AJ P.O.V

I look in the mirror.

AJ:I like you.I like you Dean.Argh!

I slap myself slightly.

AJ:You got this AJ.

I take a deep breath in.

AJ:Nikki!Brie!I'm gonna see Dean!Be back soon!

Niki:Okay!

Brie:Good luck!

They say as I walk away.

•Dean/Sasha Hotel Room•

I knock on the door.

And Sasha opens the door.

Sasha:AJ?What do you want?

AJ:Calm yourself.I didn't come for you I need to talk to Dean.

She laughs while I keep my composure.

Sasha:Dean?Dean doesn't wanna talk to you,right babe?

I see Dean behind her who hasn't looked at me.

Sasha:Right?

She says more stern.

Dean:Yeah.

Sasha:See-

AJ:Would you just shut the fuck up!

I snap at her.

AJ:Could you just fuckin let him speak for himself!He's not some damn puppet!He's a grown ass man!And you!

I say looking at him dead straight in the eye.

AJ:What did I do to you huh?You ignore me all the time?You always avoid me!I thought we were best friends!Are we still best friends?!

Sasha:I-

AJ:I told you SHUT THE FUCK UP!

She looks at me shocked but I just give her the 'back off' look.

AJ:Answer me Dean!Are we friends!?

I ask almost tearing up.

He looks at Sasha then after two weeks finally looks me straight in the eyes.

AJ:If you tell me you don't feel anything for me,not even just as friends.I'll walk away right now.

Dean:I-I-

He looks quickly again at Sasha then me.

Dean:AJ were not friends and I don't have any room for you in my heart.So would you just get out of my life?Walk away cause we're not friends,never was best friends and never will be.

Hearing that broke me completely.

Did he love her so much he would just cut me off like that?

Yes,he really did.

I walk away hearing her giggle and their door shut.

I've never felt so embarrassed in my life.

•AJ's hotel room•

Nikki and Brie were bunking with Roman and Seth since I asked for some space.

I felt bad but I couldn't let them see me broken like this.

I sat there on the bed.Dean's voice replaying in my head.

It was the only thing I could hear.

It haunted me.

AJ we're not friends and I don't have any room for you in my heart.

Hot tears rolled down my cheeks.

So would you just get out of my life?Walk away...cause we're not friends,never was best friends.

A pain in my heart.

Never will be.

Did he really mean that?

I hear a knock on my door.

I get up and walk to the door.

AJ:Who is it?

I ask trying my best to sound normal.

Dean:It's me.

AJ:I don't wanna talk to you right now.Or ever again.

Never was best friends...never will be.

Dean:It's just came to returned your book.

AJ:I don't care.

Dean:I'm not leaving until you open.

AJ:Well then it's gonna be a long night for you.

I say fighting my tears back.

Dean:Would you just please open so we can talk?

AJ:You had a lot to say back there.

Dean:Maybe if you let me in I could explain.

AJ:There's nothing to explain,you were pretty clear.

Would you just get out of my life?

Dean:Let me explain.

I sigh and open the door.

I see Dean looking his usual.

He's jeans,vest and leather jacket but he's eyes told a new story.

AJ:What Dean?I'm busy.

Dean:AJ...I'm sorry.

He said it like that was it and he had nothing else to say.

AJ:Oh wow.That's all you got to say?Well bye then.

Dean:AJ,I came to ask to what did you want to tell me?

AJ:Does it matter now?

I say putting my face down.

Dean:It does and I wanna know.

AJ:I like you Dean.I really fuckin like you.

I gritted my teeth.

AJ:I thought if I told you,you would leave Sasha and be with me but that was just silly AJ what was she thinking?Didn't she know she could never replace Sasha.

I hitched in my breath and the tears just kept coming.

AJ:You know I thought you were different but you just like the rest,you would do anything for a girl like her!

By a girl like her I meant a fuckin hoe.

Dean:Darlin I-

AJ:Don't darlin me Dean!You fuckin embarrassed me!

I put my face in both my hands.

And turn around.

Dean stands in front of me.

Dean:I'm sorry.I didn't realise it.I'm sorry for saying all that stuff,it's just Sasha made me choose between you and her.

AJ:And of course you choose her.

Dean:I'm sorry that I love her so much.

That's like a knife through my chest.

Dean:I'm sorry for all the pain I've cause you.I wish I could take it all back.

He says and starts to walk towards the door but pauses and turns around.

He puts he's hand on my cheek.

AJ:Don't touch-

Before I could finish my sentence.

Dean aggressively attacked my lips.

My body was frozen and all I could do was kiss him back.

His tender,ice cold lips against mine,it was all I craved for.

I wrap my legs around his waist as he pushes me against the wall.

He's tongue goes out of my mouth back into his.

We breathe heavily.

Our faces so dangerously close,our lips so dangerously close.

Dean:I'm sorry.

He says before letting me go.

I grab his hand.

AJ:I feel it Dean.I know you do too.

Dean:I feel it too AJ but I'm sorry.

He says before leaving.

He kissed me.

I told him I like him.

And all he could do was apologize?