"I need to believe that I am different
and I am full of love.
And if I live every moment believing,
then the chaos in my heart
will be a beautiful thing. "
R.M DRAKE

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"Kalisto is certainly giving him a run for his money" Naomi commented as we sat backstage watching my amazing travelling partner go up against Kalisto.

I was happy no one realized that yet because I knew how some people could be backstage. And by that I mean make assumptions, I had been caught in some complications backstage before when people believed I was over friendly for other reasons but that was years before and now I could proudly say I did not have any bad blood with anyone.

"Yeah sometimes height can be a disadvantage it seems" I shrugged trying not to really comment much.

"What time did you come in today?" She questioned as we diverted from the match since the Wolf wasn't really favoured upon backstage.

"We got to the city a few hours before the show and I came straight in because I had a few meetings and had to film Unfiltered with Becky. Its so chilly I was like get me a heater please!" I groaned.

"Winter be coming like crazy"

"I feel like travelling messes with us cause one week its like we're in the tropics and the next freezing our asses off. It literally puts my body into panic mode" I sighed despite loving the snow reminding me of the festive season.

"Jon be loving it when its this weather. Gives him an excuse to get some."

"Well you know he is missing you with the movie so when you are able to come along for a couple of days, he is more than happy"

"Happy to get some cookie" She shook her head causing me to laugh out loud and I heard the wolf's music blaring as he stood over Kalisto claiming victory.

"Everybody loves some cookie." I sighed.

"I'm sure there are plenty of guys wanting to get up in your pants NeyNey"

"Mmmm I don't know. I just don't give off that come on let's get it on vibe" I shrugged.

"Yeah but you know men love that women that be too all up in their business to give 'em the time of day"

"I guess but those men are not on the road with us. There is no time you know? When I have time off I usually end up trying to finish up other work to keep my mind occupied and mostly prevent myself from going back home." I whispered.

"You need to sell that place. It ain't healthy to be just keeping it like that"

I sighed knowing she was right.

"We'll see for now I'm just going where life takes me and keeping the place even if I am hardly there."

***

"CUT!" I smiled as I walked off but soon heard Bryan and since we were done for the night I knew exactly what it was about.

"So how has it been going?"

"Its only been a week Bryan." I smiled.

"And?"

"Its been okay" I shrugged as I hadn't seen much of Baron besides the travelling. Which he would use as time to catch up on his bands and drown me out. I was usually a bit burned out so I usually fell asleep and would then wake up five minutes before we arrived at the hotel.

"I haven't pulled out any of my hair or come knocking at your door. And you saw he was nothing but professional half hour ago, showing up for his segment and everything. So when am I done?" I questioned because although Baron was quite fine but mostly a mute. I needed my girls who made the road fun and not a guy who just made it obvious I annoyed him.

"Why would you be done when you just gave us more reason to reassure us this is working." He smirked and I mentally slapped myself for pointing it all out.

"Urgh" I laughed. "Bye Bryan!" I turned on my heel and luckily I had come straight to the arena so my luggage was still in the rental considering we would be leaving immediately tonight.

I spotted one of the few cars in the parking lot with the light on inside as Baron seemed to be lying back taking a nap considering he had been waiting for over twenty minutes.

I made my way to it and knocked on the window since the door was locked and he rubbed his hand over his face before opening it.

"Sorry for keeping you waiting" I groaned as I opened the passenger seat door.

"Its fine." He simply said and I opened the back door to set my backpack in before hopping in myself and he slowly pulled out.

"You look cute with the beanie" I said after a bit but he didn't respond so I sighed and stared out of the window.

Missing my girls who were probably singing along to either Selena Gomez or Adele or if we wanted to feel extra cool maybe some Rihanna.

"Hair..." I heard and realized it came from beside me.

"Sorry what did you say?"

He shook his head as we pulled onto the highway that was smooth driving considering the time.

"Come on? Tell me?" I turned to face him in my seat and he glanced at me with a bored expression before focusing on the road again.

"You weren't listening" He shrugged.

"I'm sorry. I'm just really tired but luckily the next town isn't too far." I sighed knowing we would probably end up sharing a bed since that's all we had stumbled upon over the past week.

I heard him sigh, "I said I like you with the short hair."

"Like me?"

He didn't say anything.

"I'm messing with you. Yeah I think it suits me better too"

He nodded before driving again and since my battery died and I didn't really want to fall asleep I decided to focus on my travelling buddy.

His large arms, large legs that I was sure he struggled to fit in the car. Poor guy probably had to adjust his seat several times while I had the privilege of my own short legs. I couldn't decide whether he had a beard or stubble and I just wanted to touch it so badly. I never really paid attention to how attractive he was, he was just another guy on the roster to me and well Corey's best friend.

Renee Young, control yourself.

One talk with Naomi about satisfied cookies and I was gazing at Baron in a new light why on...

"Its rude to stare." His voice filled the car seeming annoyed and I immediately turned in my seat as the rest of the drive was in silence.

I guess that's because I fell asleep.

It did have cause for concern considering I dreamt of Mr Lone Wolf himself. I'm not even sure what, could have been a sex dream or simply him being his brooding self. I felt myself being lifted and wrapped my arms tightly around the source who smelled so fucking nice I just wanted to bite him.

Okay, I really needed to get my hormones in check.

"Hi, I called for a room. Corbin. Thanks."

I felt the softness beneath me as I was set on the bed and sighed as I slowly opened my eyes, mostly because I had been too lazy to walk so letting him carry me felt nice. I watched him strip down leaving on his basketball shorts in the dim light before moving into bed. I sat up and glanced around, "where's my stuff"

"In the car." He frowned not expecting me to wake up I guess.

"Are you serious?" I narrowed my eyes at him and he shrugged as he switched on the TV.

"It was either you or the bags"

"While I'm flattered you chose me, my PJs were in there"

"Well you're not going down there alone and I'm not getting out of this bed"

"Why can't I go alone?" I rolled my eyes and went to hop over him but felt his fingers in mine as he stopped me.

"Because I'm responsible for you. The last thing I need is your loud mouth attracting any unwanted idiots"

"Responsible for me? Its the other way around" I shook my head as I focused on him, sitting on his knees.

He sighed and leaned over grabbing his t-shirt from the chair.

"If you wanted me to wear your clothes to make you feel needed you could have just said so?" I winked but of course, nothing.

He stared at me blankly.

"We're going to be stuck together for a..." I took off my dress.

"For a long time and stop staring at my small boobs"

"I don't see any boyfriend claiming you so they're out and in my view" he shrugged.

"I guess they are.." I moved a bit forward onto his lap and I felt him tense but ignored it as I grabbed his t-shirt from his hand and slipped it over me.

"I'm still cold. Wanna spoon?" I smirked mostly because I knew I intimidated the big bad wolf and it was fun messing with someone I guess.

He frowned at me, "do you not know what that is?"

"Why did they put you with me? There are plenty of other women here."

I wasn't sure why him saying it hurt me. It wasn't like he said he would prefer them.

"Uhm I guess since everyone else has significant others, they figured I was the last man standing. Forget about the spooning, I was messing with you Corbin." I moved off and got under the covers sleeping as close to the edge as I possibly could with the covers up to my neck because I really was getting cold. If I were with my girls there would probably be a nice heater or if not we would get some hot cocoa from room service. Or just persuade them into giving us one from the kitchen.

But instead I was stuck with a guy who was only capable of being nice to Corey it seemed.

Guys these days were so...

"You won't last a month you know?"

Leave me in peace!

"Who says you will?" I glanced back seeing him stared up at the ceiling in the shadows.

"I don't care I can go to another hotel room right now but I know you. You'll probably be annoyed with yourself for failing at keeping me on this leash. Because everything you do has to be perfection because you're a people pleaser. It ain't going to work I could so easily leave you stranded somewhere."

I didn't say anything because he was right I would be annoyed with myself. All I had was my job and my crazy times with my girls which was enough but at the moment I only saw them when we had free time which wasn't much with my schedule.

I heard him let out a deep sigh behind me before I felt something wrap around my waist and knew it was his arm. I tensed a bit but somehow relaxed as he pulled me back to his chest, and slipped his other arm underneath my head. I wanted to thank him despite him offending me but remained silent as I felt the warmth of him wrap around my body and soon heard his steady breathing in my neck.

I guess he was okay, sometimes.