Anjaam ki fikar mein
Hum rishto'n ki ahmiyat hi bhool gaye

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Fasih was in his car watching the raindrop on his car window while he was lost in his thoughts

Urwa once again confront a confused Fasih when she went to Shahid Hussain's residency to meet Alvira

Giving him the realization that he needed

"To be honest Fasih, it's enough. You needed a reason to forgive Hayfa and give her a chance now you got it, Alvira is the reason."

"Even I'm seeing the changes in her. It's the time maybe you should not forgive her but give her a chance."

"Aisa kyu hota Hai ki mard kuch bhi Kare phir bhi aurat ussey maaf Kar deti Hai kyuki woh uska shohar hota Hai, Kya shohar ka farz nahi banta apni biwi ko maaf karna aur ussey sahi Rasta dikhana?"

(Why it is expected from girls to forgive their husband's sin no matter how big they are, but husband could never forgive his wife?)

But, what if this all is drama? Fasih's heart asked

What if she is doing this just to get everyone's sympathy?

She is waiting for them to trust her again adn then she will do something to Alvira?

He quickly shook his thoughts away

"She is your best friend, you know her better than anyone else."

He thought she is his best friend and he knows her the most but

What she did that day made him question her every move

He leaned his head on the headset on car seat

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"Fasih," when he entered his house he heard Nimra's voice

"Mousam dekh rahe ho kitna kharab Hai, kaha the itni der se?"

(Where were you in this weather?)

"Mummy woh Urwa...." Fasih thought Nimra forget that he went out to drop Urwa at her home

"Urwa?" Her left eyebrow raised up as she asked

"Fasih, tumse baat bhi karni thi mujhe." She suddenly said making Fasih nervous

(I want to talk to you.)

What did he do or did Hayfa do something?

"Ji, mummy?" Nimra took him to her room, Shahid Hussain wasn't present there

(Yes?)

"Tumne koi decision liya?" Fasih sat on sofa while Nimra sat on her bed and asked Fasih

(Did you take any decision?)

"Hayfa aur apni marriage ke silsiley mein?" When Fasih didn't said anything Nimra add

(About you and Hayfa's marriage?)

"Fasih, yeh Zindagi bhar nahi chal sakta,"

(Yes, this can't happen all life.)

"Mummy, mujhe nahi samajh mein araha ki kya karu."

(I don't know what to do.)

"Mujhe nahi maloom ki karna Kya hai," Fasih wasn't meeting his mother's eyed but focused on the floor

(I don't know what decision to take.)

"Hayfa mein changes dekhe Hain Maine." Nimra told him

(I have saw the changes in Hayfa.)

"Haan abhi bhi bohot behtar nahi hui par ji tarah se woh Alvira ka khayal rakhti hai ussey uske andar Jo changes ho rahe Hain woh nazar araha Hai."

(Not really better but still the way she is taking care of Alvira's is another side of her.)

"Ab in changes ke baad bhi tum usse ek chance nahi doge toh na insafi hogi."

(If you can't forgive her even after the changes in her then it will be unfair.)

"Nikkah koi mazak nahi Hai, jin bhi halato'n mein hui Hai tumhari Shaadi lekin Hayfa ne apne hisse ki saza ab kaat li Hai,"

(Doesn't matter in what situation you two got married, marriage isn't a joke.)

Hayfa was roaming in her room, restless because Fasih has still not returned

The scenerio of Fasih and Urwa in lawn came to her

Once she was Fasih's best friend and now Urwa is always beside Fasih

Once Fasih used to share all his problem with her and now Urwa has become his advisor

She used to be the one close to Fasih and now

The sound of door opening broke her thoughts as she she found Fasih there

With slow steps he came in while Hayfa went to sit on bed,

Her feet touching floor, arms supporting her weight on bed

She felt the bed dipping just few distance away from her making her aware Fasih has sat there

She didn't looked up nor Fasih looked at her

"Agle mahine humari Shaadi ki one year anniversary Hai...." Fasih broke the silence

(Next month is our one year anniversary....)

"Kafi kuch hogaya na ek saal mein?" He looked at her but she was seems to be interested in floor more than him

(Many things happened in just one year na?)

Her hair falling on her cheeks making it harder for him to notice the tears in her eyes

"I'm sorry,...."

"As a friend tumse achha mujhe koi nahi janta that but as your friend Maine tumhe ya tumhari mohabbat Kabhi samjha hi nahi."

(No one knows me better than you, and I couldn't understand you or your love.)

"Tumne Jo kuch bhi kiya uske baad mujhe tumse nafrat ho gayi.... But ab tumhari taraf se Sochta Hoon toh....."

(What you did to me made me hate you.... And now when I'm thinking from your side...)

"Jab mujhe pata Chala Hanaya Bhai se mohabbat karti Hai toh Maine socha Jo hua achha hua, kyuki woh mere sath khush na hoti," he put his one leg on bed and turned to her

(When I got to know that Hanaya loves Bhai I was relieved that we didn't got married, because I wouldn't have able to keep her happy.)

"Ab Sochta Hoon toh tum bhi Bhai ke sath khush na reh pati kyuki tum mujhse mohabbat karti ho."

(And now I'm thinking maybe you couldn't be happy with bhai too because you love me.)

"I'm sorry, Maine tumhe Kabhi samjha hi nahi...."

(I never tried to understand you.)

"Nahi, I'm sorry." Hayfa finally spoke up

(No,)

"I'm sorry ki Maine tumhari mohabbat mein kuch aur dekha hi nahi, I'm sorry tumhare uppar jhoota ilzaam lagane ke liye, I'm sorry ki Meri wajah se tumhe Hanaya nahi mili."

(I'm sorry that I never saw anything else besides you, I'm sorry for accusing you, I'm sorry because of me you couldn't get married to Hanaya.)

"I'm sorry for everything," her voice became heavy

"Main ab mazeed tumpe bojh nahi banugi."

(I won't cause any more trouble in your life.)

"Hayfa, main...." Fasih started saying but Hayfa didn't waited for him, getting up she left the room for bathroom

(I...)

Fasih was still sitting there looking at the close door of bathroom

Few minutes later Hayfa came out, water droplets falling from her face

"Main subah chali jaungi." She told him

(I'll leave in morning.)

"Hayfa,"getting up he went to her and held her hand

"Mat jao, I want to give our relationship a chance." He have come to this decision after fighting with his ownself

(Don't go,)

But what he don't know she has come to this decision after leaving everything in his love and lost herself in doing so

"Fasih hum relationship ko chance de sakte Hain but tum mujhe Kabhi chance nahi de paoge."

(We can girb our relationship a chance but you could never give me any chance.)

"Agar future mein kuch bhi hua toh tumhe mujhpe Shaq hoga, past ki sari cheezen samne ayengi aur future ko kharab Kar dengi."

(If anything happens in future you will doubt me, whatever in past will play in front of you and ruin the future.)

"Main kuch karti Hoon tum mujhse gussa hote ho, tum kuch karte ho main gussa hoti Hoon, iss ek saal mein bas yahi hua Hai. this relationship is so complicated. It will never work, no matter how much we give each other chance."

(When I do something it made you angry, you do something that made me angry.)

"I think we are better off as friends." Hayfa remove her hand from his and left the room

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"Come in...." A knock came on Zaim's study room's door, thinking it must be Hanaya No matter how much he told her she doesn't need to knock but she still knock on his study room door he said without looking up from his file

But when he looked up he found Hayfa coming in

"Don't worry, iss baar koi scene banane nahi ayi hoon." Seeing shock expression on his face Hayfa smile a little and said

(I'm not here to make a scene.)

He quickly change his facial expressions and got up

"Kuch chahiye Tha?" He got up from his chair

(Do you want something?)

"Nahi, bas.... Yeh Dena Tha...." Taking a sketch notebook from her behind she put it forward for him

(No, actually.... I wanted to give you this....)

This made him more confused

"And I'm sorry if I ever hurt you." When he took the book from her she said and left

She was here just for few seconds

Sitting on the chair he first tried to think what happened to her,

Why she is out of sudden apologizing?

Then he opened the note book and found Hanaya's name written on front page

Turning the page his breath stopped for a second

In front of his eyes was a sketch of his

His eyes, lips, nose, forehead, jawline and cheeks everything was drew neatly almost real

Turning more pages he found only his sketches

After some pages it was empty

The last sketch looked like someone tried to erase it, it was also a sketch of him but below it was a name

Zaim and Hana

Her name was also erased

Everything was spinning in front of his eyes

He suddenly realized when he told Fasih about Hanaya

How girls like her always hide their feelings but he never once thought she loves him

Him?

How? Or why?

And if she did why she never told him?

Why she hide her feelings from him even after their marriage?

But her eyes were always speaking, asking him to read them carefully and understand her heart

Telling him she is hiding many things in her heart

Even the love she has for him

But he was blind enough not to read them

Even when he was so close to her

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This is unfair na

I said I'll give a lengthy chapter on Saturday but it's ittu sa only

But yaar suniye to hua Kya mere sath

I re wrote this chapter just now because it was deleted out of no where

I wrote it last night just few more scenes and dialogues were suppose to add and my net pack got expired and I thought I'll do it after recharging my net pack and upload it at that time

But after recharging when I came to Wattpad it wasn't there

I waited for few hours thinking maybe it will return but when it didn't I thought you must be waiting to chalo Muskan Thora khudko taqleef dedo and re write it 😥

-Ufaq