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I never thought anything could be this much blissful, I had read about love making but experiencing it was something which I can't describe. It hurts but still I liked it. We are now connected in every way, The most important thing is our hearts are connected.

We don't say love you but We understand each others feeling without words. Though I wish to hear his confession that he loves me.

'Hmm I m dieing for hearing those magical words' my subconscious mind yells.

Even in movies and stories people say love before or while making love.

Feeling little sad I pray
"God please fulfill my this wish soon" I wishpere slowly.

"We can say it too, so why is waiting for him to take a step" my subconscious mind says.

No, I don't care anything I just want him to say first, I m waiting to hear it from so many days I realised how much I love him.

I try to free myself from his embrace, but he doesn't let me move and pulls me closer to him and snuggles in my neck. He places a soft feathery kiss there.

"Don't go" he is mumbling and kissing me on neck.

This is my weak point, I feel unknown feeling, butterflies in stomach. He moves up and kisses my jaw. My whole body is trembling. I close my eyes and enjoy the moment.

"Omm" I moan his name feeling his touch on my bare stomach. He has slipped his hand inside his shirt which I m wearing.

He pinches me lightly on waist and pecks my lips.

I open my eyes in disappoint, he is already looking at me, our eyes are busy in looking into each other, trying to solve all confusion, answering all questions. I smile at him and make him aware that I m happy with my decision. I can't regard this moment ever.

Surprising me, he hugs me and keeps his head on by breast, "I will love to wake up" he pauses than adds "like this every morning"

For a second I thought he will confess his love for me, but these words are nothing less than confession.

I hug him and move my one hand on his head, I don't have word to say because I don't know what should I say at this moment, it's a peace which I searched everywhere but today I m finding it inside me.

It's his love which making me feel complete.

Later we took shower together, we did make out but didn't go further. I could sense his wants clearly but he wasn't ready to rush, he was scared that he might have hurt me in night. I was feeling sour too.

We enjoyed all day with family, I was getting flashback of last night every time Om looked at me.

I remembered how he called my name when we were on peak "Gishi"

My trance broke because I cut my hand while helping in kitchen, I was cutting potatoes "aah"

"Gauri, what happened?" Mom hurried to see what I did.

"Is it paining more?" She asked washing my hand.

Before I could answer Om was there checking my hand "Gishi, are you okay? Why don't you be careful? It must be paining lot? Let's go to doctor"

I heard a chuckling sound and turned there was dad standing at door looking at us. I m sure he was chuckling on himself because Om acted just like him. I saw mom who was already surprised from Om's behaviour which was exactly like dad, for a second I thought he is dad.

"Gauri, now I understand why all used to scold me for being to much over protective about you" he looked at Om and said "I m glad you chose my daughter for your life partner, I can trust you with my most important person" he said and ruffled my hair.

Om didn't answer just smiled at him and applied some ointment and bandage on my cut finger.

Om took me with him in bedroom "Gishi, do you need anything ? Just ask me and do rest" he said calmly

"Om" he looked at me and waited for me to complete my words.

I wanted to ask him why didn't he reply papa but I saw a tear drop in corner of his eyes.

At that moment I realized he wasn't able to see my blood and was feeling pain in his heart so maybe he wasn't able to reply anything.

I hugged him surprising both of us. I feel love in his actions but still I want to hear it. I m so selfish, my love is nothing.

"I m okay" I said and assured him.

I got tears in my eyes but it wasn't for pain in my finger, it was because of his love.

He broke hug and wiped my tears and kissed my head. "Gishi, don't cry, if it's paining more I can take you to doctor, don't lie" he said looking my teary eyes.

"Om, seriously I m okay" I replied and pull him with me on bed to rest.

He was out for some hours because of some office work dad was needing him, later he came and was busy with all members, he looked tired. He needs more rest than me.

I made him lie on bed and joined him too because I know he won't listen if I will say him for his health. But he will never say no for my wish.

"Please be with me"

"I will be with you even if you don't want" he said without wasting a single second.

"Om, do you believe in God?"

"Hmm"

"Oh, that's good" I replied

"Why, don't you believe?" He asked me with little surprise in his voice.

"Of course I believe, but sometimes I have doubts too but I trust him and he always proofs me right"

He just stroke my hair in response.

"Do you believe in love at first sight?" I asked him

He didn't reply for a while maybe thinking than I thought he might sleep I was about to check on him but he stopped me from moving and stroke my hair.

"Hmm... I believe sometimes we see someone and didn't realise that we were looking a little longer than needed, but when that person creates a desire in our heart than only we conclude that it was a love at first sight, maybe some people feel desire for someone in first moment, that could be love, but that could be attraction too"

I felt like he was Sharing his experience, I wanted to ask about her but didn't get the courage to do so.

"Do you believe in love?" He asked

"Of course, love is something which can't be described in words because everyone have their own words for it, a life is impossible without love, we start our life for love and because of love" I said genuinely feeling the same.

"Gishi, do you miss your family in our home?" He asked from nowhere.

"Not much, Om. Mom and dad makes me feel home, I enjoy there with them but sometimes they get busy so I feel little lonely"

I miss you more than you can imagine duffer, my subconscious mind whined

True.

"Gishi, if you want you can live here with all, I will talk with mom dad"

Doesn't this guy want me with him?

"Om thank you so much for thinking about me, but I feel mom and dad will feel more lonely without me there, my family is big they have people to take care but when you are not around I have seen mom dad feeling lonely" I replied

He kissed my head.

We both drift of in sleep.

Later when I woke up I was alone on bed, I slowly got up I felt little pain in my finger but it's totally fine.

I sneezed back to back four times, great I catched cold because of afternoon sleep.

Awesome as always

When I was moving towards kitchen I heard my mom talking with someone, I was about to enter in kitchen when I heard Om's voice.

"I loved her lot's, she is my first crush, my first love, today I m alive because of her, she is my hope my everything"

With his each words I m feeling like they are not meant for me, I know half truth is dangerous but I don't have heart to stand there and hear more about some other girl whom he loved so much.

I run back to my bedroom, I wasn't having tears in my eyes but something was aching, I didn't hear voice but my heart got broken today. It was paining, I can't feel my breath.

"Gauri, Gauri what happened to you?" Asked Richu.

I looked at her and tried to come back in this world. Maybe whatever I heard was a dream nothing is true.

"Gauri, why was you running ? You didn't hear me I was calling you"

"Richu" a tear slipped from my eyes and I hugged her.

"What happened Gauri, oh god why are you crying" she asked while consoling me.

I kept crying till I can, because it was my big fear. I always wanted to be someone's first love. I kept myself reserved for that someone.

As soon as I stopped crying Richu closed the door and offered me water to drink.

"What happened now tell me?"

I told her everything she listened me carefully. I can trust her with my life, she knows me and my all dreams, my wishes.

She is the only one who will understand my pain, because I know most of will think I m making it a big deal because it all was past.

"Gauri, but I feel his love for you in his eyes, don't you feel?" She asked me

I know she is right, there is nothing else in his eyes other than love for me, I felt it so many times but I can't trust my judgement.

"Please Gauri, don't think negative. he must be talking about you" she said hoping.

"No Richu, he said his first crush, she is reason for is life"

"So?"

"Once he said me. He had his first crush at the age of 9, I was nowhere in his life that time" I said with confident.

"Please don't think much, you are judging him just because you heard something incomplete. You should had stopped there and heard all" she said me making me understand.

I know all this is stupid, I shouldn't react on this because all was before marriage.

No whatever it is, he is mine he can't be anyone's, he can't love anyone, only I can be his first, he is not allowed my mind is even more overprotective.

Later after dinner when we entered in bedroom Om seemed very happy.

And here I m fuming on him, I will break every single bone if he dare to love someone else

Hmm we will make his chutney (a Indian dish)

I already wants to give him a slap for stupid smile which was formed because of some other girl

"Why are you looking so happy?" I asked him feeling angry.

"Nothing just Mummy reminded me past" so he is really happy just from her thoughts.

"So let me guess, it must be something related to your first girlfriend" I said forcing words out my mouth.

"Hmm....kind of"

Let me punch him on his stomach

No I have injured finger

I will punch from other hand

No, I love him. I can't do that.

"What happened Gishi? Your face is looking dull, your eyes are swollen?"

Don't act here like you care.

"Nothing, I m fine" I said in short.

He moved closer to me and checked my head for fever I pushed him little in anger.

"I m fine, can't you understand?" I snapped

"No, you are not fine" he argued little angrily.

"Fine, I caught cold because of Sleeping in afternoon"

"How could I don't know till now" he asked to himself

Only if you will stop dreaming your past affairs than only you can understand your wife's health

Absolutely Right.

"But why are you behaving like this?" He asked

"Like what?" I asked irritably.

He tried to reach me but before he can I moved out of his reach.

He mumbled something than said
"It's not your periods than what could be the reason"

I ignored him, even if he remembers my dates of month but still I m not his first love go to her.

Yeah let him go to her.

"What happened just tell me?" He asked getting irritated.

I didn't reply, I can't reply him same answer thousands time.

"Say me please" he hold my hand and plead.

"Can you just please, stop with your What happened?" I asked him in annoyed voice.

"No I can't, you can only shut me with right answer"

"Gishi say" he tighten his hold on my hand but still not hurting me.

"Gishi please, say what happened?"

I m now done with his irritating question, I can't give him true reason, I don't want to scare him with my over possessiveness.

But I want him to stop

"Gishi s..." So before he could complete I crushed my lips with his.

I hope you all will like the update I m so so so sorry for late update

I will try my best to update fast now on. Thank you so much for waiting for my story and liking it.

I want you guys to understand Gishi's part before judging her and yeah she is young and this is her mentality.

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