Taking his meds was not fun.

He almost had a panic attack three different times, and also contemplated on taking all of them at once, so he gave them to Bakugo for safe keeping.

That way he could help him take them, too.

The look on Bakugo's face when he handed him the three bottles was hell for Kaminari. It's like he knew why they would be safer with him rather than with Kaminari.

That was days ago, and he talked to Arai about them, and she seemed worried.

Aizawa also talked to him when he dropped him off that day. It was very awkward and not fun at all.

He'd almost finished cleaning the dorms. Just one floor to go. Then it was cutting the grass and cleaning up around the area, and then the classroom.

Todoroki noticed Kaminari looked down, so he took him and Bakugo to the movies. The angry blond didn't want to go at first, well, he made it seem that way but both Todoroki and Kaminari knew that he did. After Kaminari told him he wanted him to go, he relented and actually went with them.

Kaminari started his routine again, and even though he didn't feel any different with the anti-depressant or the anti-anxiety medications, he was trying to get out of his low.

He was practically fighting the low with how hard he was trying to get out of it. The sleeping pills worked wonders, so now he feels a little better.

Arai also mentioned that the other two medications would take a while to start working, so he shouldn't be impatient.

He was sweeping the highest floor which was Todoroki's, when Bakugo came out of said boy's room.

As soon as they made eye-contact, Kaminari started laughing so loud and hard while Bakugo looked embarrassed. There's no fucking way that just happened.

It was the middle of the day, so it didn't look sexual or anything, but the utter embarrassment Bakugo displayed made Kaminari's entire existence better.

"Care to explain yourself?" Kaminari questioned after he finished wheezing.

"Shut up," he yelled as he punched the elevator button to his floor.

As the doors were closing, Kaminari shouted, "I thought you weren't friends."

Bakugo's face was priceless.

So much for denying how much he liked him.

It wasn't long after that when he finished sweeping, already having some everything except mop when the elevator doors opened again. Kaminari started laughing as he got the mop and mop bucket. "Going back to Todoroki's room?" He asked as he mopped.

"Why would I do that?"

Kaminari turned around in an instant and almost felt like crying with how excited he was. He put the mop down and ran to Shinso who was smiling at Kaminari's reaction.

The blond practically tackled the other teen in a hug.

"I missed you."

The blond scoffs. "Not as much as I missed you."

"Liar."

"You're the liar."

"Nuh-uh."

"Yuh-huh."

"Hello Shinso."

They both pull back and look at Todoroki with red faces.

"Hey, Todoroki," he waves awkwardly.

They stand there awkwardly for about ten seconds which honestly feel like forever when no one is going anything.

"Okay, well, I'm going to meet with Bakugo. I'll see you guys later."

With that, Todoroki bows and makes his leave.

Kaminari turns to Shinso after a bit and smiles.

"Let me just finish mopping and we can hang out," Kaminari says, and Shinso nods.

Sounds great.

Man he missed him.

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"Yeah so then I like had to fucking-like- I guess pretend I didn't care that the bandages were just exposed for everyone to see," Kaminari rants, going around the room picking up after Smushy and making sure she had everything she needed.

Shinso just watches as he distractedly talks, cleaning his room as he talks at a really fast pace.

"And when it got really bad, like really bad I just couldn't stop crying and I kinda feel like crying really hard right now, but not that bad."

He talks as if it's nothing, but the way that he has to distract himself with something lets Shinso know that it really means a lot and is hard for him to actually admit.

"So when Aizawa actually got the signature, I was just sad that I wasn't able to see my mom. I wish I could just take everything back and live with her. I miss her so much and," he laughs, "I really need her to hug me. I need her."

Shinso's heart breaks.

"Oh," Kaminari says, smiling at Shinso, "you should try some of the left over dinner that I helped Bakugo make yesterday. I've been helping him with new recipes recently and I think the dishes taste good."

Kaminari had already taken his two pills of the day and even though they still didn't have any effect on him, he hoped they would soon because the pit in his chest is overwhelming.

It's hard to pretend to be happy.

Especially when he thinks about how easy it should be to be happy.

"Bakugo and Todoroki have been really close. Like earlier," Kaminari starts laughing as they walk out, heading downstairs, "I was cleaning that floor right? And then Bakugo walks out of Todoroki's room."

Shinso can't help but smile a bit at how much Kaminari is.

Once they're in the kitchen, Kaminari calms down and sighs.

As soon as he opens the fridge, he remembers his pills and wonders if he should leave them with Bakugo or give them to Shinso for him to make sure Kaminari doesn't do anything stupid.

He initially didn't even want to give the pills to Bakugo because it wasn't Bakugo's responsibility.

Bakugo is just a kid, too.

He just didn't have anyone else at the time. Well, besides Todoroki, but he doesn't know Todoroki that well.

Kaminari doesn't want to shift the responsibility over to Shinso now.

He just feels pathetic.

He should be old enough and responsible enough to take his pills correctly and not want to down all of them like a suicidal freak. Why is that such a strong urge?

It's not that he wants to die. It's that he wants to be done with all of this.

Just not have to deal with this.

Be gone.

And yeah, that may sound depressing, but he doesn't want to actually die. It's complicated and he hates himself, too.

He refrains from dragging his hand down his face in annoyance at himself, and takes out the Tupperware of the food. There's three because they made two sides and the main dish.

Sure, Kaminari barely did anything to help, but knowing how well it came out along with the fact that he, Kaminari, didn't ruin it was a big win for him, and he'll brag about it until he forgets. He feels like he's proud of himself over the dumbest things, but he hardly ever does anything impressive, so it makes sense.

Holy shit being happy is so hard.

Kaminari wonders when or if it'll ever get better.

Hopefully soon.

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Word Count: 1,183
Y'ALL I FORGOT I HAD TO POST TODAY 😭😭 This is all I had written but I'll post another chapter to make up for it on Wednesday. It'll be just as long, but the one for Sunday will be longer. I hope you liked this chapter. The next one will go up on Wednesday at 8pm central time. I love you all and tysm for reading<3