So I had my friend read the first chapter in this book, she asked me how could she help and how could she be a better friend. Well that last for about 2 seconds, on the way home from the band trip again I faded away. ON TOP OF THAT I'm constantly messing up with my parents. I do one thing wrong, ONE thing they don't like and BAM lecture. You know, when I mess up or just have one small simple mistake even the stupidest thing I get lectured. I'm not trying to talk bad about my parents, and I do get a lot of stuff and freedom from them, but what I really want from them is for them to stop nick picking me. I'm not perfect, their not perfect so stop NICKPICKING me to be what you want me to be. It's not going to happen, and I don't think like u so stop thinking that I'll do things they way you want me to do them.

I also want you to know these out my problems and I'm the only one who can make them better. When I started this book it was out of self pity for myself l, and I know that feeling sorry for yourself is selfish in every way. I should be happy to be alive and have a good life even if it doesn't seem like it sometimes. I don't want to be a selfish person, I never wanted to be in the first place. From now and hopely for the rest of my life I'll try and look at the bright side of things. I do have a lot of problems and will continue to write about it but now instead of writing and complaining about my life I'm writing this for other people who have the same problems. I want to try and help people who are going through what I'm going through and hopefully we can get through these problems together. I'm also writing this to get things off of my shoulders, I'm not good at expressing my feelings to other people in the real world and can express my feelings through my writing. Sorry your gonna have to put up with my rants any way i want you to tell me if you ever are going through these problems and I want to help you see the brighter side of the situation, until then I bid u Far well. :)