I could feel him shaking slightly in my arms which were wrapped firmly around his torso. As crazy as it sounds I actually felt bad for saying the things I did to him.

I was lost in my own thoughts about my emotions when suddenly I heard him take a shaky breath in. I was surprised and started to loosen my grip as I listened closely to his shaky breaths and a few sniffles.

Is he crying?

I turned him around effortlessly, which also surprised me and looked up at his face. Tears were quickly streaming down his face and his bottom lip shook slightly. He wiped his eyes but It didn't help as tears continued to flow effortlessly down his face. Everyone had seen the joker laugh, but only now I had seen him cry.

"Oh my god J, I'm so sorry."

"I'm such a terrible person Autumn, I really am. Sometimes I wonder is I'm even human anymore."

He dropped to his knees and buried his face in my shirt, holding me tightly. I brushed my fingers through his hair, doing small shushing noises trying to make him stop.

"Shh J, it's okay. You're okay."

"I'm a monster."

"no, you aren't."

"Don't try to deny it, you know what you said is true."

"J stop."

I lifted his head slightly so he would look at me, using my thumbs to wipe the tears from under his eyes. I couldn't believe that he had just broken down in front of me, but that made me realize something.

I must be someone special if he can show this side of himself to me.

He slowly stood up, still shaking slightly as our roles switched, his large hands now on both of my cheeks. I flushed red as I watched him start to close the gap, stopping in the middle suddenly and opening his eyes as he looked at me. He stared at me for a moment and then started to back up again.

Then I did the unthinkable. Without thinking, I grabbed the back of his neck, standing on my tipie toes as I closed the gap between us, pressing our lips together. It didn't take long for him to ease into the kiss, our lips seemingly melting together. His arms wrapped around my waist as I kept my hand on the back of his neck, right below his hairline.

It seemed like hours had passed when we finally broke apart, but somehow I didn't want it to end. I slipped my hand away from his neck and flushed red, stepping away from his grip.

"Damn Dollface, didn't think you'd ever do that."

He grinned slightly and I looked away, my face felt like it was boiling as I felt one of his fingers swipe a piece of my hair, tucking it behind my ear.

I can't believe I just did that! Why did I do that?!

I shook my head, I needed to get far away from here and forget this ever happened. I quickly ran, out of Jokers room, down the stairs, past Harley's room, and out the front door. I began running down the driveway when suddenly I felt someone grab me. I figured it was one of the joker's henchmen so I kicked and screamed.

"He said I can go! Let go of me this instant!"

"Oh Deary, You aren't going anywhere. I'm not letting you get away again."

I froze as I heard Jokers voice in my ear. Now because of what I had done, He'd never let me go, and I knew it. He suddenly pulled me off the ground and I shrieked as he threw me over his shoulder, his hand resting on my ass.

I just sighed and let my arms dangle, knowing there was no use in fighting. I hated this so much. I hated him. No, I'd be lying to myself if I said I hated him, I knew now that I had feelings for him, and I hated myself for it.

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I was sitting in a random room staring outside. It had been three hours and I was still trying to sort out everything that had happened and all my emotions. 

So far I knew that the joker had at least some small bit of emotion towards me, or he would've never let himself break down like that in front of me. I also knew that I had feelings for the joker, I didn't know how many but I knew that I was somehow a bit attracted to that psychopath. The last thing I knew was that I had kissed the joker and somehow it meant something to me, but I doubted it meant anything to him.

The reason I doubted it met anything to him was because I could hear him and Harley above me, her moans and screams seemed to echo off the old walls as I bit my lip so hard I was sure it would start bleeding. I now realized what this feeling was, however. I was jealous of Harley, Jealous that she was so close to him.

I was sure that she had seen him cry multiple times and it probably was nothing special anymore. Just as I was thinking that I was interrupted by a loud crash, I stood up wondering what it was but then a few moments later I heard Harley moan followed by 'oh Mr J you're so naughty.' I sighed and gripped onto my skirt.

I was still in my outfit from yesterday when they had kidnapped me from Arkham. It was nothing fancy, Just a navy blue button down blouse, with a black mini skirt, fishnets, and heels.

I decided I no longer wanted to sit here, listening to the sounds erupting from their bedroom. So I stood and walked out of the room and towards my room. The room had been swept and was painted black now. There were also more things in it, including a new television, A desk, Two nightstands on either side of my bed, a chandelier type ceiling light and a black comforted now covered the bed.

I saw a small card sitting on the bed and picked it up. 'Joker' was in large cursive letters on the front. I opened it and read it smiling to myself.

Thank you for the kiss earlier Dollface, I hate for people to see me like that. But when I said you were different I meant it. Anyways, Since you won't be leaving again anytime soon I decided you needed a proper bedroom. I hope you like the black, someone had said it was your favorite color. But I hope soon you'll stop seeing me as a monster. -J

I closed up the card and stuffed it in one of the drawers in the nightstand as I continued to the bathroom which was my original destination.

Stripping myself of my old clothing, I turned on the water, stepping into it once it started to warm up. I sighed in pleasure as I felt the water stream down my body, removing yesterday's grime.

I washed with the soaps that had conveniently been placed in the shower for me. Once I was completely clean, I stepped out of the shower and noticed that as always, my clothes were gone. However, this time, there was no large towels, only a small one that I could dry my hair off with.

I quickly grabbed the towel, wiping my body down and rubbing my hair with it. Once I was dry, I peeked into my bedroom making sure no one was there. The room was empty however and I quickly opened the drawer under the bed, hoping that the Joker was too busy with Harley to be watching the cameras.

Inside the drawer was only two things through. Lacy underwear and a bra to match. I groaned but quickly put in on, searching everywhere trying to find actual clothing. However, my search turned up empty and I groaned knowing he had done this on purpose most likely.

God dammit J.

I whipped my door open and started to walk towards the Jokers room. Getting looks here and there from henchmen. I groaned again, I hated this so much.

Finally, I reached the joker's door and pounded on it until a messy haired Joker finally opened it, looking slightly irritated until he saw it was me.

"What the hell is this?!"

"What, you don't like it?"

"Shut up and give me some clothing."

I pushed the door open and walked into the room which was a mess but free of Harley. I groaned as I turned back to him hearing him laughing. I jumped slightly when I saw how close he was, though.

"Aw dollface, I was just having some fun. Don't you want to have some...fun?"

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okay okay yes, I am suddenly moving shit at a fast pace I know and I'm sorry for anyone who just enjoyed it moving at a slow pace. I am trying to keep the Jokers personality present throughout this because I don't want to suddenly make him this dream guy whos perfect. But yeah.

Also the crying thing was because a while back on an interview I heard someone, I think Mark Hamil or David Ayer or something, say that everyone has seen the Joker laugh but only Harleys seen him cry. Which is really interesting.

But yeah, This was a longer chapter than usual. Do you guys want me to start writing longer chapter? Because If you like this I'll continue.

But anyways, I keep trying to leave it on a cliffhanger so y'all are interested, so, sorry bout that. But yeah that's all. I might update one last time today and then again tomorrow, but yeah thanks for all the support and love you guy have been showing this book. I'll update again soon.

Until next time, I'll see you.

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