Small vent/gore up ahead TwT

Ahhhhhhhh
Sorry I've just not been feeling great mentally huff
Sorry for venting here but Ily guys sm and you're great friends and you help me sm TwT
Anyway if you're wondering what it's about, I'm not sure if I'm ready to talk about it yet? But I've mainly being feeling like my emotions are to much? I've been having very small anxiety attacks and hhhhhhhh
Also I recently found out that I have bad anxiety attacks if more then 3+ people raise their voice,, so that's great
And I also don't know about love anymore,,, I've been feeling hopeless, like I daydream about the person loving me but then I get a shot of reality and think about them really?
Also,,
If you've been with me for a while,, you'd know there was a girl I liked and we were mortal enemies the year before,,,
Without realizing it I think I pushed down and almost forgotten the memories I had tried to forget? And I keep remembering them when something semi-related happens and then I get all depressed and emotional for a while??

Well thanks if you read all that
Don't worry about me too much, I'll be fine once school starts.
Okay,,
I'm really excited for school?
This is going to sound weird but,,
I wanna be in a class with people I hardly know, like this year,,,
I wanna start fresh?
It's hard half-way through jr high but TwT
I also kinda wanna come out? Like as bi?
But also,,, I've been thinking about this for a while,, I might not be bi?
I might be omni? (Pansexual but not "gender blind")
Idk
I saw this person at Costco today (V romantic I know) but I thought they might be genderfluid? And they were very attractive u////u so yeah
Anyway that's it thanks for coming to my ted talk (sorry that was kinda all over the place )