Too long I've been in this dump..

I can't tell what's real and what's not anymore..

I feel like my mind is trapped in a bubble full of poison.

I've been shot up with too many drugs I've lost count..

I've been beat up by other patients but the blame was put on me.

I've lost all feeling in my body.. I'm just..numb...

Guess I gotta suck it up though..

On another note, some guy I used to go to go to school with ended up in the same ward as me..

It's been so long since I seen him last..

He was popular, he had so many friends, decent grades, expensive clothing, a decent athlete, pretty much anyone could say he was a flawless 18 year old, everyone loved him..

But the way he is now..

I wouldn't believe it if I hadn't seen it..

Arms were scarred from shoulder to wrists..

Hair was a bleached mess..

Cracked lips worse than mine..

Black nail polish which threw me off guard. He never struck me as the emo type.

I've just been observing him since he was admitted here.

He keeps to himself like I have

when the staff touch him he freaks the hell out, which means he went through some sort of physical abuse or something like that.

Have I studied him too much?

Guess you can say I'll do anything to keep myself sane and to keep my brain functioning normally instead of shutting down.

I don't think he knows me, I've never really talked to him back in high school, I would just see him playing sports on the field or with his friends.

But what happened? Why is he here? What did he do to end up here? Who hurt him? Did he do that to himself or was it someone else?

So many questions, yet I don't have answers..

I can't talk to him, I want to but I can't.

I'm sitting in the com room right now, as I'm typing this he's literally sitting alone across the room looking out the window.

Sounds like a movie tbh..

I feel bad for him, he must feel so alone...

Reminds me of myself I guess..

What do I do?