ALRIGHTY SO r@pe is after the first "~~~~~" and ends after the second "~~~~~"

S'mores this past weekend was definitely something. Full of crude words from Mineta and sad glances from his friends. He was tempted to just book it out of there and let everyone enjoy it all without him. 

He could feel how sorry they felt for him. They didn't even know what his deal was and they were already treating him differently. How would they react if the whole thing came out? He grimaces at the thoughts that plague his mind. They'd probably say shit like 'you can always come to me if you ever need'.

Ugh, he hates his brain for making his friends say those words. 

They only have a few days left before they have that joint training with class B. 

The week sped by. He honestly doesn't remember most of it.

"Yeah so you remember that cat video I told you about?" He asks the group excitedly.

They all roll their eyes. "Explanation Kami, you show us a cat video like at least once a week. At least."

He huffs at Sero and pokes his shoulder childishly. "The one with the Cheeto bag on its face."

They all 'oh' as they remember.

"Yeah, 'oh'. Anyway, so I found this other one. The cat looked exactly the same but this one had tape stuck to its paws and it flipped out. Like if the tape was gonna kill it or something," he wheezes.

The others laugh along with him, having a contagious laugh and all, it usually goes like this. Even if what he said isn't even that funny, all of them will give in and laugh, too.

After it dies down, the others are all somewhat red because of all the laughing they were doing.

"Man I love cats," Kaminari sighs.

"You think Mr. Aizawa will pass us all if we give him a cat?" Mina asks.

Bakugo scoffs, "He'd probably make sure we all become heroes for sure if we did."

The rest agree, thinking about which cat Aizawa would love the most. "He probably just loves street cats. All sad and homeless. Definitely a random street cat," Sero adds.

Kaminari can see that. Mr. Aizawa approaching every street cat he sees and taking them in.

He must have a million.

"Ugh, we only have four days before the training with class B," Kirishima complains.

The others groan in unison at the realization, too. It's only one person that they all can't stand and hate with a passion. Monoma, that stupid idiot looking wimp.

"I'm gonna beat his ass," Bakugo promises.

The others hum in approval. Kaminari feels a bit separated from them. Kind of like- he just doesn't feel the same. What Kisho has done just really messes with him.

Just four days and they go against class B. Just four and his nerves are getting to him.

Even on Wednesday when he stayed after class with Aizawa and the others, their teacher noticed his change in demeanor. There's so much pressure on him. So much he has to hide and get better at. So many people he has to make happy. So many people that expect so much from him.

He feels as if he could implode.

But he's fine really.

"Yeah so when he looked at me I asked what his 'copy cat ass' was doing," Mina huffs.

He doesn't know how that story started, but apparently Mina was done.

"He pisses me off," Kaminari chips in, wanting to seem like he is present. He's really not. Hasn't been for a while. Maybe days, but he can't really find a way to make himself actually there. He just feels so far.

A hand on his shoulder startles him and he almost gasps. "God, dude, you scared me," he starts, laughing.

Kirishima laughs too, having been the one who scared him. "Sorry, man, I just wanted to get your attention. You were daydreaming," he says.

"Oh, yeah," Kaminari laughs nervously, "you know, just about girls."

Lies.

He wishes he liked girls. Would make it so much easier for him if he didn't like the gender of the person who takes advantage of him constantly. His parents are accepting of gay people, and he's happy for that, but he just wishes he liked girls for the one reason that a girl didn't rape him.

Sero laughs and Mina rolls her eyes. Bakugo had just kept walking, probably trying to get away from them.

"Yo, Bakugo, wait up," Kaminari yells with a smirk.

The angry blond stops and turns around with a groan. As the others near him, he grumbles angrily under his breath, but waits.

"Alright so how do you plan on beating Monoma?" Mina asks.

That brings a smirk onto Bakugo's face and he starts telling his friends about his whole plan.

~~~~~

Pushed up against the wall, his dad groans in pleasure.

Kaminari is trapped, literally. Kisho has him trapped against his body and the wall. His face presses up against the cool wall. It's so cool against his red, heated face.

"You like it?"

"Yes."

He's uncomfortable. Obviously.

He doesn't remember the walk home. Doesn't remember walking upstairs.

He feels as if he just spawned or something. He feels so distant, though. Is this really happening to him? Right now?

It hurts. It hurts so much, and he feels his thoughts cloud his mind. He doesn't know how much he's reciprocated until this point. Doesn't know how frustrated Kisho is if he hasn't contributed at all.

He doesn't realize the ugly sounds of pain are coming from him, and he closes his mouth once he realizes. He didn't even know he had his mouth open.

God, he's so disgusting. His dad probably thought they were sounds of pleasure.

He swallows thickly, feeling like throwing up at the thought.

Never.

He'd never enjoy this.

~~~~~

His mind blanked again and he doesn't realize how much time has passed. He's laying in his bed now.

When he got here, he doesn't know. He also doesn't know if it's the same day or the next morning. There's light out, so he can't really tell.

He blinks, face pointed to the room as he lies on his stomach on his bed, not having moved at all. His arm kind of hangs off, and he just states at the window. Stares.

Should he get up?

Is it worth it?

What about his mom?

He sits up.

Downstairs his mom is at the table, drinking coffee.

Morning.

"Hey, Denki, you fell asleep early last night," she says, looking up at him from her mug.

He opens his mouth to talk.

Last night.

He feels everything then, and chokes back a sob, pretending to cough.

"Yeah, just tired from school."

Is that his voice?

"Oh, you're almost done, though, sweety. You need a day off?"

His heart swells at the offer. He must look that bad. He feels sticky in his pants and pain everywhere.

Pain that didn't register until Yukako reminded him about the events.

He can't remember much.

He's kind of glad for that. It was rougher last night. He doesn't feel too much pain. Not like he's bleeding, but it hurts. And it's sticky and gross.

"Nah, I can't miss anytime soon. Got a lot of stuff coming up," he finally answers.

He hopes too much time hasn't gone by.

"Okay, hun. You look really tired. I had plans for this weekend, but we can just save it for next weekend, or whenever. I'll tell your father you're not feeling well. Go get some rest."

Kaminari nods.

He must look terrible.

"You want breakfast?" Yukako asks.

The thought of food makes him dizzy. Absolutely disgusted.

"Yeah, whatever is fine," he says, sitting down on a chair.

He hasn't even brushed his teeth yet.

He just puts his head down, letting his mom take care of him. Just for a little bit. Just for today.

"School stressing you out?"

The tears well in his eyes and he feels choked up.

"Yeah."

It's wobbly. He won't look up as he hears Yukako's movements stop.

It's silent for a while.

"Just relax for today, yeah?"

The tears have fallen, and if he talks, he'll definitely start sobbing, so he nods, hoping his mom saw.

The tears won't stop.

They keep coming as his mom moves around the kitchen.

He hopes she makes something light. If he's going to eat anything at all, it might as well be something small. He really hates throwing up.

His face is red and puffy when she puts his plate on the table, sitting across from him.

"Thanks, Ma."

He won't look up, but he knows she sees his face.

Breakfast was light. Some eggs with a side of two sausages. She even served him a glass of water.

She doesn't make him wash his dishes when he's done. Instead, she takes them from him and shoos him upstairs.

"Thank you, Ma. I love you."

"Take it easy, sweety."

He cries on the way to his room.

~~~~~

When he gets back to the dorms on Sunday, Sero and Kirishima bombard him with a whole bunch of stuff.

He can't remember half of it, but he owes it to them to at least smile and be happy.

"And the new update totally made it so ass-"

"Like the graphics were kinda cool-"

"-does that?"

"For real, it was just crazy-"

Kaminari starts crying.

So much for owing them.

It falls silent. The others in the common area saw, too.

He just walks upstairs, still crying as he leaves his friends speechless.

He wouldn't know what to do with a freak like himself either.

The craving of burning himself crosses his mind, and now he wants it. He wants it so much. His bottom still hurts. He still feels gross even after having taken 4 showers since yesterday.

It could have been more, but he only remembers four.

He wants to sleep even after sleeping for all of yesterday.

He can't miss tomorrow, though. Tomorrow is the fight with class B.

He destroys his room once the lock clicks.

Books everywhere. Backpack open and spilling everything inside. Papers littered across the room. His dresser is empty, clothes scattered everywhere. His closet is also empty. Board games and hangers on the floor. He's kneeling, head on the floor and hands in his hair as he hyperventilates.

The world might be ending, he thinks. It feels that way. His heart is going way too fast.

His breathing is erratic, and he honestly doesn't know if his neighbors were in their dorms. He's beyond embarrassed at the thought if having a meltdown with people listening in.

Did he yell? He's almost positive he did at one point. His throat absolutely burns. Wouldn't be surprised if the entire dorm gave him weird looks after this.

As if on cue, there's knocking.

"Kaminari?"

Kirishima. Damnit. At least it's not Bakugo. Getting busted by the same person multiple times is embarrassing enough.

"Are you okay, man? I heard yelling and some classmates are worried."

Kaminari's heart stops. God, he was so loud.

He bites on his shirt to stop a sob.

"Just, uh, knock twice if you're okay."

That he can do.

He knocks twice on his dresser. Loud enough for Kirishima to hear.

It's never gotten to this point.

So bad he can't talk. He hates it.

"Okay, man. I'll come by again later."

Footsteps recede and he pulls at his hair, sobbing.

He can stop this. All he has to do is tell someone and they'll help him. Do whatever, but he just wants his dad to stop touching him. To stop hurting him in places that shouldn't hurt at such a young age.

It's embarrassing, though.

He screams again, neighbors be damned.

He'll definitely get weird looks tomorrow, but right now, since he can't even talk, screaming will have to do.

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It's only the third week of school and i am so done ☹️ my college prep teacher is helping me apply to UT cause i asked her to help me out, but i honestly don't even wanna go to college ☹️ wtv i don't really know where to stay after I graduate hs so college dorms will have to do for a while 😋 ANYWAY i hope y'all liked this chapter. Shinso is finally coming out in the next one 😋😋😋 LMAOO uhh yeah. Next chapter will come out next Sunday at 8 pm central time. I love you all and tsym for reading<3