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Author's pov :

Jungkook slowly opened the dorm room door and stepped inside, closing the door quietly behind him.

"Taehyung?" Jungkook said as he wandered through the room, searching for Taehyung.

The older took the blanket that was on top of him off and as sobs wrecked his body, he ran towards Jungkook and hugged him tightly.

"Where were you?" Taehyung asked as he buried his face into the crook of Jungkook's neck.

The younger hugged Taehyung back as he ran his fingers through the older's hair, confused and worried about why Taehyung was crying. "Did something happen? Why are you crying?"

Taehyung pulled away from the hug and looked into Jungkook's eyes. "They are gone. Hansung, Gucci, V and Taetae. They're all gone. They've left me."

Jungkook was still confused. "Let's sit down and you can tell me about what happened, alright?"

Taehyung nodded and sat down on their bed. Jungkook sat beside him and patiently waited for Taehyung to start explaining.

"Earlier today, Mingyu came by and started messing with me. I at first thought he was being for real but he was just joking. He apologized through a letter that he left for me and went back to his university.. but, while he was messing with me, V was supposed to show up. I called for him multiple times but he didn't show up at all." Taehyung took a deep breath and fiddled with the hem of his shirt.

"I don't even know why I'm so sad about the fact that I may be finally have gotten rid of the disorder. Maybe it's because I got so attached to them and I now finally realize how much they've been helping me through the years."

Jungkook scooted closer to Taehyung and pulled him into a hug. "I understand that you're feeling like this, Taehyung. It must be hard for you to deal with such a sudden change. I don't know much about you, but I know they haven't left you, they've become a part of you. They will always be inside of you, as you." Jungkook said, trying to comfort Taehyung which worked.

"I told them not to leave me like everyone else did.. but I didn't even realise that you're still here, with me." Taehyung said. This was something the older would or could never say to someone, not even to his own mother.

Jungkook smiled softly and pulled Taehyung closer to his chest.

After a long time of hugging each other, Taehyung pulled away from the hug and looked into Jungkook's eyes. "I've promised you something today."

A puzzled look was to be seen on Jungkook's face before it hit him. "You don't have to tell me about it if you're not feeling well, Taehyung. Don't feel pressured just because you've promised me, it's okay."

The corners of Taehyung's lips curled into a smile. "Jungkook, I've been thinking about it for a long time now.. and I think it's the right time for me to tell you about myself.. you're the one I want to tell about my life."

Jungkook could feel his heart beat going faster. He had the slightest feeling that it would be him, but he wasn't entirely sure, he didn't want to think it was him and get his hopes up just to feel disappointed at the end.

Taehyung was hesitating for a bit, not really knowing where to start, and Jungkook noticed that. "Take all the time you need Taehyung, I understand that it must be hard for you to tell me about yourself."

The older didn't say a word and just kept staring at the younger in front of him, admiring his features. He didn't know when or how Jungkook changed him this much, but he was unbelievably thankful.

Because of Jungkook, Taehyung may be finally gotten rid of the disorder he had to deal with for years.

After a moment of watching the already blushing Jungkook, Taehyung nodded, took a deep breath and started speaking. "I have a mental disorder called Dissociative identity disorder, also known as multiple personality disorder.

"You'll probably be confused by the things I'm going to tell you even if you probably already noticed by now, but there's not only me.. in me.

"Let's say, my past wasn't all rainbows and unicorns.."

Taehyung took another deep breath, looked down on his lap and started fiddling with his fingers. This was for sure harder than he thought it would be. But he wanted to tell Jungkook, he thought Jungkook had all the rights to know more about him, he wanted Jungkook to know more about him.

So he continued talking. "I was abused by the students on my school when I was younger. I wasn't that popular and I wasn't like all the other boys.. I was different. I didn't like to talk to anyone and I didn't fire back when people called me disgusting names. They always made me steal things, for example steal my mother's money to give it to them. I was weak. I had no one to protect me and I didn't know how to protect myself.

I was the perfect one they could mess with."

Jungkook bit his lips, he wanted to hug Taehyung tightly and tell him that it's all over now and that everything will be okay, but he remained silent to hear the full story.

"I was 12 years old. I didn't have siblings nor a father. My father and my younger brother who was 6 years old died in a car crash when I was 11 years old. I only have a mother. We were facing financial problems at that time, cause both my parents used to work to pay for everything we had and needed to have. Since I didn't have a father that could help out, my mother had to work hard to pay for everything we needed and for the house where we were and thankfully still are living in.

"My Mother was too busy working and was stressed most of the time so that's why I didn't want to bother her with the things that I had to deal with.

"After a year, I was around the age of 13 when she met this man. He offered her a job as a principal and helped us out a lot. He was a man full of love and kindness, at least, I thought he was.

"They started dating and he moved to live with us with his son. At first, when I heard he had a son that was a bit older than me, I jumped out of excitement and happiness. I thought I'd finally have an older step brother that will love me and take care of me, I thought I'd finally won't have to face the kids on my school on my own. But oh I was so wrong.

"Both Mingyu and his father, abused me, not only physically, but also mentally. There wasn't a day that went by without me ending up with new bruises. They'd lie about everything to my mom to make me look like I'm the bad guy. My mom never scolded me for it but she also wasn't on my side. She was never really there for me, even when I was crying my eyes out telling her I was exhausted of everything, she didn't care much and told me it was only a phase of puberty."

Taehyung stopped for a second, choking back his tears.

"As time passed by, I became lonelier, I became depressed and I just needed someone to rely on, someone that could protect me from the kids on my school, my step dad and from my step brother.

"It was on my 15th birthday.. Not so surprisingly, they forgot about my birthday and weren't at home. My mom was so head over heels in love with that man that she even forgot about her own son's birthday. So the only gifts I got were the tears that were coursing down my cheeks as I sat alone in my room.

I think, that's when I created V."

Taehyung was obviously having a hard time talking about this so without saying anything, Jungkook scooted closer and held his hand, making Taehyung feel at ease.

"I thought of him as my imaginary friend, he'd talk to me when I needed someone to talk to, he'd comfort me when I was crying, but most importantly, he protected me and helped me when I needed it the most.

"As more time passed by, he got violent, overprotective, he got mad whenever someone talked to me or tried to get close to me, fearing he would fade away if I found someone who I felt at ease with. Yes he did protect me a lot of times, but he also got me into a lot of trouble.

"I knew that having an imaginary friend was okay, but having one that takes control over you, isn't okay.

"But I was too weak compared to him. Too dumb to know I was developing a serious disorder and too scared to tell anyone about it. So I let him take control over me for 3 years.

"In 3 years time, a lot of things happened.

"Without realising, without having control over it, I created even more personalities.

"I've never met all of them. I've only interacted with V because he was the first one that showed up, he was the first personality that I created.

"Since I've never met all of them, my mom described them to me.

"So, there's V. V as you know, was created to be violent, defensive and protective. He shows up when I'm in physical danger, when I'm sad or feeling uncomfortable, when I can't speak up and sometimes when my anxiety goes too far. V is the only personality I could call out. When I'm for example uncomfortable and I can't handle it on my own, I can simply think of him and he would show up right away. Actually, I can control him like he controls me. But sometimes he shows up without me asking for it.

"There's Taetae, he's 6 years old. I think the reason why I created him was because I missed my younger brother, who died in a car crash and who was also 6 years old. According to my mother, he's always playful and is the sweetest of them all. He's kind and doesn't know how to be violent or protective, unlike V. He acts and does things a 6 year old would do.

"There's also Hansung. Hansung is really smart, and likes to be a know-it-all. The reason why I created him was because school work was getting too much for me. Dealing with the disorder and with everything around me wasn't an easy thing to do. So I think that's why I created him, to help me out with my study.

"And lastly, there's Gucci, who likes partying, alcohol, flirting and getting laid. He does all the things that I tend to generally avoid. I honestly think that Gucci is a bit like V, he can be defensive and did protect me a lot of times. One of the few differences between those two is that Gucci can associate himself with people way better than V can.

"My psychologist and my mom were the only ones that got to meet them and know more about them. I'm pretty sure they've showed up while you were here with me. So, now you know them too, now you know me too."

When Taehyung finished talking, he wiped a tear away with the palm of his hand. "I've been crying so much today."

Without hesitating, Jungkook pulled Taehyung closer to his chest and hugged him tightly as they both went to lay down.

With Taehyung feeling the warm, broad chest of Jungkook against his face made him feel safe and happy. It made him feel things he never felt before.

Taehyung buried his face into the crook of Jungkook's neck, inhaling the sweet scent of the younger as he closed his eyes.

Jungkook tightened his arms around Taehyung and pulled the older closer to his chest, if that was even possible. "Thank you, Taehyung. I know it's hard for you to talk about your past, but I'm truly thankful that you've decided to open up to me. As I said on the first day we met, I will stay with you through everything, no matter how hard it might get."

Taehyung felt a strange feeling building up inside him. It was a mix of all kind of feelings he has never felt before. But he liked the feeling Jungkook gave him.

The younger didn't know if the fact that Taehyung told him about his past that he refused to tell to anyone, means that the boy has feelings for the younger. He wasn't sure about how Taehyung looked at him; As a friend, or more than just that. But what he did know is that Taehyung finally trusted him, and that was beyond enough for him.

Jungkook looked down at the already sleeping Taehyung and smiled. "When will I be able to confess to you?" he thought as he continued admiring Taehyung's pink pouty lips, long eye lashes and just everything there was to admire. "Will you even accept me as your boyfriend?"

Jungkook planted a soft kiss on Taehyung's forehead and closed his eyes.

"Good night, Tae."

Taehyung opened his eyes and blushed madly after feeling Jungkook's lips against his forehead. He couldn't help but giggle at the nickname Jungkook gave him.

"Good night, kook."

Maybe the fact that the personalities left wasn't that bad after all, maybe it was just a matter of time before Taehyung gets used to the sudden change. Because one thing was for sure, this was the first time Taehyung felt genuinely happy.

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"I think they are gone." Taehyung said as he sat down on the chair in front of his mother's desk.

His mother looked at him with a puzzled look on her face. "Who are gone?"

Taehyung smiled. "I think I've finally gotten rid of the disorder, mom. I can finally live my life which I have full control on."

His mother's face lit up, Taehyung has never seen such a broad smile upon his mother's face.

She stood up and walked over to Taehyung, hugging her son tightly as her eyes started to become teary.

"I'm so sorry for everything. I should've been there for you more often, I shouldn't have let that bastard into our life. I'm so proud of you for fighting through everything you've gone through." His mother said as tears started pouring down.

After a few minutes of hugging each other, Taehyung's mother pulled away from the hug. When she looked at her son, her face lit up even more. Taehyung was smiling, an adorable, boxy smile she hasn't seen ever since he was younger, was back upon her son's face.

"I'll call your psychologist so she can make an appointment for your next visit. It has been a long time since your previous visit. She can also maybe make sure if the disorder is completely gone."

Taehyung nodded and smiled, for the first time, he was excited to meet with his psychologist. For the first time, he liked talking to people, whether it still was only Jungkook, his mom and his psychologist, it was a big step for him.

Just yesterday, he was crying about the fact that the personalities have faded away. But now, he felt happiness blossoming inside of him, especially after seeing his mother's reaction.

"Mom, I want to talk to you about something." Taehyung said with a much more serious tone of voice. His mother nodded and sat in front of him on the chair.

Taehyung hesitated, the thing he was about to admit was way harder than talking about his disorder. He didn't know how his mom would react, in fact, he was scared of how his mom might react. Scared that her reaction will maybe be the cause for his disorder to come back.

His mother noticed the nervous look on her son's face and scooted the chair closer to Taehyung, placing her hands on either side of his face. "I'm your mother Taehyung, you can tell me everything. I promise I'll try to understand."

She removed her hands from his face and held his hands, waiting for him to tell her about what he wanted to talk about.

Taehyung bit his lips and lowered his head. "I-I think I like Jungkook."

The silence of his mother made him feel even more nervous and scared. He didn't want to look up so he kept his head down, he didn't want to see the disappointed look on her face.

"So, you're gay?" His mom asked in a serious tone of voice which made Taehyung feel uneasy.

"I don't know.. I mean, I've never liked any girl in my entire life so that could be possible but I've also never liked any boy.. Jungkook is the first person I genuinely like." Taehyung never knew he'd be able to tell this to his mom, in fact, he never even thought he would be able to like someone.

"Why do you like him?"

"He's the first and only person who didn't make fun of me. He's the only person who has been there for me. The other personalities might have given him a hard time, but he has never been disgusted or scared of me. He must've been confused at the beginning because of V but that didn't make him avoid me or keep a distance from me, in fact, he only wanted to get to know more about me. He has never asked me any personal question, he didn't ask anything about my disorder or why I always suddenly change the way I behave. He continued to protect me and love me while patiently waiting for me to open up to him. He might think all the things he did for me went unnoticed, but that isn't true. I at first was confused about my own feelings, I didn't know if what I feel for him was love or something else because I've never felt it before. But now I'm sure about my feelings for him. Whenever I see him, I feel a strange feeling which contains happiness and excitement. When I'm with him, I feel happy, safe, protected, cared for, special and loved. I feel like I actually mean something to someone. No boy nor girl could ever make me feel this way. I genuinely think he's the cause behind the fact that I got rid of all the personalities.. Because of him, I feel like I can stand on my own two feet and face everything on my own and not rely on others to do it for me. I was always just hiding and running away, making V help me get through everything I thought I couldn't deal with on my own. Now I only need him, you and myself. He loved all the personalities, he loved all of me and all of me loved him. That's why I like him."

When Taehyung continued explaining about his feelings, he looked up and to his surprise, his mother was smiling.

"I strangely knew he was a good boy so that's why I made him become your roommate. I'm glad I did."

"Wait so, you aren't mad at me for liking a boy?"

The smile on his mother's face became softer. She held her son's hand and looked him in the eyes. "After all you've been through, you deserve to be happy. Whether you like girls or boys, it doesn't matter to me. You found happiness in Jungkook, so why would I take that happiness away from you that you've been missing all your life? You're my only son and as your mother, I'll support you all the way. So choose what makes you happy."

Tears were coursing down Taehyung's cheeks, but this time, they were happy tears. He hugged his mother tightly and smiled. "Thank you, mom."

"You'll look so cute together." His mom said which made Taehyung giggle.

It's true, there's a rainbow after every storm. Whether the storm lasts for minutes or for years, the rainbow is there. And for Taehyung, that rainbow finally appeared.