Okay I wasn't going to update but then I saw something that just kinda hit me in my feels so I decided to make another mini chapter. I put another question someone asked me first, though.
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BloodyDragonQueen: Do you like the band Queen? if so what's your favorite song by them?

Oh yeah I love Queen! Uhhhh choosing a favorite song is kinda hard. Maybe "Don't Stop Me Now" "We Will Rock You" "Another One Bites the Dust" or "We Are the Champions"? Ohhhh but of course "Bohemian Rhapsody" is good too and I can't forget about "Fat Bottomed Girls" "Under Pressure" or "Crazy Little Thing Called Love". Oof I just like a lot of their songs.

The next one I figured would just be easier to screenshot lol:

I've actually been in a similar situation before myself. I liked my best friend but she didn't feel the same. We both just "forgot" about it and continued being friends. Similarly, many years later, that same friend told me she had feelings for me, but then I didn't feel the same. Things might have been awkward at first, but we got through it and are still best friends to this day. Telling her how you feel could potentially mess up the relationship, I won't lie. Just because that didn't happen to me doesn't mean it won't happen to you. I'd say you should really look at your friendship and decide if your friend is the type of person who would still be friends with you. If she liked you before, then there's a chance she might still like you, but keep in mind it has been a year. If you do tell her, make sure you're prepared if she doesn't feel the same. Be ready to respect her space and let her process things. Not wanting to kiss her doesn't necessarily mean you don't like her, it could just mean you aren't ready for the kissing stage with someone yet, and that's perfectly okay. The fact that you care about and want to hug her could mean you like her or it could mean you just see her as a close friend. Ask yourself if you can picture yourself in a relationship with her. If you can't, then maybe she just isn't the one. Personally, I would talk to her and express how I feel. Tell her you don't want this to ruin the friendship and if she doesn't feel the same then you're 100% okay with maybe keeping your distance and still being friends. But that's just what I would do. You should do what feels right. Don't rush into things you aren't ready for. Take your time. Think things over. I don't think you're broken for feeling the way you feel. I've felt the same many times before. I think it just means we aren't experts in life yet and that's okay. I hope this helped!

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