Hi, How are you? I hope you're doing good! Make sure to rest a lot and take breaks. Don't push yourself too much. Don't ever forget you're beautiful! and make sure to smile! I Purple You!!

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"you know, you can stop avoiding me now." shoto sighed, as the message he had gotten earlier played over and over again. he knew he should, he can't continue denying it. it was there, clear as day.

"i'm not avoiding you, i'm just not ready."
he sighed, glancing down at his phone. he sighed one last time and decided to get up from his desk chair. he wasn't able to work like that, he knew he couldn't. and even if he did, he would end up messing up his papers.

he glanced at the time and smiled. izuku would be coming home sometime soon. "that's a relief." he smiled. even if he didn't want to admit it, izuku did make him slightly happy. being with him made shoto feel things he hadn't felt in a long time. it a way it was a good thing and in another it made shoto hate him.

not in a way where he disliked him but rather disliked what he made him feel.

shoto slightly smiled to himself when he heard izuku yell.

"bastard." shoto heard as he saw the door open. he quickly fixed himself up and erased whatever expression he had on before. "what do you want brat?" shoto rolled his eyes. he grabbed the papers from his desk and aligned them together.

"you promised to pick me up from school." izuku yelled. "oh i did?" shoto slightly smirked. "i guess i must've forgotten. sorry love." he smirked walking past izuku.

izuku stood there shocked. he groaned and followed shoto. "do you know how fast i ran to get here? i forgot my wallet so i couldn't pay and on top of that because of you my phone died so i couldn't call anyone."

"i don't see how any of this is my problem." shoto turned to him with a sly smile. "it's not my problem so get lost for now." shoto spoke and walked out.

he walked into his room and threw the papers on the desk. he knew treating izuku like that would just push him away, but he wanted that.

or maybe he didn't, he just wanted an excuse to not open himself up anymore. more than he had already. even if izuku made him feel happier than anyone, but if he could prevent himself from feeling like this he would.

he reached into his pocket and took his phone out, still seeing the message in display. "i just can't win like this. i can't do this." he closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

he heard his phone ring, looking at the name he frowned. he answered, before the other person could say anything he spoke first. "i really wished you never came back." shoto spoke.

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izuku sighed, shoto seemed different today. he seemed down, which was strange. in the morning before he left for school he was happy, he drove izuku there and even gave him a small kiss before telling him to have a good day. but now he looked like he was trying to avoid him.

"this is unfair after you make me excited to see you then you treat me like this." izuku whispered. he frowned and made his way downstairs, he grabbed a bowl of cereal and sat on the table.

after a few minutes, he finished and got up. he washed his dish and was about to leave the kitchen when he ran into shoto.

"sorry, i didn't mean to." izuku mumbled. "didnt mean to what?" shoto looked at izuku confused. he looked up at shoto, noticing how puffed his eyes looked. it seemed like he was crying. and for some reason that made izuku's heart sting a bit.

"are you okay?" izuku asked. "it's none of your concern." shoto tuned his gaze away. "just mind your own problems, i'm not a child." shoto spat.

izuku was taken aback, he was only trying to make sure he was alright. "i'm not saying you're a child, i'm only asking if you're okay. i can't ask that?" izuku yelled.

shoto looked at izuku, he seemed angry or rather concerned. it made shoto's heart sting a little, not understanding why. "that's not what i meant, i'm just not in the mood. i'm sorry." shoto locked gazes with izuku.

even if he wanted to push izuku away this wasn't the way to do it.

"you should be, i'm only watching out after you. you seemed upset earlier i was just making sure that nothing was wrong." he softly spoke.

shoto's face slightly lighted up. "you don't have to take care of me, i'm alright."

"i'm well aware." izuku smiled. "but it doesn't hurt to be concerned, does it?"

shoto slightly laughed. "i guess you're right."

izuku nodded, he looked at shoto up and down, noticing how well dressed he was. "so what's up with you dressing all fancy? have a meeting?" izuku tried to lighten the mood more. "it's nothing like that, i'm just running out for an errand." shoto smiled but turned his gaze away.

"ah, mind if i join you?" izuku half-joked. "kinda, this is one is really important for me." he said still not looking at izuku. "let's go out next time, on a date, how does that sound?" shoto asked.

"sounds good to me." izuku smiled. shoto nodded. "alright, i'm heading out. see you soon." he waved as he left.

izuku shrugged, he figured it wasn't an errand but he wasn't going to pressure shoto. there would be no point, it's better to let him figure things out on his own.

"o well." he smiled and looked down at his phone. he noticed a message from rin. "i wonder what she wants." izuku thought. he unlocked his phone before he had the chance to read it he noticed a call coming from her. he picked it up, rin wouldn't call unless it was important.

before he could get the first word out rin beat him to it. "we need to talk." she spoke, "meet me in front of the park where we first met in 10 minutes." she said before hanging out. izuku was confused, what could she possible want that she wanted to meet face to face. he doesn't remember doing anything to her.

"i guess there's not point in fretting about it, it shouldn't be anything big." he shrugged.

[a house made of cards, and us, inside even though the end is visible
even if it's going to collapse soon. we're like idiots. even if it's a vain dream, stay like this a little more]

i think this just took a big ass turn i was not expecting to take but yayayayay.