Did you miss me?
Admit it; you missed me.
Did you miss Saint and the others?

Well, I'm back!
Part one of Origins

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A man and woman of high standing power had a family; it wasn't out of love but for combining of power, four sons, and at the end, there was one last child who was expected to be another son, yet what they were told was incorrect as they soon found out it was a daughter; the father thought it was a blessing, the mother thought it was a curse. The father named her (Y/n) as that was the same name he had held dear if he ever had a daughter.

The brothers grew older curious about what powers their little sister would bring them; their mother would encourage them to only pay mind to each other. The father was the one to care for the child when she was of age to possess her abilities, thought that she was a late bloomer, they waited and waited, and she was never able to use magic.

The four brothers heard of the news and decided to protect their sister from any harm; though they could save her physically, they didn't know what troubles she faced from their cruel mother. For many years, the sons grew, as did their sister, the sons mastered their abilities with the encouragement of their sister. Soon they were of age to marry, with countless fathers trying to present their daughters, the sons never showed interest in marriage, let alone any women, as they saw how different they would behave with their dear sister.
The father was sent to use his powers to defend his kingdom; the sons left with him as well. When they left, the cruel mother decided to teach the daughter how a lady behaves; for over a year, the daughter was left alone with her mother.

When the battle ended, the sons returned but not their father; this broke the daughter as she cried for the loss of her caretaker. The mother didn't shed a tear; she began to blame the daughter for her father's death. 'If she should have gone for the place of her father and died in his place, the world would have one less of a useless human.'

"Brother, why do you think I wasn't born with magic?"
Tor turns to you, "You are a special case, (Y/n). With or without magic, you are blessed with brothers who will protect you."

You look down slightly, "But how would I protect myself?" Tor doesn't answer but changes the subject, "Let's go home; mother might be looking for us."

"She looks for you; I don't exist to her."
"Don't say that she loves you."
"Mother hated me since I was born, to make it worse, I don't have magic, then when Father didn't come back, she blamed it on me."

"(Y/n)." Tor looks at you, sadden, "Don't ever blame yourself for what happened."

He began to try to cheer you up, "(Y/n), can you sing for me?"
"Of course!"

(1) You smile at your brother and began to sing, "There's an old familiar silence,
When I'm lost inside my heart,
I can't hear the voice inside me,
So I look up to the stars."

Nearby a man was sitting in his carriage; next to him were two women, "There is darkness ever waiting,
I can feel it in the air,
So I call upon my angels,
Are you still there?"

The man's eyes slowly opened, hearing a soft voice, "When the wind, Bends the branch to softly touch me."

"Stop the carriage." They come to a halt, "When the band plays your song
I feel strong enough to keep dreaming,
Even when I'm all alone, our love goes on and on." The man watches with wide eyes; he had never heard someone sing as smooth as silk. For the first time, that stranger felt something, and he was not going to let that feeling go.

"(Y/n)!" The man smiles as your name suited your beauty; the smiles disappeared when another male walked to you.

"Ah! I missed it! Tor, if you are going to have her singing, you should call us. (Y/n) can you sing for me too?"
"Egan, you spend too much time with her. It's about time that I spend time with my favorite sister."
"I'm your only sister."

"Which makes you the favorite." Egan pats your head and takes your hand, leading you towards the place you called home, not knowing there were a pair of eyes watching you.

After supper, you could hear your mother call out your name. "(Y/n)!" You walk into the room where your mother was in; you take notice of a man with two knights next to him; it was evident that he was of high power, "Yes, Mother?"

"This is Emperor Kenji; he has graced us with his presence to take your hand in marriage!"
Your eyes widen, "What?"
The man places a hand on your face, "My, she is more beautiful up close."
Your mother laughs, "She is my one and only daughter; it's only natural for her to get her beauty from her mother."

"I didn't know you had a daughter." Your mother begins to stutter, "It's only natural for a mother to be protective of her only daughter. Just imaging her father back in his time."
"So, you're the one born under the dark star. It wonderful to meet you; I'll come for you in one week. I would like to get the ceremony done as soon as possible."
"Of course!"
"But Mother-" You fell into silence when you felt her glare; Kenji took notice of this and glared at your mother. "Young (Y/n), I can help you; anything you wish for, I will grant; however, you would have to be mine."
You were still silent; your mother spoke for you, "She will prepare tomorrow."

"Well, my dear, I shall see you until then."
The man leaves the house, you quickly turn to your mother with a scared look on your face, "How did he-"

"He said he saw you out once and couldn't get you out of his mind; that useless talent of yours is finally getting some use. Now be a good girl and collect your belongings. You are to leave with him."

"Mother, I've done everything you've asked without hesitation, for once I beg you to reconsider." You go on your knees and clasp your hands together.
"My mind is made up-"
"Mother, please!" A hard slap hits your face, you were silenced, "That's enough! You should be glad that someone decided to marry someone like you; you are to go to your room and prepare for the marriage, do you understand?!" You stand up slowly; a glare was starting at your mother, however not from you. Your mother saw it, the dark shadow looming over you; that's when her magic reacted in self-defense; it was almost as if her instinct was to protect herself from you. You walked out of the room and straight into your room.

"(Y/n)?" Someone knocks on your door, opening it your four brothers enter the room; Tor, Egan, Aither, and Llyr, "We heard what happened."
"Are you okay?" Llyr walks to you, kneeling in front of you.
"Would you like us to talk to mother?" Egan steps forward.

"No, her mind is made up, and you can't go against the emperor." You began to pull out a few dresses you had in your closet. "Even with your magic, the emperor is someone who holds the highest abilities in magic."

Your brothers stayed silent, "When I marry, I hope you all find wives and expand your bloodlines, for Father's sake." Egan let out a chuckle, "I truly thought that one of us would marry before you do; our little sister is truly on a different level than we are."

Aither placed his hand on your head "(Y/n), even when we aren't with you; I want you to know that we love you." His grey eyes stared into your (e/c) ones, "I want you to know that we are proud of you and want you to live a happy life. In the Gods name for you to be protected."

The seven days passed quickly, so quickly that you wished that it never came, you were awakened by one of your brothers, Llyr. "(Y/n), wake up."
"It's barely Sunrise."
"I know, but I want to spend time with you until they get here." Llyr tosses a dress to you; it was a white gown with a burgundy cover, "Meet me outside when you're ready."

Llyr leaves the room as you prepared for your last moments in your home.

You were making a flower crown with Llyr, "(Y/n)."
You faced your brother, "I should have run away with you a long time ago."
"Runaway?" You finished the flower crown and held it in your hands, "When we found out what Mother was doing to you. I wanted to take you away from here, to a place where you can be free. I prayed to the Gods, hoping that one day we had a chance to do so."
You place the flower crown on top of his head, "Llyr, never blame yourself for what happens to me. Live your life, and be happy." Llyr frowns at you, "How can I be happy if I won't be there to protect you?"

"Perhaps this is my fate." You hear footsteps looking behind Llyr, you see Emperor Kenji and your displeased mother, "Well, this is it."
Llyr stands up and forces you behind him, "Mother, please reconsider this engagement."
"Llyr, move. I raised you to be obedient." Your mother spoke firmly; you take notice of another guard walking behind the Emperor, who spoke up, "Sir Llyr, you and your brothers have helped our kingdom to win wars; as compensation, we will reward the family with a higher title."
Llyr glares at the Emperor, "I will not allow for my sister to be another of your women. My sister deserves so much more than to be a concubine!" Llyr raises his hand, and before he could use his magic, a ball of flames flew towards your brother. Llyr quickly turns around, wraps his arms around you, protecting you from the flames. "Llyr!"

Immediately swords and staffs were pointed at you and Llyr. You were pulled away from Llyr as he was being pinned down. "For raising his hand at the Emperor, this man will be-"
"Let him go!" Your eyes shifted to a purple; the guards immediately let you go. Everyone stops as roars of Grimm sounded around the area. You stand in front of the Emperor, "I'll go with you... Just let my family go." Kenji's eyes widen as he sees the Grimm stalk the area, "I promise."
'With the chaos, I didn't notice that they were stalking the area.'
You look back at your brothers, "Thank you for taking care of me. I love you all." Your eyes changed back to their natural color.

You enter the carriage; Kenji was about to enter when your eldest brother spoke up, "Emperor Kenji, my sister is someone special. Once you marry her, no one should touch her or harm her; if you think I'm telling untrue, she will cause many deaths." Kenji stares at Egan then glances at you, "The moment I saw her, she seemed to be hiding something. You don't see it, but there is something dark that follows her." Your brothers glare at the Emperor, "And I thought it was because of you." Egan's eyes widen, "You saw it?" The Emperor smirks, "I know what follows her."

The carriage begins to move as it disappeared in the distance; your brothers turn and face back at their mother, "The God of Darkness loss his favor for you." Your mother collapses on her knees, "No... I am sending his beloved angel to have a luxurious life-"
Tor looks up at the sky, "She was promised to him, and you broke that promise. Along with the abuse you did." That was the last you saw of your brothers; you never contacted them back, nor did they contacted you.

You walked down a chapel, wearing a simple white dress, and a white veil laced over your head. After the ceremony, you were titled 3rd Queen of the Kingdom. It was a controversial topic that someone who couldn't use magic was marrying the Emperor.

You were sitting in a carriage with Kenji; you had your head tilted to the side, seeing the bird fly off to the distance, "Are you scared?" You faced the Emperor, "Yes."

"Why is that?"
"Because how could someone who isn't worth living to be in the presence of you, better yet marry you, Sire."
"Kenji. Call me by my name without the formalities." Kenji stares at you, waiting for you to speak, "Kenji." The Emperor smiles, "Your voice is warm; I like that. Young (Y/n), I didn't take your brothers' word lightly; I hope to treasure you. The way you speak, it's almost as if you believe that you aren't worth anything."

"Since I was born, I've been told that my body was too weak to hold magic; therefore, there was no reason for me to live." Kenji listened to your words carefully. He then reaches out his hand to you and places it on your head. You had flinched, however, relaxed in his touch; Kenji smiles softly.

That night you were expected to spend your first night with Kenji; however, he had a different plan instead. "I won't force you to bed with me; that decision is up to you. You can sleep in this room; I'll sleep in another room."
You turn around facing Kenji, "Kenji... Thank you." He smiles at you, "Thank you for what?"

"You've been kind and gentle with me, nothing like the words from what I heard before entering here. I don't know if it's for show; however, I appreciate that you will not force me to do something I won't." Kenji walks up to you and takes your hand, "I stole you away from your family. At least I can do is to make sure you feel at home. Have a good night." Kenji kisses your hand the leaves the room.

Kenji didn't enter his bedroom; instead, he went to his office, where his attendees waited. "Emperor Kenji." They bow, showing their respect, "Congratulations on the new Queen of the Empire." Kenji sat on his desk with a cold face, "Spill it."

"I don't believe that she will be a proper lover for his majesty."
"I agree; even if she's from that family, she doesn't possess any magic like her brothers. That could be the reason for her family hiding her from the public."
"Image having a useless daughter-" The room became dark, "You talk as if you have any more power than her. She will be our darkest star." A man with bandages over his eyes spoke, "Highest Priest."
The blinded man smiles, "The gods smile down at the young Queen, a mortal who is so pure but deadly. A scream that can crack the walls." An image of you appears from black smoke; suddenly, the image vanishes as the Highest Priest walks through the smoke. "If her heart breaks so will the kingdom."

The next day you were in the Garden with Kenji, "Today you are to meet the 1st Queen; she will guide you through the palace and help you."

"Monica, meet (Y/n)." You hear soft steps behind you as you turn around to see a woman, "I thought you would have wanted to spend time with your new bride."
Monica had beautiful long black-colored hair that complemented her caramel skin; she gives you a kind smile, "Welcome (Y/n), as the Emperor said, I am 1st Queen Monica. I hope the other treaded you well." You lower your head as a sign of respect, "No need to lower your head, please, I welcome you as one of us."

Kenji smiles as you seemed to relax at her presence, "Monica, why don't you show her around maybe have lady talk?" Monica nods as Kenji leaves the two of you together.
The rest of the day, you followed Monica as she leads you throughout the palace; soon, the night began to fall.

Monica stops for a moment, "Queen (Y/n); I do have something to tell you." You look at her, showing her that she had your attention, "Don't get attached to him, please."
"Attached?"
"The Emperor is a heartless man; if you were to displease him, your life would be on a thin line." Monica takes off her gloves and takes hold of your hands; her eyes glowed slightly. Monica began to use her magic on you; she found herself in the middle of darkness. Everything looked empty, yet it was suffocating; she felt as if Death was going for her head. She then looked up to catch a glimpse of you. You were surrounded by darkness; however, you seemed as if you were in control of it. She quickly lets go of your hand, now she was back in the hallway, and you were watching her with a concerned look, "Queen Monica, are you alright?"

Monica returns to her smiling state, "I apologize; I seem not to be feeling well." You began to worry, "Shall I take you back to your room to rest?"
"No need. It was nice meeting you; I shall see you again tomorrow." You nod your head as Monica turned the corner out of your sight. Once Monica knew you weren't in view, she collapses on the floor gripping the wall next to her; she was terrified of what she saw. The darkness she saw was staring back at her; she had heard the Emperor's words from the meeting, you were filled with magic, but it was contained. Monica rushed to Kenji's office, where Kenji and the 2nd Queen were in. "Sire, we need to talk." Kenji gestures Monica to sit in a chair, "Queen Monica, you are so rude entering while I'm trying to spend time with him." The 2nd Queen finally spoke up, Monica sighs, "Sorry, Queen Elia, but this regards the 3rd Queen."
"Oh, so am I finally meeting her? So did you use your magic on her? What's she's like?"

"Horrifying." Elia remained quiet; Kenji places down the paper he was holding, "Explain." Monica paces back and forth, "Her aura is dark, no traces of any light. It was as if she worked with the God of Darkness." Elia frowned, "You can't be serious, that girl who never seen the outside of her home working with the God of Darkness."
"I didn't see any traces of the God; however, inside it was dark and suffocating, nothing as I've seen before. Almost as if she was the darkness." Kenji smiles, "So we found our Queen of Darkness." He makes his way to Monica, "That's wonderful news. The woman down under his cursed sign, at any point she will surpass you and everyone else." Elia raises her hand slightly, "Your majesty; you wouldn't be hoping to claim her?"
"She is already mine the moment I put that ring on her, but at this rate, I wouldn't need any of you." Kenji laughs, "My sweet little songbird. You're the one I've been searching for." Kenji stares at your portrait with a loving smile. Elia and Monica stared at their husband; Elia hated the longing look he had as he looked at your pictures. As Monica was more terrified of what would come next.

It had been a while since you entered the palace; every night, Kenji would enter your room and have a cup of tea; you didn't mind as it did give you company. You had met the concubines of the palace; Kenji had always seemed different around them than you. He would scold them for little things; however, he would dot on you. It was never clear what he wanted; if you were in the garden and cut your finger on a thorn of a rose, he would try to punish the gardener. It was a hard try since you would manage to calm him down before taking anything too far. Kenji never raised his voice at you and watched over you; from time to time, he would have you sing to him, calling you his 'Little Song Bird.'

Today, however, was different. Monica had an idea for the wives to have a picnic outside the palace walls; Kenji noticed how happy you looked about the idea and approved it. Kenji didn't attend the gathering as it was stated by Monica, 'Only Women of the Emperor were going to be present.' Kenji went along with what was said. You rode in a separate carriage from the others, but you didn't know what the concubines were thinking.

"Ever since he married that unlucky maiden, he hasn't come around to our chambers anymore." The first concubine states, "You say it as if he was never married before that." Answered the second one.
"But he still came, even when Monica cried, and that was his first wife."
"Don't cry about it; crying is a wife's game."
The women laugh at each other, "Honestly, she doesn't use magic."
"I heard about that too, Queen Elia. Honestly, why did he chose to marry someone like her."
"I think she can use magic but likes to play the damsel in distress."

"He assigned her a private carriage. That means that he doesn't want us to go near her."

"Are your men out there?" One of the concubines asks Elia, who smiles, "Once she's out of the picture, I will go back to being his favorite."
"You're lucky to have His Majesty's favoritism."
"I am, aren't I?" Elia laughs.

You were smiling, excited that you were going to be outside of the palace and see how much changed. Your thoughts were cut short when suddenly, your carriage was stopped; you peaked out as you see nothing. When you try to open the door, an arrow shoots through the window mere inches from your face. You duck down as the carriage door breaks open. Bandits enter the carriage and pull you by your hair, "My, isn't she a pretty one?" You were thrown out of the carriage scraping your arm. One of the bandits takes a look at the carriage, "She's alone, and with the insignia on the window, she's one of the Emperor's women."
"I'm sure he wouldn't mind if we hold her like the way he does at night." Fear takes hold of you the second those words were spoken. "Don't worry; we'll try to be gentle with you-" A Beowulf roars as you scream.

"The Grimm!"
'Harming the mother is prohibited.' A voice echoes. A herd of Ursas emerges from the forest, "Take the girl and retreat!" You kick your captor and run. An arrow scratches against your arm and waist. A Beowulf charges towards you the moment you ducked down it attacked the person behind you.
Another Beowulf lets out a howl before slowly crawling towards you. The Grimm nudges it's head at yours; even if all you felt was fear, it was warm; slowly, you felt safe. You gradually extended your arm to it; the Beowulf didn't move away from you or showed any sign of aggression; you place your hand on its head, feeling the hardened fur.

"How strange what is supposed to kill me is the one to save me." You stand up, wiping the tears from your eyes, and escaped from the scene, seeing many more Grimm surrounding the area. The sound of horses galloping gets louder as you heard your name being called out "(Y/n)!"
"Kenji!" You rush into his embrace; you've never been so happy to see him.
Kenji immediately stands between you and the Grimm; however, they turned back to where the bandits were. Kenji immediately picks you up and lifts you on the horse.

Within moments everyone was away from the scene. You were back in the garden of the Palace; you could see Kenji angrily yelling at the guards for not protecting you. The head maid was tending to you as she places a blanket on your shoulders. "Ah. Thank you." The maid nods, "It must have been horrifying." You look down at the teacup you were holding, "What about the others? If I got targetted, maybe they will too?" The head maid, "The Emperor, believes that one of the concubines tried to sabotage you. Once they return, every one of them will be sentenced to their proper punishment."

"He wouldn't go that far, would he?"
"Your Highness, his Majesty would do whatever it takes to keep you alive." You take a sip of your tea; something that repeatedly popped in your head was the encounter with the Grimm, that was the first you've ever gotten close to one, and it was different from what you were told. Creatures of Grimm, created by the God of Darkness himself, were violent creatures with only rage and destruction filling their voids. Your train of thoughts were cut short when Kenji walks back to you, "Are you feeling better?"
You nod, "Yes, thank you." Kenji takes your hand and caresses the bandages, "I should have kept you here. Once I find out exactly who was behind this, they will suffer."

After that day, you never heard of what happened to the concubines; Kenji states that he simply let them go; however, there was something off since that day. You then met with a few priests and priestesses to heal your wounds; that's when your connection with the Grimm unlocked. With the healing from those who work with the God of Light, your body was rejecting the recovery. It did the opposite; the pain of your wounds increased. Kenji thought it was because of their lack of work until someone else walked in.

You were laying on a fluffed rug; the pain on your arms was increasing. A knock could be heard before the door opens, a woman with a black robe enters the room, "Hello, Young Mother." You didn't know how to reply, "His Majesty request for someone to heal you."

You glare at the person, "How many more healers? I told the Emperor that my body rejects the healing." The healer laughs slightly, "I'm not one who works with the God of Light. I work for the God of Darkness, and I may be able to help you." You let out a sigh, removing the bandages around your arm. The hooded woman takes hold of your arm and begins to examine it, "Fascinating, your body is like a void filled with his aura. No wonder your body is in pain, you were born under the God of Darkness. As if he claimed you." The woman then begins the healing, within an instant your wounds were gone, almost as if you were never injured to begin with.

"I knew it, Young Mother. You will be the one with the broken heart." The woman steps towards you, as you leaned further away from her, "Young Mother? Why are you calling me that?" The woman smiles at you, "The Mother of Grimm, Goddess of Grimm, Our Saint." You pushed the women away from you, as you did she disappeared. You stare at the fire place, "Saint?"

Weeks pass after your encounter with the unknown priestess, Kenji spent more time with you as time went on. You stare at your husband with a tilt on your head; he takes notice of this and begins to question you, "What is it?"
"Why do you care for me? You pay attention to everything I do, but you won't bat an eye to the other wives. Ever since that incident, you've been very different." Kenji smiles, "Well, my dear, you are a special case. You show that you are not someone to take lightly; unlike these other women, you hold a great gift. Speaking of which."

Kenji makes his way to a nightstand and pulls out a gold bracelet, "This will be my gift to you."
He returns in front of you and removes the silver bracelet replacing it with the one in gold, "With this, it will signify your place in this kingdom."

"Why not give it to Queen Monica? She is your first wife, the mother of the crowned prince."
"Monica doesn't care about power or status; she only cares if she lives. The first Prince isn't a suitable candidate for the throne; Elia has yet to bare a child."
"Bare a child?" You knew that Kenji needed an heir that he could entrust the kingdom to.

"Have you thought of having a family?" Kenji stares at the burning wood in the fireplace, you sit beside him, "A long time ago, but I don't think I would be a good mother." Kenji laughs slightly, "I think you would be a wonderful mother, and I understand that you are still young."
"You make it sound like you are a lot older than I. Five years is a lot, but it could have been worse." You cross your arms.

"It could have been worse?"
"Mother would have married me off to anyone no matter the age, but I think I got lucky to have a husband like you." Kenji frowns slightly, "I'm not a good husband; I neglect my wives and disregard their feelings along with my only son. I have a temper and snap at anything that is out of place. But with you, it's different; I genuinely enjoy my time with you; I learn something new about you every day." Kenji rest his head on your lap, "At first, I thought that only our marriage was going to be political. However, I don't see it that way; this might have been the first informal into the royal family. But I know that you are unhappy here. I have a proposal to make."

Kenji sits up and faces you, "If you have my child, you will no longer be bound to me, you can leave and live your life, and I will provide everything you want for the rest of your life with your brothers."
"A child?" Kenji nods, taking hold of your hands, "If we have a child, with your unknown connection of the Grimm and my magic, they will have no match." You didn't know how to respond, "But that's only if you agree to have my child."

Time passes, and to everyone's surprise, you were soon to have a child. Many were excited of the new royal entering the blood lines as many who were against it. Monica watched over your care making sure that everything went smoothly for the arrival of the baby.

"Congratulations. A word of advice he prefers sons. May the Gods forbid you having a daughter." You were slightly confused, "Why would that matter?" Elia crosses her arms, "Oh... He didn't tell you? If you have a daughter he will kill her. Just like my deceased daughters, shame really, they would have been about three and one. My second died a while before you arrived." You place your hand on your stomach, you still smiled, "Perhaps it's different."
"Just because he's nice to you doesn't mean he actually cares about you. It was a miracle that you became pregnant we all assumed that you were infertile, considering that he was spending all of his nights with you. It makes me wonder if it's his." You immediately glare at Elia, "How dare you look at me like that I'm only saying what other people are thinking you should be grateful that I told you-" Elia cut off her sentence as she noticed your eyes were changing color, "I'll take my leave. Before I cut your tongue." Elia felt fear spread through her body. The moment you leave the room, there was silence; Elia falls on the floor, shaking from your threat. "Queen Elia? She- How?" One of Elia's ladies in waiting spoke up. "She humiliated me. A low born like her."

You walk down the empty hallway, when you hear your husband's voice along with a unfamiliar voice, "After she has her child then what next? A daughter isn't an option, if she carries a daughter there is no telling if she will be like her mother."
"What are you going on about?"
"You need a proper heir if you have a daughter, we'll make it seem like an accident, the women of the court like to gossip, they will say the lines, 'Third Queen's failed pregnancy.' The whole ordeal will be swept under the rug."

You clinch your teeth, "Is that how it is?" You place a hand on your stomach, "They want to take you away if you end up like me." You walk past your husband's office and enter your bedroom. It wasn't long until Kenji went to visit you, "My dear, I brought you a gift- Love? What's wrong?" Kenji walks up to you, "So is it all an act?"
"An act? What are you talking about? Did someone hurt you?"

"You don't actually care about me, do you? Am I just another one of your women? Is all you want is my connection with the Grimm?" Kenji was taken back by your question.

"So if I have a daughter you would get rid of her?"
"Where did you hear that?" Kenji looked at you slightly concerned. "Queen Elia was pregnant twice and when she found out they were daughters, you had then killed."
"That was a misunderstanding, my dear-"

"I don't want to hear your excuses, if I have a daughter, I will leave with her in my arms and you will never see me again. I heard you speaking to your advisers, 'The Third Queen's failed pregnancy?' Are you going to say the baby didn't make it and that I died while giving childbirth." Kenji attempts to grab your hand however you push him away, "Leave."
"The negative emotions are not good for our child."
"Please... Leave." Kenji places down the box and leaves the room, "You know where to find me." You caress your belly, "If it's a girl I will run with the baby, but if it's a boy I'll leave him here." You tear up slightly, "I can't believe that I was so trusting in him. I should have known." You look at your night stand seeing the box Kenji brought in. You take hold of the box and began opening it. A small white blanket with golden insignia of the Kingdom was nicely folded in the box.

Within the next week you have gone into labor, after a long painful hours, you heard the cries of your new born, your anxiety began to peak. This is what you've been waiting for to know the gender of your child, "A healthy Prince is born."

"A boy." You let out a sigh, now you were conflicted. You take hold of your son; you could feel tears running down your face; you couldn't leave him. You didn't want to leave him, "Have you heard that the firstborn son will have his position revoked?"
"I've heard that the Emperor will make her the Empress; not even the other wives or concubines had a chance claiming that position."
"I wonder how the Queens will feel about this."

"What about the child? I saw it was a boy; if she becomes Empress, her son will be the next heir."
"Hopefully, those who are against the Emperor, don't try to send assassins to kill the baby."

You listen to the maids speak, taking a glance at your bag that contained clothing for your departure; there was something about you now leaving that made you feel worried, 'If I leave, what will become of my son? Will Kenji protect him? Will he raise him to become a proper Emperor?'
You needed to protect him; you have to protect Cyan; you cuddle your son closer, "My baby, I will not treat you like my mother treated me; I'll give you all the love that I couldn't have and I will love you until the end of time."

The doors open, revealing Kenji as he walks into the room. He sees that you had safely delivered your son, "I'm glad it went well."

You glare at your husband, "What do you want?"
"Can't a man see his wife and son?"
"Why would you care about him? If he was a girl, you would have had him killed."
"My dear, you are very special to me more than you think, a woman of great power; I would not have cared what gender was the child as long as they were created by you and I. So have you decide on your path?"

"I'm staying, not for you but for Cyan."
Kenji kneels before you, "Well, Third Queen shall you take your title as Empress?"
"An Empire needs an Empress, so I shall take its name in all its glory." Kenji stands up and places a golden crown on your head, "Gloria Regali."

After you recovered, you were crowned Empress; controversy sparked since you were the third Queen. Monica gave up the title willingly; her face was filled with relief, almost as if she was, she was expecting it. With you as the Empress, the kingdom began to strive, regularly the Empress' duty is to stand by his Majesty; however, you were seen as a weapon by others. You were very keen on protecting the kingdom with your title since you hope to pass the crown to your son without anything in his way.

Along with that, many were afraid to speak against you, even more so than the Emperor. That came with the saying of 'Doubting The Empress is Doubting the Empire.'

Four years pass since Cyan was born, and your connection with the Grimm was getting stronger, which was very concerning to Kenji since

Along with you standing by the Emperor, many saw the way he would cherish you. It was obvious his favoritism was only for you and your son. When you were caught up with your work, you would spend time with your son either if it was in the garden or simply laying in bed, you always hold your son close. Kenji would try to get Cyan to recognize him as his father, which would work for one day, then Cyan would go back and cry back to you.

You were sitting in the middle of your garden watching the stars; the rustling of the trees calmed you as a young voice calls out. "Momma, look." You look down to see a child holding a red leaf, "I found it." You smile at the child, "Seems you have; come on, Papa should be done with work." The child grabs your hand and walks with you down a cobblestone path, "How was the walk?" Kenji walks to you and Cyan, "It went well, thank you for letting us go outside tonight."
"Anything for you."
"If you say it like that, the other wives will say something."
"Well, you did have my heir."
"Even when they had sons before you even met me."
"You are a special case. I'll retire late. The two of you can rest for the night." You sigh, "Cyan let's go to sleep." Cyan nods at you, "Good night, Papa."
"Good night, Cyan."

You sit in a large room; a fireplace burns in the background as a soft knock is heard from the door, "It might be Orion." Your son runs to the door, "Brother Orion." A young boy enters the room with a blanket in hand, "Empress (Y/n), good evening."
You smile, "Orion, I thought I told you that you don't need to call me Empress."
Orion smiles, "Ah, right. May I sleep here tonight? Mother isn't in a good mood." You nod, "You are more than welcome to join us."

Cyan takes hold of Orion's hand and walks to the bed, "Momma is going to sing us to sleep." You lift Cyan and Orion onto the bed, "Do you have any request?" Cyan glances at Orion, "What song do you want Momma to sing?"
Orion looks down slightly, "I like the river lullaby."
You smile, tucking in the children, "Very well."
You sit on a chair next to the bed, "Hush now, my baby, be still now, don't cry, sleep as you're rocked by the stream." Slowly the children begin to sleep, "Sleep and Remember my last lullaby, so I'll be with you when you dream." You smile at them and leave the bedroom.

"I saw you were in his majesty's garden tonight, isn't that against his rules?"
You take a sip of your tea, "If I recall, he gave me that garden."
"Queen Elia, don't you have anything better to do?" Monica walks into the room, "You are speaking to the Empress of our kingdom."
"So what? We were his wives first, don't you resent her? Because of her son, your son's position to become king as taken from him." Monica sits down in front of you as you pour her a cup of tea, "Thank you, Empress (Y/n)." Monica takes a sip of the tea a small smile formed on her face. "I would prefer for her to become what our people need. I see myself not fit nor my son, if you have an issue with our prince's mother, you are rejecting his Majesty." Elia glared at Monica, "Well now, let's settle down."

"Settle down? You must have a lot of nerve-" You stare at Elia, "Don't cross the line." Elia stands up and exits the room, "I swear she's more of a child than my own son." You chuckle at her statement, "It is quite late; Orion and Cyan are sleeping in my room. I should check on them, have a good night Queen Monica." Monica bows as you leave.

Later that night, you were working on paperwork for the next meeting, "Momma?" You face the bed seeing your son starring at you with teary eyes. Placing down your pen and walk to the bed, "I'm right here, sweety."
"Momma, can you sing to me?"
"Did you have a nightmare again?"
"Yes, I thought I was going to be taken away from you."
"No one would dare take you away from me."
"Promise me?"
"I promise, Cyan." You didn't know that this was the only promise that was going to break. If you knew, you would have stopped everything to keep it, especially so soon.

For the next few days, the feeling of anxiety was following you. That's when your worst fears kicked in. "Momma?" You smile hearing your son's voice, "Cyan?" You drop whatever you were holding and run to Cyan upon seeing blood drip from his mouth, "Cyan! What happened?" You took out a handkerchief and began to wipe off the blood, "I don't know, I felt dizzy and then..." Cyan falls in your arms, "Cyan? Cyan, sweety, stay awake for me, okay? I'm going to get help." Luckily a maid was passing by, "Empress (Y/n)? What happened to the young master?"
"Call a medic! The highest priest! Anyone!"
The maid jumped at your shouting, "Right away." She runs out quickly to get help.

You pace around the hall worried about your son; the medics didn't want you to be in the room while they checked your son, Kenji and Monica watched you with concern. A maid and butler were on their knees in front of you, they were in charge of his safety, and they failed to protect him.

"Emperor Kenji, we have matters to discuss."
"What is it now?"
"The Creatures of Grimm are going past their territories." The messenger states, "What?"
"They are displaying abnormal behavior this morning." Kenji glances at you; he knew that whoever was at fault was messing with death herself. Monica nods at the Emperor signaling that she was going to be with you. Kenji leaves the room as Monica stands closer to you, "Empress?" You didn't pay attention to Monica all you could think of was Cyan.

"Empress." The high priest exits the room and walks towards you, "He was poisoned, and we've done as much as we could. He may not survive this." You glare at the priest, "Poison?"
The priest knelt down, "My Empress, the only thing that could save him of we take him to the God of Light; however, the young Prince may not survive the night."
Your eyes darken, taking your sword, and walk towards the servants. "Explain yourselves." Monica turns around, covering her ears; she knew what you were going to do.
"It was the butler! He gave something to the prince this morning-" The maid then feels something cling on her arms; she opens her eyes, seeing Grimm's arms grabbing on her. She lets out a scream, "My Empress!" The butler looks beneath him, seeing the same arms taking hold of his legs.

"We were just following orders-" You swing your sword down on the maid, "We?" The head of the maid falls on the ground. The butler stares at you, petrified, "Death is the proper punishment." You raise your sword once more; however, you let go of the sword. "No. I have something else for you after all; she said you were the one to give it." The black liquid beneath him expands, and he begins to sink in, "My Empress, mercy!"
"I gave her the only mercy I had spared. A quick death, yours will be not as much." The Priest hands you a rag to remove the blood from your hands. "Shhh... I can't have Cyan hearing you." You hand the rag back to the priest. You glance back at the butler; with the snap of your fingers, the butler was engulfed in the black liquid and black smoke.

You enter the room, where you see Cyan having trouble of breathing. The light in your eyes returns, and you hurry to his side. The room becomes dark, "Your majesty?" You sit next to your son, "All of you, leave us."

Cyan opens his eyes and smiles upon seeing you, "Momma."
"Hi, my little firefly."
"I heard screaming, did something happen?" You shake your head, "The maids are pulling pranks on each other. Nothing for you to worry about."

Cyan smiles, "I like pranks, especially when I prank Momma." You smile at your son, "One day, I'll get you back."
"... Momma?"
You hum in response, "You are beautiful, Momma, Papa tells me every day. I like it when Momma smiles and sings for me."
"I'm beautiful because I had you as my son."

"Momma, can you sing to me?"
You nod, "Of course, sweety. The lullaby?" Cyan nodded, "Hush now, my baby, be still now don't cry, sleep as you're rocked by the stream." Cyan held your hand, "Sleep and remember my last lullaby." His grip loosens as his hand fell from your grasp, a soft smile on his face as he mutters, "So I'll be with you when you dream." The light in his eyes disappear.
You took hold of his hand again, "Cyan? Sweetheart, you can't sleep yet. Your father said he'd be here in a moment." It was silent; you couldn't hear anything, more tears fell from your eyes, "Cyan?"

Kenji opens the door; seeing your frozen state, he knew that he was too late. "My dear, let's step out for a moment." Before he could touch you, you slapped his hand away, "Cyan is tired; keep quiet." Kenji took notice of your fogged up eyes, "Our son is gone, (Y/n)."

"My son. I took care of him. I raised my Cyan, and he's right here- No... You know better than this (Y/n). He's right... My baby is gone." You couldn't lie to yourself, he was gone, and you can't bring him back. You let out a loud cry, wrapping your arms around yourself. The pain you felt was like no other; you couldn't breathe, your head was pounding. You felt something snap within you, "Bring me the one who killed my child. Bring me that witch who stole his life!" Black smoke surrounded you as the ground began to crack beneath you. Kenji stared at you with wide eyes; the death caused a monster to be born. Suddenly a seer emerged from the smoke, the eerie crackling. The seer then exists the room, very quickly you heard a scream, you glared realizing the voice, "Elia."

The Seer enters the room once more, dragging Elia into the room.

You get up and walk towards her, only to be blocked by a few guards, "Empress, please calm down."

"Shut up." You glare at the guards immediately they moved to the side, "I told you never to cross me, last time I said I would remove your tongue; however, it seems you need a proper punishment."

"What did I do?!"

"You killed my baby."
A nevermore crashes into the window, everyone flinches at sight, "And I will watch you burn."
You turn your back on them; Kenji tried to catch up to you, yet the aura around you was heavy; he felt as if he couldn't stand. "Dear husband, have you ever wondered why you didn't scare me? Why I never worried about your words?" You look down on him, "It's because I was always in control, shame... If we met in different terms... I would have fallen in love with you."

"Please don't leave."
"Kenji, remember when our Cyan was born, I said I would be staying not for you but for him. Now that he's gone, I have no reason to stay."
"I love you."

"The love I had for Cyan was stronger." You push Kenji aside and thrust your sword forward. Elia stared down, seeing the blade was through her chest, the sword was roughly removed, "You wench." Elia falls on the floor, taking her last breath. "
Monica looked at you with concerned eyes; you smiled at her, "Even when I'm covered in blood, you aren't scared of me." Monica frowns slightly, "Take care of Orion; he's a good child; with Cyan and I went, he will go through a hard time." Monica bows, "I'll protect him."

You walk towards Cyan's body, you remove your ring, and place it in his hands. "My Cyan, on your way to the other side, be safe. Just wait for me." You place a kiss on his head and walk to the Nevermore, "I'm tired." You climb on the Nevermore and resting your head on it's feathered back. With a loud screech, the Nevermore expand its wings and flies off.

After traveling without stop, you awake in the Land of Darkness; you climb off the Nevermore and walk towards the center of the land. The God of Darkness arises from the lake, "My, my, my what a visitor I have."
You stand in front of the God of Darkness; the Beowulf nudges you forward. "You were born under my sign." You shook your head, not understanding what was being told to you, "My dear, you were stripped of your magic before you were born. Have you ever wondered why you were never born with magic?"

"I have."
"You are meant to be a part of something more if you follow me; I will bring back your son."
"I never mentioned my son." The God of Darkness looms over you, "You were born under my sign; I know what memories you hold."

You looked down, "As much as I would want my son back in my arms, I don't wish for that." The God of Darkness was surprised by your answer, "Then what do you wish?"
"A reason to continue living."
"Then I will give you a reason as my Saint." The God of Darkness extends his arm, "Only if you chose this path." Without hesitation, you take his hand.

"I will follow you and your orders." A single tear falls from your left eye, the God of Darkness uses one of his hands to wipe your tear, "With me at your side, there will be no reason for you to cry."

End of The Saint (I)
(1) Song: Love Goes On and On by Lindsay Stirling
That was kind of rushed, but hopefully, this is a chance for me to continue writing. I'll edit this whenever I get my laptop fixed

Michaelis~