it was a bit after midnight.

donghyuck didn't feel like being home. not at all.

today was his sis month monthversary.

well, it could have been.

if mark lee hadn't broken up with him.

and if mark lee hadn't broken him up by the same occasion.

so, here was donghyuck, laying on the grass of a random park, a bit after midnight, a bouquet of white hortensias in the hand.

they were his favourites.

that's probably why he had confessed with them.

there was something about these flowers that comforted donghyuck.

beautiful flowers, with no scent. symbolising a long-lasting love.

what had gone wrong?

donghyuck threw the flowers in the air in despair, letting them fall back down around him as he was crying his eyes out.

"mark lee!" he screamed. "i love you! i fucking love you!"

he took his breath for a few seconds.

"it's killing me but loving you is the best thing i can do! i hate it... oh... i fucking hate loving you! but i do. i love you from the bottom of my heart!"

donghyuck cried and cried, letting all the tears and feelings that he had kept inside the past months resurface.

"i'd just like to forget about you and your stupid pretty face, but i can't. you're too important for me. i love you too much for that. i need you to feel all that pain i'm feeling right now."

donghyuck wiped his tears away, sitting on the ground.

"but i never want my heart to break again."