I walked to my room and got my all black thong and black matching bra, a pair of shorts and a tank top. I went into my bathroom and turn on the shower making sure it was hot enough. I undressed myself and got in. I let the hot water run down my body as it soaked away all of the stress and tension.

I laughed as I thought about what just happened not to long ago. I swear I was scared when I felt Michael's boner on my thigh. That thing is HUGE!! What would it even feel like inside of me? will it hurt?.....what? I'm so curious right now.

I sat in the shower for another 5 minutes still thinking about Michael's BONER. I have no idea why but I was. I love lots of things about Michael. I love his smile, his eyes, his lips, his personality, everything basically. It's something about him that just makes me want to have him forever.

After my shower I decided to go to the store and get some snacks for myself. I put on my black jeans with a white fitted v-neck shirt and black flats, instead of my shorts and tank top. I walked down the stairs and grabbed my car keys. I got into my car and closed the door and put the key into the ignition.

"Where are you going girl?"

"OH SHIT.... MICHAEL WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING IN MY CAR. YOU SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!!"

"Watch your mouth. And I came in here to get that box of popcorn that Bill left when we drove to go and get me some snacks."

"Oh, okay well I'm going to the store to get myself some snacks-"

"Can I come? please"

"Michael, don't ever cut me off again. I hate when people cut me off. And you better get your disguise."

"Already have it."

This boy is something else.

"Whatever," I giggled "Buckle up."

~~~After going to the store~~~

When we got from the store, I went into the kitchen to fix myself a snack. I pulled out the Hershey bar that I bought and warm it up in the microwave to melt it. I then grabbed six freshly picked strawberries and dipped them into the melted chocolate when it was done.

I grabbed the crushed peanuts and sprinkled it only on 3 freshly picked strawberries and put candy sprinkles on the other 3. I placed them into the plate and grabbed a sprite and already made popcorn.

I put on The Bodyguard that Whitney Houston starred in, and sat on the couch and watch the movie alone. I was getting bored sitting by myself watching this movie and I have no idea where Michael ran off to. He's probably on one of the rides.

I decided to call Cassidy, Bella, and Avery for a girls sleepover.

~~~phone conversation~~~

Me: hello?

Cass, Bella, & Avery: hey fee what's up?

Me: I was wondering if you guys can come here at NEVERLAND and hang out with me. I have a lot of things to tell you guys.

Cass, Bella, & Avery: sure we'll be there in a few. Give us about five minutes. We were actually on our way over there to hang out or whatever hahahaha.

Me: ok bye babes. Love yah

They all said goodbye and we hung up. I went into the kitchen and made more chocolate dipped strawberries.

"What are you doing ba- ahh!!!"

Michael startled me and I accidentally punched him in the cheek...really hard.

"Oh my god Michael! I'm so sorry. Baby I didn't mean to..."

Baby"

" I mean I came in here to make some more chocolate dipped strawberries with peanuts..."

"Baby"

"and candy sprinkles on them and then you came in here..."

"Baby"

"and scared the shit out of me and I hit you on accident..."

"Baby"

" I'm really sorry Michael. Michael I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so s--"

"SOFIA!!!!!"

damn that scared me. I think I should stop talking now....

"I'm sorry Michael" I whispered with tears falling from my eyes.

"No. Baby don't cry. It's ok. I'm ok."

"Mich--"

"Shhhh. Don't talk. Why are you crying?"

"Because... every time Zack would do that I hit him on accident as well and he'd...."

"He'd what baby?"

"He'd slap me around" I said that inaudible, even I couldn't hear what I said. I felt ashamed.

"Baby girl. What did you say?"

"Babe I said he'd slap me around." I looked down to the floor not wanting to stare into his eyes.

When he didn't say anything I looked up at him to find him staring at me with a sad and angry expression on his face. Then all of a sudden he was red, heated from what I've told him and began to yell and pace around the kitchen.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THAT FUCKER!! DIDN'T HIS DAMN MOTHER TEACH HIS STUPID ASS NOT TO EVER PUT HIS CRUSTY ASS HANDS ON A WOMAN."

"Michael calm do--"

"NO!! I WILL NOT CALM DOWN. HE IS AN IDIOT. WHAT FUCKING POSSES HIS STUPID ASS TO TOUCH YOU. NO WONDER YOU LEFT HIM. HIS STUPID ASS ONLY WANTED ONE THING FROM YOU. HOW DARE HE!! IM SO FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW. I SWEAR IM GONNA---"

"MICHAEL!!! PLEASE CALM THE FUCK DOWN. ITS IN THE FUCKING PAST AND I FORGAVE HIM CHILL DAMN. I KNOW, I LET MY EMOTIONS GET TO ME AND I SHOULDN'T HAVE CRIED BUT DAMN I HAD A FUCKING FLASHBACK. MICHAEL I'M SORRY OK. JUST GO SOMEWHERE AND COOL OFF WHILE I CONTINUE TO DO WHAT I WAS DOING IN HERE. SHOULDN'T YOU BE WORKING AND NOT WORRYING ABOUT ME. I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I DONT NEED YOU WORRYING ABOUT ME 24/7 IM A GROWN ASS WOMAN AND CAN HANDLE THIS ON MY OWN I DONT NEED YOUR HELP. I DONT NEED YOU SO LEAVE ME ALONE!!!"

"You don't need me?" Michael asked in a much softer voice. Almost as if he was about to cry but holding his tears back.

"Michael just please leave me alone right now. I need to clear my head. I think I'm fucking bipolar! the fuck is wrong with me. God I hate myself!! UGHHHHH. FUCKITY FUCK. STUPID... STUPID..."

"Baby?"

"Dieu! Quel est le problème avec moi?!! Je suis une putain de vis vers le haut. J'ai besoin d'aide. Où diable est Avery, Cassidy, et Belle quand j'ai basoin d'eux. Je suis sir le point de devenir fou!! UGHHH!"

(That means: God! What is wrong with me! I'm a fucking screw up. I need help. Where the hell is Avery, Cassidy, and Bella when I need them. I'm about to go crazy!!)

"Wait a minute babe... You speak different languages? You lost me at Dieu! but I do know you said something about Avery, Cassidy, and Bella." Michael beamed at the last part because I think he felt accomplished that he at least knew what I was talking about. But he's WRONG ughh god I can't take this. I need a nap or something.

"Wake me up when Bella and the girls get here I need to clear my head. This is so much stress. ok?"

"Ok babe. I love you. Goodnight."

*A record scratches and I freeze from leaving the kitchen.*

He what??

Nahh he didn't say what I think he said. There goes my mind playing tricks on me. Yeah. He didn't say that.

"I said I love you babe"

Ok maybe he did say that. Just continue walking and don't look back.

"Babe?"

Don't look back.

"Babe did you hear me?"

Oh god Michael stop waking towards me. Don't look back just continue to walk.

"Baby girl I said 'I loooooove yooooouuuu'"

I stopped in my tracks. He literally just singsong that to me? ok I'm dreaming or something. I turn around and looked at him as he kept approaching me very slowly.

"Babe, honey I said I love you."

Ok this is certainly not a dream. Turn and run away. Do it. Forget he said it. Run girl! run! go hurry and go to sleep and forget what he said.

"Michael wake me up when the girls get here thanks. And see you later."

"Ok..."

YESSS! I GOT AWAY. Keep calm and leave. I do just that but I didn't even get to reach the third step without him saying it again.

"Baby doll I love you. Didn't you hear me.?"

That's it. I sped walked away from and lied down in the bed and sleep soon took over me.