Under the moonlight

holding eachother like

its the only thing stopping us

from slipping into the void

Erasing the line between where I end and where you begin"

C R U M B L E D P A P E R P O E T R Y

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"And we now welcome to the dance floor Mr and Mrs Pestock! Pestock really? Ouch!" Nikki elbowed Jon who had decided to be MC for the night.

Here we are, together

And everything between us is good

I'm right here in this cloud, baby

Ready to fly but before I take

Another step

"Shall we?" I smirked while Baron rolled his eyes as we walked down the staircase to the area that had been filled with chairs this afternoon but was now decked out with tables as well.

"You know when you told me this idea I assumed we'd get married and kick them all out" he sighed as we walked to the center. "I can't dance"

Would you catch me if I fall for you?

'Cause I'm falling

I'm falling, I'm falling

I sensed the nervousness within his voice and me being his little wolf found it adorable, "Oh so that little 'hitting the air' thing you do with your entrance is nothing?"

He scoffed at my words while I giggled and put his arms around me before tracing over his stubble. "Just sway, wolf"

He tightened his arms around me and smiled as he lowered his head to mine, "I love you"

I'm so used to standing

So used to being on my own

But this thing is new, baby

It feels like I'm losing control

I'll take another step

I placed a brief kiss on his lips before I rest my head on his chest and just let my mind drift. A couple hours ago I stood before him as we literally debated doing our own vows in front of everyone. We didn't, and I had no problem with it because I knew the type of person I was marrying. I also didn't want him any more uncomfortable and sharing his feelings in front of everyone at work was not his idea of comfortable.

If you catch me when I fall for you

'Cause I'm falling

I'm falling, I'm falling

I felt his fingers slowly trace over the sheer material over my back. I peeked up at him and while he had been staring over to the lake as everyone else had joined us on the dance floor he felt me staring I guess and stared down at me.

"What's wrong?"

I admit instead of straight answering him I got lost in those brown eyes of his. The eyes I hadn't given much thought in the years leading up to our eventual matrimony. The first time meeting him they had been annoyed, they were always annoyed or aggravated, dark so dark. I never found myself drawn to understand why, he was my close friend's best friend and that was it. I made the effort to greet him just as I did everyone and hadn't actually appreciated that he took the time to greet me back often or give a lazy wave. Aint it funny how when someone is just someone you don't want to search deeper but the moment they're significant to you, the darkness becomes filled with their life, their soul. His life, his soul was intertwined with mine and it clashed in the best way possible...

"I'm just really happy. For a long time I didn't think I would be this happy and content. We've got so much going for us, the future is ours wolf" I shrugged hoping my own eyes didn't give away that I would probably start bawling any minute.

I wasn't the emotional type of person, as everyone knew I was the happy go lucky chick, the person you came to when you needed a pick-me-up. But even that person needs someone they can just let go with and that was my wolf. Sure it was due to arguments, needs and a whole lot of shit but being with Baron helped me get in touch with my darker parts and sometimes that was necessary to be happy. He didn't respond but did what he did a lot when I would make him speechless, he glanced away and chuckled slightly.

Will you promise to be there?

Stay by my side always?

Whenever I need you

Don't let me down, no, no

His arms tightened as he lift me off my feet so that I was level with him. I folded my arms over his shoulders and nudged my nose over his. "Its only us" I whispered sensing his hesitation as while we were always affectionate it tended to be in private.

Most of our relationship was behind closed doors and that's the way we liked it or just what we had become used to. Our relationship started with sharing a bed, having sex and it wasn't exactly the normal kind of romance. But I liked it that way.

If I give you my all, don't let me fall

Would you do that for me, hold me?

Will you love, will you love me?

"I wish it was" he whispered into my lips and I smiled before kissing him. He gently sucked on my bottom lip before pushing his tongue past them, slowly finding his way to please me. It was quite different to our first kiss, that had been rough with my tongue being harmed in the process, not that I minded. His fingers dug into my side as my body was pinned to his and I resisted the urge to wrap my legs around him.

I got carried away and bit his lip which was probably not a good idea as he narrowed his eyes while I glanced around at the dimly lit backyard. "Let's go"

My heart is ready

For love and to be loved

And I chose you, baby

That's the one thing I'm sure of

So I will take this one last step

"Go where?" I giggled as our flight wasn't till the morning while gently wiping his lips realizing I still had lipstick on even after a few glasses of champagne.

"Upstairs" he almost pouted before smirking. I slowly shook my head holding back my laughter due to his adorable face. He didn't care though instead he kissed along my jaw and into my neck. "Or I can make you moan right here"

So catch me, I'm falling for you

I'm falling

I'm falling, I'm falling

"You wouldn..." I gasped as he bit into my neck and lifted his head with a laugh. And not the adorable laugh but the laugh he gave in the ring when he was enjoying laying his opponents to waste.

"We can go into one of the guest rooms, they will never find us. Hell, they won't notice we're gone" He continued to try to persuade me and I glanced around knowing they probably wouldn't, being wasted and all.

"And the house could very well burn down while I'm pinned beneath you"

I'm falling

I'm falling, I'm falling

I'm falling

I'm falling, I'm falling

I'm falling

I'm falling, I'm falling

"It would be a good way to go out" he shrugged and I stared at him before burying my face in his neck and inhaling. Before I could say anything I felt him moving away from the crowd of people in our backyard and as soon as we entered the house I wrapped my legs around him.

I heard the distinct paws hit the tiles and Baron stopped, "Come on, we're going to bed"

I giggled as they followed and he opened one of the doors and they ran in. Yes our dogs had their own room, that's what happens when you buy a huge home with no intention of having kids any time soon.

"Now where are we going?" I knew our own bedroom was quite messy considering we had gotten done in there.

"Mmm patience, Mrs Pestock" he smirked before opening a door and I was about to comment but the dimly lit room caught my eye.

"Thomas Pestock!" I hopped off of him and stared at the candlelit room with rose petals draped everywhere.

I felt him hug me from behind, "I know its not like us, but its one night since its your first time and all. I promise to be gentle, Blondie"

I laughed out, "Funny. It is my first time as a married woman though"

I smiled and turned in his arms and immediately kissed him to show just how grateful I was for what he had done. He could have honestly been like what the fuck when I rushed the wedding but turns out he loves me as much as I love him. His hands explored my body before he gripped my behind and lift me up against him before laying me back onto the bed.

I ripped open the shirt and heard him discard it and he grinded his body against mine as I felt him against me. His fingers slipped behind me and zipped down the dress before peeling off the straps and biting along my shoulder.

My dress was lowered to reveal the white lace underwear which he seemed to appreciate as his hands slowly moved up my thighs before tracing along the lace. He stood back up and stripped down for me and I smiled as I loved the sight of my wolf. And why wouldn't I?

There were tattoos scattered all over his skin and my eyes fell on all of them, the last one being the caged heart and my eyes met his as he lowered himself onto me.

"I love your tattoos. Still waiting for my name, wolf" I whispered as he hadn't made a move to start fucking me into oblivion even though I could feel him pressing against the fabric.

"Your name is everywhere on me, Blondie" he sighed and I gave a small smile and traced my fingers over his cheek before he leaned into it.

His index finger traced along my body before his hand moved beneath me and unhooked my bra. His lips met mine as he gripped my face roughly towards him but gave me one of his most gentle kisses. Both my hands held his face as I felt him move my underwear to the side and slowly slip into me. His motions were slow and I moaned into his mouth with his thrusts into me.

I fell for the rude, annoyed bastard but I ultimately stayed for the soft shades of my wolf. The soft shades that were only ever reserved for little old me...

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"I assumed everyone had left after we disappeared" I smiled as I wandered barefeet out to my backyard after seeing movement.

"Thanks for the heads up on that one" Nikki rolled her eyes, "I don't know just wanted to soak in today. It was so beautiful, I can't wait to marry Jon"

"Where is he?" I frowned remembering that they would be spending the rest of the week housesitting and well babysitting for us while we enjoyed our very short honeymoon.

"Passed out somewhere" She smiled. "Are you happy? You look very happy. You couldn't wait till Hawaii huh?"

"My husband couldn't." I shook my head and sat at the table she was. "I didn't even say goodbye to my parents"

She giggled and I was so grateful to her, who would have thought that with our arguments over Baron she would have planned the best wedding a girl could ask for. I was probably the worst bride ever because of the fact that I didn't know what I wanted and would just follow her lead. But of course that was my best friend's dream,

"I don't think they noticed. The twins drove them back to the hotel though, for a surprise wedding it turned out great. And you are Mrs Pestock, a taken woman"

I wiggled my fingers and stared at my wedding ring which was quite different to the engagement ring that was a skull but I loved them both. My rings were like my husband, the skull his dark side and the gold ring was his soft sweet side,

"That I am. Who would have thought my second chance at love would be with that big ol tempered guy upstairs"

"Love is the most unconventional thing, we're sold these fairytales as kids but the guys who really know how to take care of our hearts are hardly princes. They're the ones who have been through hardships, had life fuck with them and been broken. Only if you are broken do you know how to take care of the broken" She said thoughtfully and I couldn't agree more. Baron and I were both broken in our own way but being with eachother made that part invisible, our brokenness no longer existed with one another.

"Come on let's go have a glass of wine and then join our heros" I grabbed onto her hand and she giggled but followed.

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I slowly ran my fingers over the shaved part at the bottom of his long hair. We were both laid on our stomachs with our eyes closed for abit, but mine were currently open. I wasn't sure if he was awake or half asleep but I took it as one of the few moments I could observe him without an annoyed remark. I had snuck downstairs while he was in the shower and spent some time with Nikki and  came back to him lying like this.

"You are all mine and I'm so lucky" I whispered and his eyes opened and instead of denying it or looking confused a huge smile crossed his face.

"The moon is amazing tonight" I whispered as I glanced out of the window behind him.

"Just for us" he winked before he pulled me closer so that he hovered over me. "I never want this look to go away"

"What look?" I smirked not sure how in love I looked at that moment.

"Where you look at me like I'm the best thing in this world. Where I mean everything to you and you never plan on leaving me because that's how I feel, honey. I can list all the good things I have done and honestly I could erase them all if it just meant loving you. I guess I should be happy I'm such a pain in the ass cause if I wasn't I wouldn't have been stuck with you"

"And eventually stuck in me" I mused and he laughed out with a nod.

"Wouldn't be stuck anywhere else. For a long time I shied away from relationships because I always saw myself as less you know? I was a chubby ass kid with poor confidence who learned how to fake it. Even with you I was faking it, the dominant wolf, and you loved it and eventually I wasn't faking it. I was the big bad wolf just for you, Blondie and I will always be that man for you. The man that makes you moan so loud it brings me to the edge, tears apart my back and makes our bed creak. " He smirked and I smiled.

"But I will also be the one that trusts you and let's you handle shit most of the time. I will let you be the woman you were meant to be and watch you shine, honey. You're my workaholic and I love that about you even if I complain a lot. I only complain because I miss you, you know?" He searched my eyes..

"I know. But all my other suitors have been put in their place, the brunettes of the world is somethng that needs to be controlled though" I playfully poked his chest sensing his emotions getting the better of him. I was always happy when he bared his soul and always wanted to bring him back to happiness after being a vulnerable wolf for me.

"Ah I have gone blonde. Only blonde, only Renee's blonde" he groaned into my hair and I laughed out as he tickled me. "I'm fucking crazy about my blonde!"

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So this book is about two chapters away from being done and that will probably be up quite soon. I will have a thanks chapter after all is said and done as I always do but I'm grateful to the people still currently reading this unfinished book. I have been terrible with updates and its been literally years since it began but I appreciate the few comments and likes regardless. I have struggled connecting with what I wanted for this story when I started it years ago but hopefully it has been an enjoyable ride for you guys!