I awoke from my bed, still tired from sleep, rubbing the eye crust out of my eyes. I arose from my bed and I looked around. It seemed that I slept in, seeing that the light was very bright outside and was hitting against the blinds, the stream of light shone through lazily, revealing the dust particles in the air. I stretched my arms and yawned, the muscles in my back, groaning and my bones cracking. I got out of my bed slowly and did my usual routine. Everything just seemed like it was just like any other day, groggy and depressing, but will I ever show it? No.

I reached for my backpack that sat on my black leather couch and made sure I had everything I needed before heading out to school. A knocking sound was heard at my door, alarming my sense of hearing and I looked towards the door weirdly, wondering who would knock on my door this early in the morning. I walked over to my door and opened it.

Upon opening my door, my eyes widen as I saw the familiar light cerulean blue eyes that belonged to an old friend, Koichi, who stood in front of me giving me his usual soft smile, the corner of his eyes crinkling slightly. He was dressed in his usual school uniform which was complemented with his black backpack over his shoulder.

"Koichi?" I questioned. "What are you doing here so early?"

"Huh?" he said, confused. "What do you mean? We always walk to and from the university together."

"But that was back then..."

"Back then? Konan, are you sick? We walked to the university together yesterday and the day before that, and so on." he informed me. "Maybe you should rest." he added.

"N-No, I'm fine, I'm just... confused." I said wearily.

"Hm... alright, well, we better get going before we arrive late."

"Oh, right..."

I turned around, hurriedly grabbed my backpack, and slipped my arms through the straps. I walked out of the apartment with Koichi beside me, locking the door behind me. As the two of us walked together quietly, I was pivoting on Koichi, wondering why he would walk with me all of a sudden, yet he did say we walked together yesterday and so on. So why don't I remember any of this? Why did everything feel so vague, so indefinite?

"Konan?" his soft voice asked, making me snap out of my daze.

"Huh?"

"You're spacing out on me again..." he said with a frown. "I know you could care less with what I have to say, but at least look like you're listening."

"I'm sorry Koichi, what were you saying?" 

"I was asking how you and Yahiko were." he said. 

"Oh, we're fine, but I think I'd rather stay as friends." I replied, nonchalantly.

"Friends?" he asked, scrunching his face a bit. "But I thought you liked Yahiko? Don't let our hard work of getting you with him be a waste, Konan." he said, frowning again.

"Actually, I don't think I want to be with him anymore." I said.

"What? Why not?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "I just lost interest in him."

"You can't just lose interest in someone so quickly Konan." he said. "Just yesterday you were all about him."

"I was?"

"Mhm, you couldn't stop talking about it when we were walking home together." he said.

"Huh... I don't remember that."

"Is there something wrong with your memories lately?" he asked. "You don't seem to remember anything."

"Maybe it's my lack of sleep." I said.

"Well, you certainly need more sleep." he chuckled. "Can't have you forget who I am or who your friends are."

"Yeah..." I said, lingering my word at the end.

Koichi looked at me as if he were trying to figure me out. I understand that I'm very off today, but not even I know what the hell is going on with me. From the moment I opened my door, Koichi was the last person I expected to see at my front door. How am I suppose to feel? Most importantly, how do I get over the amount of shock that struck me? He's been out of my life for so long, and out of nowhere, he just suddenly appears? There's no way that could happen, and that is a fact.

"The bell just rang, I'll see you later, okay Konan?" Koichi said before heading towards his class.

I stood there watching him for a bit, just staring at the back of his head, as he finally came out of view. I sighed to myself and slowly turned away, heading towards my own class. 

Again, my day in class was in its usual routine, long notes, boring lectures, and people whispering to each other, talking to their friends, but of course, our teacher has sharp hearing so students who talked even in the slightest, they were caught easily and was rewarded with a warning. It was funny in some ways, but then again, annoying. Many of us want to concentrate on our studies, so to have these people who think college is just a place to have fun then they're wrong. We just want to get this all over with so we can finally own a business. Well, in my major that's what we wanted. 

I looked over at the clock in the room and time has barely even passed by. I took a deep breath and looked towards the teacher as he spoke. My cheek was resting upon the left hand as my right hand wrote notes to what I thought was an important key term. While I was writing, I noticed that Yahiko was looking at me from time to time. It didn't look like he was giving me sweet glances, more like a face telling me that it was bad news. Something about this is oddly familiar, but where have I seen this before? I shook my head and just continued to write, getting rid of anything that could distract me from trying to write these notes.

The class was ending, students were already packing their belongings as the teacher talked a bit louder over the loud noise of backpacks zipping, and students chatting, to give us our homework assignment. I wrote down the page number of the textbook he wanted us to review on a scrap of paper and stuffed it into my backpack. I zipped my backpack up and the bell rung, making students happy to finally leave that class and head for lunch. I stood up from my seat with my backpack and walked to the side of the door, waiting for Yahiko like I normally do.

I watched him finally get up from his seat and walked towards me. His face looked serious, but my eyes were looking at him in wonder. He usually greets me with a small smile and then the two of us would walk together to meet up with the rest of the group. 

"What's wrong Yahiko?" I asked.

"Konan, can we... talk? Alone?" he said.

"Sure, lead the way."

Yahiko walked past me and took the lead. I followed close behind him as he lead me outside to the school's black top. Not many people hung out around here except for those who like to be away from other students. So, compared to the courtyard, it was quiet, well, somewhat. Yahiko sat on a bench that was near the fenced wall, and I sat next to him. I looked at him, waiting for him to speak, but he just sat there, thinking to himself as if he was trying to figure out how to formulate his sentences.

"Are you going to say anything?" I questioned.

"Y-Yeah, it's just... I'm trying to know what I want to say in a nicer way." he said.

"Well, whatever it is, you can tell me." 

Yahiko sighed heavily to himself and looked directly into my eyes. "I've been noticing a pattern with you, and most times I would brush it off and act as if everything was normal, but lately, the amount of feelings you show to me is going off the charts. I like you Konan, but only as a friend, b-but I don't want our friendship to go away. We've been friends since we were kids, and it would be stupid to just throw it away over something this silly. I mean, you could always find someone new... right?"

"You already said this to me, and even told the second time, I still find it insulting that you would think I could find someone so easily. Moving on from a long term crush isn't easy Yahiko." I said a bit irritated.

"I told you this before? This is the first time I have ever told you this. Also, your crush on me was only recently, so there shouldn't be a big deal on that." he said.

"Recently? I've liked you since we were kids, Yahiko! Are you that de-"

I stopped mid sentence and calmed myself down. Fighting for something that I have already fought in the past shouldn't get on my nerves. However, it doesn't seem that Yahiko remember's anything about it. No one seems to know anything... it's as if the past is replaying itself, that or I envisioned the future. Wait! Think Konan, after I fought with Yahiko, I remember running away... the day where- Koichi!

I abruptly stood out and ran out of the school grounds and quickly made my way to the park near my neighborhood, leaving Yahiko to just sit there. No one was in the park besides the children who were with their parents. I looked around searching for Koichi, but he wasn't here. I ran my right hand into my hair with confusion written on my face. He was supposed to be here, from what happened the first time, he was here, comforting me. Maybe I really am becoming crazy... after school, I really need some rest and a day away from studying. 

I then turned around, ready to head back to the university, but I was instead greeted with my face hitting against someone's chest. I looked at their clothing and it was the school uniform from my university for the boys. Thinking it was Yahiko, I was going to tell him to leave me alone for the day as I took a few steps away, but it turned out to be the person I've been searching for. Koichi was looking down at me with a frown. The same one he did when I was here when I ran here to cry when Yahiko first told me his feelings towards me, but it was the way he said it... it was insensitive.

"What's wrong Konan?" he asked. "I was coming back from visiting my best friend and I saw you running towards the park."

"Nothing is wrong, I was just looking for you." I answered with a soft smile.

"You were looking for me?" he questioned. "What is it that you needed?

"To be honest, I have no idea." I said sheepishly.

"There has to be a reason, otherwise you wouldn't be out here looking for me."

"I'm just making sure you were safe." I said honestly.

"Safe? Well, yeah, I'm safe, but you shouldn't worry about me. I can handle myself on my own, but you are running out here in a school uniform, not to mention a female, you'd be a target. I wouldn't want you to get hurt Konan." he said.

"Yeah, I haven't given it much thought about that, but I'm fine, so it's okay." 

"Alright, well, let's go back to the university, and don't worry, I'll be here to make sure no one gives you any googly eyes." he said with his cheeky smile.

"Thank you." I chuckled.

"But, there's something I need you to do first." 

"What's that?" I questioned.

"I need you to wake up silly."

"Wake up?"

"Wake up Konan, you need to wake up, it's the afternoon already." he said, as his voice transitioned to a grouchy voice.

"Huh?"

He then began to shake my shoulders furiously, making me wonder what the hell is happening. I then felt a sting on my right arm, as if I was just slapped by someone, and that's when it happened, I awoke in my bed and sat up. I looked around my room and there standing before me was: Hidan, Kisame, Itachi, and Yahiko. 

"Finally! You've been sleeping forever with your lazy ass!" Hidan bellowed.

"Shush Hidan." Yahiko said sternly. "She just woke up, she doesn't need you shouting in her apartment."

"I forgot you have a copy of my keys..." I sighed.

"Of course, just in case something ever happens, I can open it." Yahiko said.

"Yeah, I know." I replied nonchalantly. "So why are you guys in my apartment?"

"We were supposed to be heading out to the beach." Kisame said. "Did you forget?"

"Oh... sorry, I guess I did."

"It's alright Konan, we'll wait for you to get your things packed. We're just going to be in the car, come down when you're ready." Yahiko said.

"Alright, again, I'm sorry."

The four of them then left my apartment altogether as I got out of my bed and rubbed my eyes. I looked back at my bed before looking towards the floor. It was all a dream... I knew I wouldn't be seeing Koichi, that was silly on my end to think that would ever happen. He's gone, but not completely, because just like I have said before, he's still with me... I sighed to myself, I need to see my therapist again, he still holds a heavy weight on me and I need it all to go away... I'm sorry Koichi.