(Dan's POV) {time skip about a week because I'm a lazy bean}

It's been almost two weeks since I met Phil and I knew I had to tell him what I had been hiding from him. He deserved to know, and I wanted to help him.

"How do I break it to him?" I thought of ways to tell Phil, then it hit me. I grabbed my phone and texted Chris because he was at PJ's.

Dan: hey chris!

Chris: hey! what's up mate?

Dan: i know i need to tell phil about me soon and i was thinking about how i could do it

Dan: so

Dan: we're going swimming.

Chris: i'm sorry

Chris: swimming?

Dan: yes swimming

Chris: but you hate swimming...

Dan: i know but that's because of my scars and i know i have to show them to phil

Chris: so how does this help you tell phil? you swim with a shirt on...

Dan: i know but this time, i won't

Chris: how will phil know?

Dan: well, he'll see the scars and ask about them and i'll pull him to the side and tell him

Chris: what about our plan to help him transition too?

Dan: i'll have him come over after and tell him and see what he thinks

Chris: ok got it

Dan: ok so tell pj and I'll text phil

Chris: what time are we leaving?

Dan: about an hour?

Chris: right meet at our place yeah?

Dan: sure

I left the chat with Chris and opened my chat with Phil.

Dan: hey philly

Phil: hey danny

Dan: me, pj and chris are going swimming

Dan: do you want to come?

Phil: uhh... i would love to but i don't have a good swimsuit

Dan- good?

Phil: my parents are unsupportive so I don't have a boy's swimsuit, only a bikini...

Dan: it's ok you can borrow one of mine, i have two. i also have a swim shirt you can borrow

Phil: ok. thanks dan

Dan: it's really nothing

Phil: no one's ever been this nice to me...

Dan: well, now you do

Phil: thanks dan, really. it means the world to me.

Dan: no problem phil.

Phil: can you pick me up?

Dan: of course, i'll be there in half an hour.

Phil: ok see you then xx

Kisses? Why did he put kisses. Should I send kisses back? I decided to take the risk and insert them into my reply, hesitating before hitting the send button. No turning back now.

Dan: see ya xx

Well... he sent them first so I shouldn't dwell on it, now to figure out how to tell Phil. It wasn't an easy decision, but I had to tell him sooner or later. I wanted to help Phil be who he wanted to be, he deserves it. He needs to know we've done this before so he knows he can trust us on this, and to know that, he has to see my scars...

It's been a long time since I've stared myself down in the mirror, my chest scars staring back at me tauntingly. In an hour, I will be pulling off my shirt and Phil will see this and I will tell Phil.

My heart was palpitating in my chest and I could barely breathe from anxiety. Would he decide to back out when he saw the scars and leave me alone? Phil wouldn't do that, he was too nice.

"Okay. Dan, you can do this. Go time," I whispered to my reflection in a useless attempt to calm my nerves as I pulled on my shirt.