I don't deserve her. I don't know why she loves me, probably the same reason why I love her.

But there's something about Rachel. Don't get me wrong, I love Fee I really do. I'm madly in love with her but it's like I'm stuck...stuck between Rachel and Fee. They are both beautiful women. One I'm in love with but the other I'm not.

I'm suppose to be different. But all I'm doing is acting like them. Acting like Zack and Joseph. I don't like this. I'm suppose to only have eyes for Sofia, but all I've been doing is hurting her. I do not deserve her but I love her and can't let her go. I can't let her get away.

~~~Fee's POV~~~

Life's a bitch.

I mean it's all starting to add up. From the hang up phone calls to the late night calls and the rough and bossy ness. Michael can be a pain in the ass at times but I love him.

I need to know the truth. I don't want my heart to be in anymore pain.

Justin mention a girl named Rachel that Michael supposedly said was his girlfriend.

Last time I check I've been dating Michael for a month and two weeks. I'm his girlfriend. How is that even possible.

I'm sitting here in the family room by the window looking at the animals roam the land. I see bubbles coming in the house.

Now Michael says he is friendly but I am scared of him.

He can be very nasty at times. For example one day I was in the kitchen getting some fruit out of the fruit basket and bubbles hopped on the table and tackled me with kisses. I backed away from him then he started sucking on my toes.

The phone rung.

I swear it better not be another hang up call it better not or I'm going to scream.

"Hello" I said agitated. This has got to be the 11th call that was a hang up call and it's starting to make me mad.

"What's wrong with you. I can't call and talk to my only sister?" it's snickers.

"Awe hey snickers. Sorry it's just that lately someone has been calling the phone and it's like every time I answer they hang up but when Michael or bill or Mike answers they don't hang up."

"Well who do you think it is?"

"If I knew snickers, I'd tell you but I honestly don't know."

"Okay so I might be a huge fan of Michael's but something ain't right here"

"Well what do you mean?"

"The day we were at his parents house and you were asleep"

"Yeah well what happened?"

"Well you see"

"What dammit tell me. I hate when you do that. Just tell me."

"This is going to hurt so bad"

"Snickers...I swear if you don't tell me."

"I seen Michael kissing a girl and what made it so bad they were kissing on your car."

I looked at the phone then put it back to my ear.

"What else did you see"

"I went to go and ask him when he would go on tour but they walked to the back of the house so I followed them."

"What did you see snickers?"

"They started doing the nasty. I mean he was hitting it real good he had one of her legs on his shoulder and he started to slam his..."

"Enough. I do not want to hear that."

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay. Are you sure this is what you saw?"

"Yes I swear to you"

"Sisters pledge"

"I swear, I swear , I swear on sissy lily hair that I did see what I saw and I'm telling you the truth. I did see it I swear I did but that was it and it will hurt you in the end."

"Oh god. This is...I don't know what the hell I'm doing anymore."

"Stop crying. It's okay"

"It's not."

"It is. Just ask him and if he lies about it then do what your heart is telling you."

"Okay. Thanks snickers. You come in handy"

"Well thank you and no problem. I'll come by later"

"Okay. Love you sis"

"Love you too. Bye twix"

"By snickers"

I hung up the phone. Michael is going to have a piece of my mind. I swear to god if he lies to me...

"Hey babe...why are you crying?"

"I'm not crying I had something in my eye."

"Awe okay. Are you coming to bed, we had a long day at rehearsal and I know you're tired"

"I am actually. But I want to ask you a question"

"What is it?"

"Do you know anyone named Rachel?"

He paused and looked at me.

"Well do you?" I asked. He just looked at me.

"Yes. I know Rachel. Why?"

"So you are admitting you know Rachel right?"

"Yes"

"Do you remember the day I met your parents?"

"Yes"

"And do you remember when I went to sleep?"

"Yes. Why"

"Was she there?"

"Who?"

"Rachel, was she there"

"Yes"

"Why?"

"....."

"Why Michael?"

He looked at me then looked down

"I don't know"

"You know Michael. Tell me now while I'm not mad."

"I don't know why she was there, I don't even know who she is"

"Are or should I say have you been cheating on me Michael?"

"No"

"You just lied"

"No I didn't"

"You did, I asked if you knew somebody named Rachel and you said yes"

"I..uh..i"

"You kissed her"

"No"

"You had sex with her behind the house."

"No"

"You kissed her on my car"

"I didn't babe"

"Shut the fuck up. Everything that's coming out of your mouth is a lie. Why the fuck won't you admit to it. You cheated and you know you did."

"I didn't...I didn't cheat on you."

"You are a fucking liar Michael. Move out of my way"

I walked away from him and laid down in the bed.

"Sofia!"

"No"

"Baby I swear I'm not cheating"

"Michael stop"

"I'm not cheating"

"Michael shut up"

"Okay fine you got me. I am cheating on you. I had sex with Rachel and I kissed her on your car. I've been with her for a couple of weeks. She's the one that's been hanging up and calling the house. We've had sex in this bed. We've had sex 15 times since we've met."

I immediately got out of the bed. Tears had already been streaming down my face. I did what I told myself I wouldn't do.

I ran.

"Sofia!"

"Michael shut up leave me alone I hate you. You know what I'm done ITS FUCKING OVER!"

I grabbed all of my clothes and packed as many clothes as I could into that suitcase and left.

Michael kept calling after me but I couldn't do it. I thought he was different.

I went wherever my car would take me and the place that it took me wasn't good. I found myself in front of Zack's house.

I knocked on the front door with my suitcase in my hand. He opened the door and a smile appeared on his face.

"Baby you've come back?"

"Yeah. don't call me Shayy. Call me Fee Fee or Fee"

"Okay. Fee you want to come in?"

"Yeah. I like this place. It's nice"

"Thank you. You want to go to bed?"

"Yeah. Umm.."

"It's okay. You can sleep with me. I won't bite baby."

"Okay."

I got into his bed and laid there. Crying silently and hoping I was making the right decision. From the looks of it he changed. He has changed. The house would usually smell like liquor or weed and it would be beer bottles all over the place. It doesn't look like that now. I mean it's nice and neat, like Michael's.

"Sofia. I'm sorry for everything I've done to you. I want to apologize for it all. I won't loose you again."

"Please don't say sorry. I'm tired of hearing that."

"Ok. Can I show you?"

"How?"

He kisses me on my cheek then my lips.

"Mmm...wait no I can't"

"Please?"

"No I can't I don't think this would be right"

We locked eyes and just like that I was caught by his spell.

"I know you aren't a virgin anymore. It hurts to know this too, just let me make love to you"

"O...o..okay"

And with that he took no time and started his kisses. Sending me to ecstasy with every one of them.

"Open your eyes"

I opened my eyes and looked at him. He started to lick me down there and I moaned loud.

"Does it feel good?"

"Yasssssss.....ssss.. oh god"

He stopped eating me out and slid off his pajama pants.

"I can finally have you. Do you want me now?"

"Oh shit. Yes"

He slid himself inside of me and I looked into his eyes and gasp

"It's okay. I'll be gentle."

He went in and out. In and out. In and out making me feel so good.

"Sssssss....go deeper...oooh yesss"

"You like it" he grunted

"Ssss...yes right there"

"Ahh"

"Ahh yess fuck me. Fuck me harder"

He did as told and set her off. She went crazy and tried her hardest not to scream.

"Go ahead. Let it out. Don't hold back"

She started to scream as she felt her walks tighten.

"I....ahhhh....I'm about to cum"

"Come on. Do it"

"Oooooh shit awe yes. I'm cuming I'm cuming"

She came and he pulled himself out of her and came on her stomach.

"Did you feel it?"

"I" she said out of breath and sleepy"
"I felt it."

"I'm tired. That was good. I love you"

"Mhm."

She went to sleep happy and knew that tomorrow would be hell. She had to go back to rehearsal.

"Zack?"

"Hmm?"

"I have to go to rehearsal tomorrow."

"That's fine. What time?"

"I go from 9:30am until whatever time he let's us go which is probably around 10:40pm or 11:00pm."

"Okay. Who you work for. Michael?"

"Yes."

"Okay. Goodnight."

"Night"

He wrapped his arms around her and they went to sleep.

Did she have sex with Zack to get back at Michael?
Did she have sex to get reconnected with Zack?
What will happen tomorrow?

No one knows the answer to these questions. But you'll find out in the future.