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I instantly ran to the car. I couldn't see anything. I heard lots of screaming and people yelling

"Move out of the way!!"

I screamed and screamed his name, hoping for a reply.

I didn't get one

"MICHAEL!! NOOOO PLEASE!!" I fell to the ground and cried as I pulled at my hair.

The car exploded. This is my fault. It's all my fault. He was upset at me. I caused him to loose his life...AGAIN!!

Why is it always my fault for him to dying. I never meant for this to happen. He would have still been in my life. We have a child. What am I going to do without him?

Why did this happen? Why him? Why did he get into this car accident.

WHY DIDN'T ANYONE HELP HIM!!

I should have stopped him when I saw he almost ran into the pole, but I didn't.

I cried harder until I felt someone pick me up from the ground and carry me to an ambulance, or at least I think that's where they are taking me.

"Are you okay Sofia?" My dad said as he placed me on my two feet. I cried a little as he walked me to his car with his arm around my shoulder and my head in is chest.

"Daddy, his car exploded. I don't want him to go. He can't be gone, gone too soon." I tried to wipe my tears, but they were constantly coming down.

"Here, I'm going to call Bella and the rest an tell them that the trip to Jamaica is cancelled. We can go some other time." I nodded my head and sniffled, trying to silent my sobs.

"For the time being, I want you to go and see about your daughter. She's crying." I immediately ran inside the car. I looked at her as she wiggled and her head moved from left to right on her car seat.

She was having a nightmare.

"Serenity, shh. I know, I know. It's going to be okay." I found enough strength to stop the tears.

I looked out the window as my dad was talking on the phone. An officer came up to him and tapped his shoulder.

My dad ended the call and they began to speak. I couldn't hear a word they muttered. My dad looked back at me and nodded his head my way.

The officer was about to come my way, when my dad held his hands out stopping him in his track.

I watched as my dad pointed back at me and made hand gestures. Serenity had stopped crying a little when I have her, her pacifier. I rocked her back and forth as I continued to watch my dad.

I could have sworn, I saw Michael at my window, which made me jump out if the car really fast. I looked around with Serenity still in my arms to find him nowhere.

"Daddy!!" I screamed. I couldn't take this. I needed to get out of here. My heart is torn with pain and all I can think about is my last moments with Michael. I didn't want to think about that. It took for all of this to happen, for me to open my eyes and see my faults, and his faults. It shouldn't have had to been that way. This could have been resolved. This could have been not happening with my mouth. I could have told him something different, made a suggestion, said yes, but I didn't. I could have prevented this from happening.

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After about an hour or so, my dad finally got in his car and drove us back home. He wanted to tell me something, and I knew it by the looks he was giving me. I might have been in tears then and still are now, but I saw the looks.

"Shh, it's going to be okay Sofia. It's going to be alright." Bella coped and Cassidy and everyone else that was there agreed as I cried louder and began to pull some of my hair out.

I had out Serenity down for a nap, I was still crying but not this bad. I didn't want her to see me like this.

"It's not alright. The at exploded. Did you hear, MICHAEL'S CAR EXPLODED AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!" I stood up and tried to run when my dad grabbed my arm.

"Let go!! Please, I don't want--I can't--" he shushes me and pulls me into his chest as he rubs my head. I cry louder. "Daddy why!!"

"Shh, I need to calm down for a second. It's not the end of the world."

"It might as well be daddy, because without Michael Jackson, there is no world!!" I looked up at him with a red nose, red and puffy eyes, and running nose.

"I didn't mean it Sofia, look I'm sorry. I just need you to calm down. We have to go to the hospital."

"Why?"

"We just need to go, now get Serenity and get in the car." I nodded as walked into the hallway, up the stairs and into her room.

**

When they heard the door closed, Daniel, Sofia's father spoke to everyone in the living room.

"We need her to be calm when we get to the hospital."

"Why are we going?" Avery asked confused.

"Because, we are going to see Michael. All of us." He spoke and everyone looked at him even more confused?

"Uhh, can I bail out? I do t want to see no dead body. I won't be able to deal with that." Cassidy said as she raised her hand.

"We aren't going to go see any dead noises because Michael isn't dead."

**

I left out of Serenity's room and headed back downstairs. When I got down there, everyone stopped talking and immediately looked at me with smiles on their faces.

"Why are y'all smiling? The whole world should and I bet are already crying because Michael is dead. There's no more room for smiles if Michael isn't here to see them or make them." I walked to the door and exited the house upset at the fact that they are smiling like they didn't just find out Michael died. What the hell is wrong with them. Do they not know that Michael Jackson is loved by everyone, and I mean everyone.

I strapped Serenity and myself in, once again securely as everyone exited the house and went into their separate cars and drove out of the driveway. My dad got into the car and started the ignition. He drove off as well, following the other cars.

This reminds me of when we went to go and bury my nana, all of the cars following one another in one long line.

I sighed, trying to not think about the dead. It's so hard when it's the dead who are your loved ones and you loved and still love them, even after they are dead.

"You know," I started, still looking out the windows as the trees pas by quickly. "I always used to tell Michael that I love him to death and you want to know something, even after he's dead I still love him. I now know how he felt when he told me he couldn't get me off of his mind. On the inside, I was kind of happy he told me the things he told me, because the truth is, I've loved him all along. He went to the extreme with me. He wasn't giving up, and he never gave up on us." I smiled a little and looked at Serenity. She was wide awake.

"Every time I look into her eyes, all I can see is Michael. His eyes are so gorgeous and so captivating. He is just gorgeous, handsome. Sexy. He is sexy daddy. I miss his smile. God," I smiled widely. "Daddy, I know this is weird, but I'm going to say it anyways. He is the best in bed. Ahh" I moaned a little think about our last time. "He is THE BEST. I just want to hold him, and kiss him. Feel his touch and tell him that I miss and love him sooo much." I kissed Serenity as I looked at my dad in the rear view and he smiled at me.

We arrived at the hospital and I took Serenity out, along with her car seat as brung it into the hospital.

"Wait right here" he spoke as he went to the front desk ad talked with the head accountant.

"Alright baby girl, let's go. Don't want to keep them waiting."

"Who?" I asked as we walked into an elevator and he pressed the 12th floor.

"You'll see when we get there."

"Fine, will you carry her, my arm is killing me." He chuckled and took her from me. About a minute later, the elevator ding ad we steppe out.

The hallway was quiet, too quiet. It creeped me out a lot.

"Daddy, what if a killer is on this floor. I don't want to die yet" he laughed at me, but I was so serious. I looked at him and hit his arm.

"Daddy, I am so serious right now. I'm beyond serious. I'm scared." He laughed and opened a room door.

"Well, I know someone who can make that fear go away." I walked into the door and frowned at him.

"Daddy, no one can make me feel safe the way Michael did."

"Don't, you mean does?" My dad smirked at me as I instantly, legitimately froze.

"Daddy, this is not funny. Stop it" I started to get teary eyed. As he closed the door and made me walk into the room.

"I know this isn't funny. Go all the way in, I'll wait outside with Serenity."

"Daddy,"

"No Sofia, go in there right now." With that he left the room, leaving me alone in this room.

"Is that you Sofia?"

"This ain't real. Michael is not in here, his car exploded." I turned my back away from the voice. "I know you're in my head. I love hearing you talk, but you're gone. Just rest." I began to slowly breath in and out.

"AHHHHH!!" I screamed when I felt a touch on my shoulder. I immediately turned around and saw Michael.

I covered my mouth and pointed at him. I touched his face. I uncovered my mouth and touched all over his body, literally everywhere. I couldn't believe my eyes.

"Am I dead too? How can I feel you when you're dead?" He grabbed my hand slowly, wincing in pain.

"I'm not dead, I'm here baby, I'm right here." I walked up to him, closing the space between is and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"Michael, I am so sorry. Please don't leave me. Don't ever leave me. Don't ever die again okay?"

"I promise baby girl. I won't leave you or anyone else."

"Good, now the world can stop crying. The world hasn't come to an end because your alive."

"What?" He chuckled.

"The world would come to an end if you died, and now that you're not dead, the world isn't coming to an end."

"Baby, do me a favor"

"What's that?"

"Kiss me then go her our daughter."

I kissed his lips the turned to walk away. I opened the door. "Daddy, Michael wants Serenity." He smiled and took her out of her seat and handed her to me.

With all the care in the world, I held her with my life as I walked back into the room and closed the door.

"Michael, your daughter is here."

He wasn't there.

"Michael?" I called. My heart stopped and I cried a little. "He was just here." I cried and sat on the bed.

"Michael?" After about a minute or two I lied down in the bed. "He was just here." "He's not dead."

"I'm not." I jumped a little and held Serenity even closer to my chest.

"Where did you go?" I asked relieved, but touching his body to make sure he was there, like really there.

"To the bathroom. I had to pee."

"Oh. Can I look at it?" He looked at me confused ten asked.

"Look at what?"

"My desire quencher" he looked at me, then down at his, well his hospital gown.

"You want to look at my penis?"

"Yes" he just stared at me.

"Serenity is in here though." he said as he looked at Serenity.

"She's asleep"

"Alright fine, but you have to feel first."

"Okay."

I put Serenity on the pillow and lied her down horizontally. Michael sat next to me. He grabbed my hand and slowly trailed it down to his destination.

"I don't understand you baby." He said as my hand ran up his thighs.

"Here I am, just getting out of recovery from my nose surgery and getting glass taken out of my head and ribs, and here you are, wanting to feel your 'Desire Quencher'?"

"Yes, just to see if it's still there"

"Of course it's still here. How else would I have been able to pee?"

"Your butt"

He chuckled and I closed my eyes as I felt him. He was there alright. He was there. I stroked him slowly and opened my eyes to see him with his mouth agape and his head tossed back.

"Ooh Sofia, what are you doing to me?" He moaned.

"When do you get discharged?"

"A few weeks, why?"

"I have a surprise for you." I continued to stroke him. "Are you sure you aren't dead Michael? Pinch me to see of this isn't a dream or something."

"You're jacking me off right?"

"Yeah"

"You can feel me can you not?"

"Yes."

"Can you feel this?" He kissed me as I stroked faster and harder. He releases me and I fell him twitch.

"I felt it. Now can you feel this?"
I stroked him harder and faster, making his body convulse with pleasure. Only stopping to feel his warm juices squirt all over my hand.

"Come here girl." He said as he picked up Serenity and placed her in my arms. "Lie down with me." He lied down and I did the same with my backside pressed against his front and Serenity in front of me, on her stomach.

"I love you so much. Did you get my letters?"

"What letters?"

"The letters that are in Serenity's baby bag."

"No, I haven't gone in her bag yet."

"You didn't change her diaper every since I brought you her bag?"

"I did, I just didn't use anything that was in her bag."

"Well, we can read them later."

"Alright."

It was silent for a few minutes. That was until I spoke.

"You scared me Michael."

"I know I did. I heard you and Serenity crying, well you were screaming."

"I thought you died. I thought you blew up."

"No, I didn't. I'm here"

"But how? I mean I'm glad you're here, bit you were in the car when it blew up."

"They pulled me out just in time. They were pulling me out while I was yelling the things I was saying."

"I'm glad they did. You should have seen the way I was acting."

"I should have saw? Baby I wasn't even gone that an you are talking bad."

"Michael stop it." I whined and he wrapped his arm around my torso and kissed Serenity's head, then my lips for the first time since this morning.

"I'm just joking babe. I love you." I turned my head and body a little to look into his eyes.

"And I loveeee you Oso much and Oso hard." Hocked my bottom lip then kissed it.

"I know you do baby, I know you do."

He knew I've lived him all along. He knew it. I'm only happy to say the same. I'm happy to say that Michael isn't dead. He's right here on this earth where he belongs.