It's been about seven years since my father first started to beat me, he learned new things and still had booze every night. I let him do that because it makes him happy and he comes before me, or that's what he told me.
Besides I don't know what he would do if I actually fought back. I love my father to death and I'm still his little princess no matter how many bruises he gives me.
Father says it's just because of work irritating him and he can't take it out on his boss or else he'd be in jail and I would be left all alone.
I believe him even though I know it's because he's abusive and has schizophrenia. He told me while he was under the influence, Mom never knew about it.
She was keeping me safe from him and then she left. I miss her.
But Father says I'm only his now, only his princess.
I don't know whether to be scared or not.