,,Yunho, your friend is here!'' He heard his mum yell downstairs.

Yunho took a deep breath and looked out of the window and saw Mingi stepping out of his car and welcoming his mum with a warm smile. He felt himself already melting on the other's lovely smile.

Yunho, get your god damn self together. He told himself sternly.

He took a deep breath, grabbed his big bag and walked downstairs and then out, grabbing a coat on the way.

,,You ready for an adventure?'' Mingi asked, obviously excited.

,,Yep.'' Yunho answered. He and Mingi smiled to each other.

,,Honey, come here!'' Yunho's mum suddenly hailed, ran to him and hugged him. ,,Oh, I'm gonna miss you so much." She pushed a hair strand behind his ear and caressed his soft cheeck. ,,but have fun.'' She said and smiled warmly to her beloved son.

,,I'll be back soon mum, don't worry.'' Yunho replied in a caring tone.

Mingi felt how he became warm inside. Yunho's mother loved him so much. And Mingi loved too. A lot.

But then something happened. Mingi noticed it pretty soon. He had no idea what caused that but Yunho just...changed. He was that happy bean from the outside like usually but for Mingi, he felt...distant. Like he didn't like being with Mingi anymore because he didn't talk to him that often anymore or not with so much enthusiasm. Mingi remembered that one time when they were hanging out in the apartment with others and he wanted to put his hand around him but Yunho quickly stepped away, sending him a strange look and moved away, sitting down next to Jongho. That hurt Mingi a lot but he put on a smiling face like everything was fine.

But nothing wasn't.

He was scared that Yunho doesn't like him anymore or worse, that he'll lose him to something he doesn't have any idea about.

,,Mingi?''

Yunho's question made him snap out of his thoughts. ,,Hm?''

,,Is everything alright?''

,,Wha- Yeah. Sure. Let's get going.'' Lie. He was everything but fine.

He took Yunho's bag, threw it to the back and sat into the car.

,,I totally forgot to ask but where are we going?'' Yunho asked while getting into the car.

,,You'll see.''

Yunho fastened the seatbelt and looked out of the window to see his mum waving to them for goodbye. He waved back and then continued to stare outside. He was thinking about Mingi. At first, he seemed to be happy but now Yunho was starting to rethink that impression. His voice tone had changed from excited to dull. Was...was it because of him? Has Mingi noticed anything? In Yunho's opinion he hid everything well and Mingi shouldn't have a problem with that... But, after all, he has known Yunho for a long time and maybe he noticed something?

They had driven out of the city and the silence was getting on Mingi's nerves. If he did something wrong and Yunho wants to fix it then why isn't he saying anything?

But maybe he doesn't want to change it. Maybe he stays away because he understands that Mingi feels something more for him than a friend should and that disgusts him? Maybe there even isn't something wrong and this is just Mingi's stupid imagination?

,,Did I do something wrong?'' He bursts out and Yunho jumps slightly, feeling his nerves tense up.

Mingi sighed. ,,Yunho, since the day you agreed to come camping with me, you've been acting weirdly around me and I want to know did I do anything wrong? Please tell me what's wrong so I can fix it...but if you don't want to be friends with me anymore, just tell me, I'd understand.'' He took a deep breath. ,,Is it because I held your hand? You could've just tell me that you didn't like it and I would've stopped...I'm sorry. Please just tell me...Talk to me Yunho, I beg you...''

Yunho heard a sob and felt his heart scatter to pieces. Mingi crying was the last thing he wanted. He thought he'd do everyone a favor by pushing his feelings away but now it seems he had only hurt the person he cared about the most by doing so. He had been so selfish. Such an idiot.

Yunho squeezed the door handle and felt his eyes becoming wet. Soon, tears silently rolled down on his cheecks and he restrained his eyes together in pain.

Mingi gripped the steering wheel and bit his lip. He didn't recieve an answer from Yunho and that hurt him a lot. His vision turned blurry and he couldn't stop the sobs. What is he going to do now? The closest person he had hated him-

,,MINGI!''

Mingi opened his eyes just to see Yunho throwing himself towards him, grabbing the steering wheel and pulling it towards himself. He heard a toot and saw a dark blue car driving around them, the driver looked very mad but also scared. Yunho lead the car to the roadside and pulled the keys out, throwing them to Mingi before getting out of the car, smashing the door close behind himself.

They were in the middle of nowhere. Fields wided in front of him, he looked into the distance, tears falling down on the grass. Yunho fell on the seat, pulled knees close and hid his crying face into them.

Mingi got out of the car slowly, still shocked for the reason that had happened just a few seconds ago. He walked around the car and saw Yunho sitting on the ground, hugging his knees and crying. His whole body was shaking and Mingi heard his loud sobs what broke his heart. He didn't want to see the boy he loved crying; he wanted to see his pinkish cheecks and beautiful smile and hear his contagious laugh. Mingi would've been ready to give his life for Yunho to be happy forever.

He approached the boy slowly and kneeled down next to him. They were in the silence for a few minutes while Mingi gathered his shy self and said,

,,Yunho...I'm sorry for hurting you, I never meant to...I should've not come at you that fast...I'm so so sorry...But just please...'' His voice broke and he started crying.

You're my reason to wake up every day, my reason to smile...You're my everything...I love you Yunho...Please forgive me...

Yunho's sobs soothed and he looked up in front of himself and then at Mingi. It hurt him so badly to see Mingi like that; sad, broken...Without realising, he touched Mingi's hand gently and caressed it. He scooted closer to the younger one and searched for his look.

But the tears didn't stop falling.

And that was what hurt him the most.

,,Mingi...'' A silent name dropped from Yunho's lips; it was barely hearable, teary. Yunho tried not to start crying again.

But that one silent name was enough for Mingi to stop crying or at least raise his head and look at Yunho. Yunho gulped when saw Mingi's puffy and red eyes, tear traces all over his beautiful face.

,,I...I'm sorry...'' Yunho couldn't hold his sadness back anymore and bursted into tears, quickly hiding his face away from Mingi. He wiped some tears away, taking his hand away to do so.

Mingi looked at the sorrowful scene in front of him and Yunho's small convulsing figure. He put his hand on Yunho's but the boy flinched and Mingi wanted to take his hand away but then Yunho squeezed it, not letting the younger do it.

,,It's just...'' Yunho took a deep breath. ,,My emotions have been a mess lately and...and I wanted to deal with them on my own but I...obviously can't...I'm sorry Mingi...I-I never meant to hurt you...I'm so so sorry...''

Mingi was taken aback of the sudden confession. He felt so bad for not having any idea about that. But why did he even think that Yunho's problems had something to do with him? It had just been his feelings, that's it. The world doesn't spin around him. Why had he been so selfish?

,,Why didn't you tell me? Or someone else?'' He asked quietly.

Yunho tightened the grip. ,,I just...I'm...I don't...'' He inhaled deeply. ,,It's...complicated...I'm not ready yet...'' He wiped away another tear. ,,I'm scared, Mingi...'' He looked at the younger with fearful eyes.

,,Yunho...'' Mingi took Yunho's hands into his. ,,I'm not gonna push you but...just know that I'm always here for you if you need anything...So, whenever you're ready, I'll listen to you...'' A tear fell from his eye and dropped on Yunho's leg. Yunho looked at it and then back at Mingi again.

And nodded.

Mingi gave him a weak smile and pulled him up.

,,You still wanna go camping with me?'' He asked and Yunho nodded, smiling. It warmed Mingi's heart to see Yunho happy again and he smiled back.

Mingi let go of his hands and started to get into the car when heard his name being yelled.

,,Mingi!''

He turned around but had to take a few steps back when Yunho ran to him and hugged him. He wrapped his hands around Yunho's waist and the older let out a heavy breath.

Mingi's hands around him, Yunho felt safe and didn't want to let go. Never. He loved Mingi.

,,Thank you.'' He whispered into his ear and Mingi felt his heartbeat fastening. Yunho hugged him tightly but let go soon and they both got into the car and Mingi started driving again. He looked at Yunho and took his hand. Yunho was surprised and switched his look between their hands and started blushing when felt Mingi fondle his hand. Those very gentle and loving touches sent shivers along Yunho's body but also made him feel relaxed and safe. Since today, he doesn't hide his feelings anymore. He smiled at the confident thought.

Your voice was what brought me back to reality from my thoughts just seconds before the almost accident...I need you in my life, Yunho...I really do... Mingi thought while fondling Yunho's hand.

And one day, I'm gonna tell you that...

This chapter was very sad in my opinion, I don't know, maybe I'm overreacting? But the song makes it better in my opinion, or even sadder? It just seemed to fit so I went for it ^^