.

"Hey, do you have any peanut butter, Neapolitan ice cream, and a bag of hot chips in here?" I asked as I threw away my apple. My stomach started to churn after I swallowed the first bite.

"Yeah, ice cream is in the deep freezer, hot chips are in the food/junk food pantry, and peanut butter is in the cabinet. It's a new jar." I smiled at her and began my search for the items.

I smiled wider when I found all of the items "yasss!! I found it. Hey you guys try this." I said as I got a hot chip and a spoonful of strawberry, vanilla, an chocolate (aka Neapolitan...) ice cream.

They all tried it and looked at me with an look upon their faces. I didn't know if they like it or if it was nasty, they just looked at me.

"Well? What do guys think?"

"It sounds so weird, but it taste...it taste so good." Cassidy spoke as she took another chip and bite of ice cream. Avery and Cassidy agreed and did the same thing next.

I giggled at them as I watch them devour almost the whole thing.

"Dang y'all, save some for me." They looked up at me and chuckled.

**

"Mother, she said she think we should take a break. I just got her back." I've been siting here for a while, talking to my mother about what happened between myself and Sofia.

"What was her reason sweetheart?"

"She said it was because she thought I didn't love her, or trust her. She said we were broken and we should just take a break. She doesn't want Serenity to grow up around this, meaning us breaking up and getting back together. She's tired of us breaking up every two seconds. And me throwing her mistakes in her face."

"Just give her time, Michael."

"Time? She can do that while still with me. What if I fall out of love with her?"

"Do you love her?"

"Yes. I know and feel that I do. I don't even have to think about that."

"Are you in love with Sofia?"

"Madly, deeply"

"Then, if you say you are, you shouldn't have to worry about falling out of love with her. You need to let her sit back and think, but don't give up on your relationship. You two are beautiful together, and I know one downfall won't destroy you. Take a look at Joseph and I. He's hurt me and I'm still with him. That's because I love him and I can't just up and walk away from him when he needs me."

"But I love her. I want her near me. I want to see her beautiful smile every morning when I tickle her awake. I want to hear her laugh. I want to look deep into her eyes and watch them change to purple, or blue, green, or even hazel. I want her by my side forever, mother."

"I know baby. She'll gradually come back to you. You two have a child together, so that means she'll have to see you."

"I know mother, but I don't want her to see me everyday because of Serenity. I want her to come everyday because of me."

"Two years Michael. You guys have been together for two years, do you really think she's gonna let that all slip away, and after all you guys have been through together?"

"Mother, Sofia means so much to me. I can't just let her leave me."

"Let me ask you a question, and I want you to think about this really good. I want you to ask yourself this and I want the answer to come from your heart. Why do you love her? Why do you love her so much?"

**

"So, I told him I think we should take a break."

"My concern, is why on earth would you have sex with Zack." Bella asked, biting into her spinach pizza.

"I thought Michael was going to cheat on me." I cried silently as I felt guilty all over again.

"Sofia, that's the dumbest thing I've ever heard. If you thought he was going to cheat on you, and you went to cheat on him to get revenge, you were wrong. You were dead wrong. Why would you do that? What's wrong with you girl? You're better than this. How can you continue to hurt Michael like this? He's hurt you, yes, but you could be the bigger person here and try to fix things. I know it's hard hearing this, but I don't know why Michael even loves you." I sat back and continued to cry silently on Avery and Cassidy's shoulders as Bella talked to me.

It's hard to know that I've done wrong, but to hear it from my friends, my best friends, is even harder. They always open my eyes for me.

I sat back and let all of Bella's works sink in. I had questions and responses to every one of her statements, except for one.

Why does Michael love me?

"I don't know why he loves me. You don't have to worry about it anymore because we are done. We're over."

"Slow down Sofia. Calm down, you're gonna trigger your asthma. Breath in slowly and exhale slowly." Bella coped as I began to have trouble breathing.

I really need to calm down, like yesterday.

"I...I don't try to h--hurt him. I love him. He means so much to me. That's why we can't be together. He needs to find somebody else, somebody better."

"You are his better. You're the only one for him. You two were meant to be.
que no es tu culpa. Mantenga su chica cabeza. Destino estará allí. Sólo tener esperanza y fe y saber que todo estará bien. Todo volverá a la serenidad. Nos guste utilizar para. Sólo aliento."

(Translation: it's not your fault. Keep your head up girl. Destiny will be there. Just have hope and faith and know that everything will be alright. Everything will go back to Serenity. Like it use to. Just breath.)

"Yo no quiero seguir haciéndole daño. Tengo que salir de aquí tengo que dejarla. él puede mantener la serenidad. él puede quedarse con ella. Necesito respirar. que alguien me ayude."

(Translation: I don't wanna keep hurting him. I have to get out of here I need to get away. he can keep Serenity. he can keep her. I need to breath. somebody help me.)

"Calm down Sofia. Your stressing yourself out too much. If you want to go away for a while, then do it. Drive Serenity back to Michael's house and leave. I'll go with you. We can stay together and help each other out. I can help you out. When we get back, I promise you everything will be alright." I looked at Cassidy as she spoke to me. She wiped my tear and I hugged her tightly.

"Thank you. Thank you so much." I hugged her tighter as we pulled back. I stood up and looked at them.

"Where did Michael go?"

"He left. Serenity is in the crib asleep."

"I'll be right back. I'm going to go and take Serenity to Michael. I need to leave this city tonight." I wiped my eyes and left the room.

I gathered all of her things and placed them into my car and renter the house to grab Serenity.

"We will be right here when you get back Sofia. Tell him what you're gonna do and just leave. Don't let him ask you questions, just go all out and tell him so he doesn't have to ask and you don't have to answer any questions."

"Okay." I spoke softly to Bella as I hugged everyone. "I'll be back." They all nodded and watched as I left out the door, got into my car, and drive away to Michael's house.

This is going to be so hard. But I have to do this. For Serenity and myself.