*DEEEEP BREATHS*

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The car ride was quiet as you stare out the window. Jimin's eyes were focused on the road and your head was roaming with a million questions.

The car stops at a red light and Jimin places his hand on your thigh.

"I've heard you've taken a year off" His voice was mellow and soft. You missed his voice so much. You sigh and nod, smiling slightly. "Yeah but I won't be here for much longer"

The light turns green and the car moves again. Jimin's hand stays on your thigh as you stare out the window.

"My mom told me you were never at the hospital cupcake"

You tense up and shift in your seat. Knowing Jimin, you knew he would think it's Jungkook's fault. But it wasn't and you didn't want to admit that.

You let out a shaky breath before holding his hand. "I was scared to see you" Jimin looks over at you. Your eyes are watery and your hands shaking.

"I thought I lost you forever Jimin" Your voice cracks as you try to express your feelings. Jimin's grip on the steering wheel tightens and his jaw clenches. You try your best not to break down in front him.

The car comes to a stop and Jimin turns towards you. He greedily kisses your lips and you gasp. Your body heats up as his tongue swipes over your bottom lip.

He pulls away and he smiles. "You're never going to lose me cupcake"

Your heart beats madly as you stare deeply into the brown pupils you've adored for so long. Memories start to flash back in your head and it was like you were falling in love all over again.

//

"How could he do this to me!" You sigh as you watch your best friend cry her eyes out. She just broke up with boyfriend #4 and only have 5 and 8 left.

You sigh and continue to write in your journal. It was currently lunch and it was freshmen Friday. Meaning you were going to stay at the library for the rest of your free periods.

HyunA was your only friend at school. Jungkook took private school because of his father's reputation. But that didn't stop people at your school to try and talk to you.

You knew they only wanted you because of your looks or the fact that Jungkook picked you up everyday after school.

They started spreading rumors that you two were dating but you quickly shut them down. The last thing you wanted was to be known as was the girl dating the rich fuck boy.

"Y/N do you do anything else besides take notes" she sniffles.

You give her a glance and continue writing. HyunA raises a brow then stands up.

"Are you even listening to me?"

"Loud and clear" you mumble. She grabs the book from you causing the page to rip.

"HyunA give me back my book" you stand and stretch, trying to grab the book from her. "Nope" She suddenly starts running around the cafeteria with the book in her hand.

You chase after her while people just watch. "Oh what's this? My crush!" HyunA starts to speak out loud and you start to panic.

Everyone is watching silently including Jimin. But you didn't want the whole high school to know that you had a dairy. They would call you childish.

"His name is Jeon—"

You tackle HyunA onto the floor before she could say the full name. She flips you over and she was on your lap.

"His name is Jeon J—"

You think on your feet and grab a lunch tray and throw the food at her.

HyunA jumps off you and starts to squeal. "Ew! Pumpkin pie"

You quickly grab the book away from her and brush yourself off. "Next time—"

"Uh excuse me" you feel someone tap your shoulder. You slowly turn around to see Jimin covered in pie mixed with spaghetti.

"This is what you do with food now?"

"Only if it's good food" you reply.

There was one thing people knew about you is that you had an attitude. You could give zero fucks about what anyone said. The only person that mattered to you was Joshua.

"Well the good food is on me and not in my mouth"

"So lick it up baby, lick it up" you cross your arms over your chest and Jimin smiles and looks at you.

"What is it weirdo?"

He chuckles and takes some of the food off him.

"Heathers" he smirks.

Your cheeks turn pink and your surprised to see he even got the reference.

"My name is Jimin by the way, Park Jimin"

//

Jimin smiles as he gets out of the car. He walks to your side and opens the door for you. "Right this was my lady" he said reaching out his hand.

You happily take it as you step out of the vehicle. You suddenly stop when you realize where you were. All the bad memories relishing and coming back to life.

"Jimin why are we at this cafe?" Your voice was shaky. You could basically see Joshua's ghost at this point.

Jimin holds your hand tightly before kissing your forehead. "I wanted to show you something." He guides you into the cafe and you immediately see it.

"I asked them create a monument just for him. I know this place was special to him. How it helped through the tough times."

//

"Joshua I'm sorry but I have work" You grab your work hat and bag. "They finally reopened Noona!! I want to get the new sponge cake and they have a kids section.You promised" He pouts as you put your shoes on.

"How can you work on my birthday!?"

You sigh as you turn around to see tears rolling down his toned cheeks. "Noona you never break your promise" He starts to hiccup and bawl his eyes out.

"I'm sorry Joshua but I need the money. Mom and dad aren't giving me any so I have to make my own" He wipes his tears and crosses his arms. "Your just like dad. Always about money. When are you going to realize that money makes you insane" he shouts.

Your mouth opens slightly and he looks at you in disgust. "Your just as insane as was dad" You suddenly snap and land a hard smack across his face. "Don't you dare talk to me like that now go upstairs."

"I hate you!"

//

"Jimin.....It's—" You can't seem to find the right words to describe all the bright and vibrant colors. All the kids laughing and enjoying the childish music.

"Joshua's World" printed out in bold. His own playground. Just for him. What made it sad was the fact he wasn't here to experience it for himself.

You choke on your sobs once you see his smiling face on polariods. Each one of them a memory you cherished.

"He would h-have l-loved it" You sniffled as Jimin wrapped his arm around your waist.

"I know he would love it"

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*insert ugly crying*

edit: y'all i swear i would never hit my brothers like that idk what went on in my head