Please read and tell me your thoughts at the end.

Hello again, this isn't a chapter obviously, I just wanted to say a few things.

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First, thank you all soo much for 9k reads and all the votes and caring comments, I never thought my pathetic little life story would have gotten so much love and support as it has gotten. Thank you <3

The love you've shown me really makes me feel like their are actually people that care.

And I didn't know what that felt like until recently.

Yes I have a boyfriend but I barely get to see him and during that time of depression, your guys comments truly make me feel better given the circumstances.

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Friends I have trusted for awhile have left me now and spilled my secrets to people that aren't fond of me, so right now I'm not in a good state of mind. I've gone back into the habit of cutting which until now, I was clean for months.

I'm angry at myself, I'm disappointed, I hate myself even more than I did before, I knew I shouldn't have done it but I did. Like I said, I wasn't in a good state.

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There are a few things I keep to myself about this story and a few topics I'm not putting in the story because it's just too much for me to write, I don't want to relive those memories again.

Now I can't remember if I put rape in the story but if I did I'm not writing anymore about that anymore, if I didn't put it in the story than I'm not going to because I'm not comfortable writing about that memory..

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I know part of the title of this book is 'PTSD' and I showed a bit of that at the beginning and if you're wondering why there isn't any chapter recently that involves my PTSD is simple, but there will be more in the future that involves it and my seizures cause I know I haven't used those topics very much yet. I know when I'll be using them in future chapters but it'll be awhile until it gets mentioned.

Hope I worded that right, probably not.

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I was thinking about doing kind of a 'thoughts' book or something like that, where I write down my thoughts or opinions of the past/present/future. Still a maybe cause I doubt anybody will read it anyway so I dunno.

I guess that's all I had to say, I don't know, sorry if these are annoying, I'll try not to write them anymore.

See you on Saturday.

Bye.