Happy Reading

Oh god,
How could I do that?
How can I behave like that?
God, why I m so stupid?

If Mummy will get to know how I have behaved with my dear hubby she will surly kill me...oh god what to do now?

I quickly walk to bed and sit there and pull my leg up on bed and settle on middle of the bed just like mummy told to me, knees up hands on knees head down eyes on hands.
Mummy's word start to ring in my head.

"Ri, I want to say you something very important please listen it and try to understand baby"

"OK mummy"

She caresses my hair lovingly and says
"Baby today you are getting married and after that everything is going to change"
She cups my cheeks with her hands and continues "you have to change too"

My tears were already running down. Suddenly I hug her and sob "m..m..mummy I don't want to change..." Sob "I don't want to go please mummy save me I don't want to be anyone's daughter-in-law, I want to remain as your baby"
I brake the embrace and take her hands in mine "please mummy save me I will follow your every order, every word please"

She embraces me
"Baby I can't help you in this, do you remember on your first day of preschool, how was you saying I don't want to go, save me and all but when I came to take you home after class you was happy, you hugged me and started saying how you make so many new friends, that day I was so worried about you that I didn't leave from there, I waited for you in the cafe which was opposite to your preschool but when I saw your big smile from that day I'm sure you can be perfectly fine without me or your dad. You are very carrying and responsible person when you accept someone with your heart, you don't make boundaries this is a very good quality as well as your weakness. From today onwards you are going to be part of a new family they all are going to be part of your life as well as your family. You have to do things like you do here to make us happy now you have to do things for thier happiness too, also be little mature baby I know you are mature when time comes but now you have to more mature. I'm sure you will do everything fine because you are best, as you say by yourself 'if I am here than there is nothing to fear' " she gives me reassuring smile than squeezes my hands.

"But your relation with your husband is going to be a new relationship for you and him, you both will slowly come to know each other. You both are going to be lover in sometimes, Once you will find to know what is love than you will think of his happiness before yours but for now you have to do things which might you don't like but for him you have to do it and vice versa"

I just nod and she explains me so many new things which will needed in future as well as this night.

When mummy was saying this posture to sit I burst into laughter like a crazy person but now my heart is beating like crazy.

Oh god I don't know what coming next but if what mummy had said that is coming next than I'm not ready for it.

I'm so nerves please god help me I don't want to do that.

I'm an idiot no no I'm stupid... Dumb Ri how could you behave like that if mummy will know about my those stunts and dialogues, for sure tomorrow will be my first morning as bride as well as last morning as person because surely mummy will make sure that I can't see tomorrow's sun set.

Suddenly he moves closure and holds my hands With his.
I look up and find two Brown eyes, I have never seen anyone's eyes this shade of brown, they are perfect, I don't think anyone else will have perfect eyes colour like his.

"You know, you can be normal with me. You don't need to do these formalities"

"I..." I don't know what to say.

"Don't worry I know this marriage is not what you want...
Even I also don't want this" he says And gives me a small smile.

I try to return his smile while controlling my heartbeats and I'm succeed in it, because he gives me a smile which is surely showing his relief which he finds due to my smile.

Which make me happy and finally my heart is beating at a normal rate.

He looks at our joined hand and thinks, I can clearly see he wants to say something but he is not sure how to.

I don't know why but I squeeze his hands reassuringly, he looks up in my eyes there is a question in his eyes, like he is asking me something but I can't understand it.

"Will you be my friend?" He asks me.

I can't help it, I laugh little loud then i had intended and when I look at his confused face I control, my laughter and reply "Oh god it's funny, You didn't ask me 'will you marry me' before marriage but now you are asking me to be your friend"

I chuckle in my last words but he doesn't find it funny and there is an emotion of heart on his face, than I realize I'm officially stupid because I hurt my husband on our wedding night. Way to go but I did it unintentionally.

"Sorry I don't mean to heart you I'm really sorry, I'm so stupid" I say guiltily.

"Hey, there is nothing like to be sorry" he leaves my hand, stands up and looks at the wall like he is thinking.

I follow his suit and stand in front of him. I hold my hand for handshake with my best smile on my face and say "hi, I'm Gauri Sinha"

He looks my hand and than me. He takes my hand in his and we do handshake "hi beautiful, I'm Omkara Deewan"

I blush because he is first guy apart from my family member who have complimented me.

I clear my throat hiding my blush and ask "So now we are friends?"

He chuckles and nods his head in answer.

I feel so uncomfortable in my wedding lahenga so I'm about to say that I should change but he beats me in it and says "I think you should change you are not looking so happy with your attire"

"Yeah, so true in start I was so excited about wearing it but now If anyone will ask to wear it again, I would say no thank you, I'm much more happy in my daily wear they are thousands time better than this, light and comfortable" I reply with smile and walk to get my clothes from my suitcase.

After sometimes when I walk in after my beauty bath, I find my new friend settle on couch with laptop. he has changed from his wedding cloth as well and he is wearing T-shirt, sweatpants with spectacle, in my life I never found any guy this much handsome.

Whenever all my friends and cousins used to say look this actor is damn handsome or he is so cute but they never appeal to me but now looking at Omkara I feel he is more than handsome even I shall say he is breathtaking I don't no why but I feel it like this way, it is a bad thought I shouldn't think like this for any guy I'm married .....hold on

why you shouldn't, you are an independent girl of 21st century's If you feel any guy handsome than there is nothing wrong, it's not crime, if you don't feel any guy handsome than there is a chance that something is wrong with us.

My subconscious mind pipes in my head

Yeah, I know It's normal and I'm too.

And for my own kind knowledge and information this handsome guy is my husband. If I will not feel him handsome than who will feel??

Stupid of me, when I meet my eyes with his I find him starring me it feels awkward I hope he didn't catch me while I was checking out him.

Shutting my stupid thoughts. I give him a small smile he smiles back at me and says "I was just checking my emails it's all done now"

He quickly turns off laptop, places it on table and looks at me.

Should I give him reply?
'If yes' than what should I reply?

"Are you sleepy ?" He asks me.

"No just tired" I reply honestly.

"You can take bed I will sleep on couch" he says while offering me bed.

"Why will you sleep on couch?"
I ask him before I can't stop my stupid mouth.

He looks little shock because his eyes get big when his mind get what I'm asking, he replies"I think.. umm you might will not feel comfortable with me on same bad"

"Will you feel comfortable with me?..on same bed?" I ask him.

He looks little taken aback than he caresses his neck may be he is nerves or tired. I don't know his habits and I don't know him but still we are connected to each other with a very strong relationship.

strange

life is so unpredictable.

"Yeah,...I shall comfortable, I thought yo..."

I cut his sentence before he could use his brain as expert advisor
"Rubbish I'm used to share my bed with my cousin sister, friends even with my brothers you can sleep with me. I have no problem" I complete my sentence.

He is starring me. I don't understand his expressions, I simply make my way to bed and ask "Do you have any preference??"

"Huhh?" He asks confusedly.

"I mean which side of bed you want? do you have any preference?"

"No" he simply states.

I give him a big smile and say "good because I have, thank you now I will take left side you make yourself comfortable in right side for night"

He mutters something like life time I couldn't get exactly what he's saying I turn to him face him.

"Huhh?" I ask
But he with a big smile replies "nothing just umm good night"

"Good night" I reply but I'm sure he had said something else.

Soon I settle pillows as per my liking making this bed little like mine, my bed was queen size but this one is king size I shall surely feel lonely here with my tam-tam also.

Oh god

I forgot to take my Tam-tam Mummy said she had sent it and aunty said my some belongings are settled in cupboard and remaining in suitcase, of course my tam-tam is not in suitcase so, it should be in cupboard I run and open cupboard and find everything settle nicely and find my tam-tam there I take out it and say sorry to it because I totally forgot about him I get back to bed and settle myself I close my eyes when I hear his voice "Is it your friend? And my new companion ?"

I open my eyes and turn facing him. His eyes are on my tam-tam who's sleeping in my arms "yeah it is my friend it's name is Tam-tam since I remember, it always sleeps with me now I'm married and I'm sleeping with you in that case he is going to be your companion"

"Can I make it my friend as well?" He asks with curiosity.

"Sure" I reply.

He gastures his hand for Tam-tam I give him.

He makes Tam-tam to sit on his stomach and say "Sorry buddy for disturbing your sleep" he pauses than adds "will you be my friend?" He asks offering his hand than take his hand than shakes his hand "thank you buddy my name is Omkara, I'm glad to meet you" than he looks at me than tam-tam he give tam-tam a big smile than he returns tam-tam to me and says "tam-tam is sleepy let it sleep"

I take tam-tam and make it sleep in my arms little shock because my friends and cousins laugh on me, they said my and tam-tam's relationship is childish.

"Don't you feel it childish?" I ask him.

"Huhh?" He roses his eyebrows and asks.

"I mean me talking to tam-tam and sleeping with him"

He chuckles and replies "No, not really when you run to cupboard I was shock but than you muttered sorry than I was curious I thought my ears are not working but than after you settled on bed and wished tam-tam good night, than I was sure you are talking to tam-tam"

"And you didn't find it weird?"

"Actually, little childish, but its cool. when I was kid I used talk with my cars. I was so possessive about them if they got a scratch on them that time I used get upset. Yeah that was childish but I enjoyed that and now I like tam-tam and talking with it"... He pause than adds " Do you feel it childish? "

I get shock with his answer that his question take me a while to understand as well as reply
"No, ..um I don't know actually my friends and cousins think it childish and they laugh on me even tease me, but I don't know and actually I don't care and I don't think it is necessary this the way I'm, little weird" I reply with embarrassing smile.

"You are different, like everyone is different from other. not weird" he says with a proud smile and adds "good night"

"Good night"

Please

M$ "Vote Comment and Share" M$