𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖘𝖊 𝖛𝖔𝖎𝖈𝖊𝖘 𝖎𝖓 𝖒𝖞 𝖍𝖊𝖆𝖉 𝖘𝖈𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖌, "𝖗𝖚𝖓, 𝖓𝖔𝖜"
𝖎𝖒 𝖕𝖗𝖆𝖞𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖙𝖍𝖆𝖙 𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖞'𝖗𝖊 𝖍𝖚𝖒𝖆𝖓

❝ i'll never be one of them. ❞

𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄 ┊

full name,,

im hwantae ( korean name ; last name, first name )

nicknames he goes by,,

— levi,, his english name that isn't used a lot but referred to sometimes
— ribaisu,, japanese name that his co-workers usually refer to instead of his real name
— wannabe sherlock holmes,,  a playful nickname used to spite the boy but its not used all that much and i'd suggest against it too ( since its not even fully accurate )
— tae,, used by his sister mostly, he'd rather she be the only one to use it and will tell you to not call him by this nickname if you did
— hwanie,, was once used by his mother when he was younger, now its better not to ever say that name to him unless you want him to snap
— taetae,, its mostly a childhood nickname that was once used by his family, now too hurtful to even be spoken

𝐀𝐆𝐄 ┊

twenty three

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 ┊

( trans ) male && he/him

𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐄𝐒┊

half-human, half-asukuria

𝐒𝐄𝐗𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 ┊

bi-aspec

𝐅𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐈𝐌 ┊

heo chan ( victon )

𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 ┊

im hwantae is a bitch boy.

that's it. that's the personality. that's everything you need to know about him.

not but really, i don't know what else you expect me to write about him. hwantae's a bit of a bitch, considers himself the smartest man in the room because he has no choice but to think that, to believe that. because he has nothing else but to be smart, to be the brain. it doesn't make him particularly special but.. it's something and something is always better than nothing. right?

contrary to what people would expect though, hwantae isn't the sherlock holmes people make him to be. he's not confident, he's not sharp and he's definitely not sociopathic. hwantae's an honest man, he's worked hard, very hard for all he has earned, the memory, the facts, the intelligence. none of it came naturally to him, instead he spent hours to hone this one particular skill of his, this one particularly trait that he knows is the only one he's capable of. he built on this intelligence, he made it such that there was something he could do and feel proud of, something people could have expectations for. because even though expectations are stressful, they contain hope and ambition. and hwantae could use some of that, some of that hope and ambition that he lacks due to his inability to do anything.

so, you see he's a bit protective about it. this desperation to keep himself the smartest there, to keep up with everything so that nothing else, no one else can upstage him. it's the anxiety of 'i have to live up to what they think of me, or otherwise who am i' that plagues him, that eats him inside.

okay, maybe he has a right to be a bitch about it. but he's still a bitch, innit.

hwantae's... been through some shit in his life. it's not a lot, not something he considers important when he compares it to others but that's the thing isn't it, he puts down his emotions, his considerations because he keeps comparing them as if one trouble is comparable to another. this causes him to push things away, personal things like oh i don't know, feelings and emotions. he keeps thinking what he thinks and feels are not as important as the things people need to know and understand and that causes him to constantly put himself down, sometimes even when others' needs don't need to come before his. but that's because he's scared, terrified that when he does unlock that door, it's going to leave him unable to be as he's supposed to be, the smart, the genius, and he's going to be this fool. because no one's told him otherwise. but then again, no one knows what goes in him either.

hwantae is not a very capable person. there's this one thing he's good at that he's taken up as his craft and worked to be the best but other areas? oh no. those don't exist. outside of his job, hwantae is the most useless piece of shit you'll ever come across and that's more of a threat than a warning because his uselessness will plague you and give you bad luck. its that hwantae effect. its lethal and its coming for you.

this is to say, hwantae is a himbo in his own right. not in the conventional sense that he's big dumb, has muscles and respects women because unfortunately, he only checks two of those boxes; he's a weak, skinny bitch. he's broad and from afar it would even seem like he's well built but in reality, when you get a little closer, you can see he's actually quite pathetic and doesn't know how to hold himself, awaiting instructions. that is till it is his turn to speak because regardless of his incapabilities in other areas, hwantae is good at what he does, he has a knack for words and knows when to hold himself, when to not.

but nonetheless, hwantae's not a bad guy. well, not unless you're an asukuria.

if you wanna know more, don't ask me because i don't know either.

𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 ┊

im hwantae was born in korea, to one of the best parents anyone could ever ask for. to him, they were his idols. and then he got a little sister, and to him it was the perfect family.

he was only 10 when they moved to japan, old enough to remember korea but young enough to accommodate to japan. and he fit in well! for a while, at least. then he started transitioning and his family was supportive! but kids were cruel. that was expected though, so hwantae was more than ready to be hit with things that'd sting because he had his family behind him, to rely on. and that's all he ever needed.

as he grew up, he saw people all around him having something to excel at; one thing or another. but hwantae found himself at a loss, unable to be the greatest at something. then someone told him he was smart. and that's what he stuck with, intelligence. hwantae was smart because he knew he couldn't excel at anything else. there was no natural affinity, no he picks things up quickly ━ he taught himself, he spent hours going through questions and problems, reviewing lessons and memorizing things so he could excel at something. and when he did, those expectations just build up on him, hammering down and going 'well you can't give up now'. so he didn't, he kept working and studying. every test he gave, he wanted to stand up and run away but instead he bite through his nerves and panic attacks, suppressed them so he could work it through, bit through his nails waiting for the result till he got it and there was a big fat 100/100 on it. he isn't naturally smart, he doesn't just pick things up. he has to push everything to remember things, to understand them and be able to use it. that's why he's scared, of being wrong, of doing something wrong, of making all expectations for him fall because this is the only thing going on for him.

as that went on, puberty happened. with that, kids became more cruel. because that was possible. but believe it or not, hwantae was never bullied but that's because he knew just how to avoid it. contrary to how similar to sherlock he is, hwantae isn't a sociopath. he has feelings, they get hurt. he has nerves, he gets an attack every time he does something. he just knows how to put on a front better than that to not be put down, to not be picked on. he knew when to keep his mouth shut, he knew no one liked a know-it-all who always corrected him. he knew the right places to hide when he said something that would stick. he knew the shortcuts and how to be quick enough to escape, just barely, unscathed and scot free. he knew when to bite his tongue when someone said something so wrong he wanted to tear his skin to correct them but he couldn't, not unless he wanted to explain that black eye to his parents.

he had his parents, he had his sister. he had his family.

and then he didn't.

the car crash that happened ruined hwantae for a short part of his life. he had lost the very people he looked up to, that's never easy. but he didn't have much time to grief, he still had a sister to look after, education to finish and most of all... their killers to catch. his hatred for asukurias just grew from there, this thirst for revenge for what they did to his parents, so completely unaware of the fact one of his own parent was one.. that his sister has recently discovered she is... that he is one too.

but hey, that's for later! for now, watch him obliviously try to catch his parents' killers.

𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐑𝐀┊

— currently trying to quit smoking upon his sister's request
— practically lives on ramen, unfiltered coffee and nicotine gums/patches
— learned the electric guitar to impress people but got shy and never told them
— perpetual panic attacks, just always assume he's going through something because he is
— does have a sense of humor, will make puns and terrible jokes but most of the time its said under his breath or kept to himself; unless of course he's in danger, then in a moment of panic he'd say it aloud and endanger himself
— i think he deserves to have rings that belonged to his father that he fiddles with when he's thinking, just as spice
— has had at least 13 pet fishies that always end up dying, no matter what
— does not have his driver's license, always rides the bus or gets his sister to take him places
— actually likes math and would write essays for fun
— he has DIMPLES but obviously he doesn't know how to use it

consume,,, chase atlantic
stuckinmybrain,,, chase atlantic
lacrimosa,,, wolfgang amadeus mozart
blood // water,,, grandson
run boy run,,, woodkid
insomnia,,, 2wei
free,,, mother mother

❝ i'm not the monster, i can't be... ❞

𝖞𝖊𝖆𝖍, 𝖜𝖔𝖆𝖍, 𝖞𝖊𝖆𝖍, 𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖊𝖎𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗 𝖐𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖔𝖗 𝖇𝖊 𝖐𝖎𝖑𝖑𝖊𝖉 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊
𝖔𝖍, 𝖜𝖔𝖆𝖍, 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖇𝖑𝖔𝖔𝖉 𝖎𝖘 𝖊𝖎𝖙𝖍𝖊𝖗 𝖕𝖔𝖚𝖗𝖊𝖉 𝖔𝖗 𝖎𝖙'𝖘 𝖘𝖕𝖎𝖑𝖙 𝖑𝖎𝖐𝖊