Habang lumalakad si Maine palayo sa akin, nagbalik sa alaala ko ang mga nangyari noong araw na dapat ay babalik ako kay Maine. It  cost me to lose so many people important to me just because of Lia.

Tanda ko pa ang araw na iyon.

I was on my way to the airport when I received a call from my Dad saying bumalik daw ako sa bahay dahil may emergency.

Ayoko man pero persistent si Dad. Kaya pinabalik ko na sa driver ko ang sasakyan kahit alam kong maiiwan ako ng flight ko. I know mag-aalala si Maine pero I can explain din naman sa kanya after. Tatawagan ko na lang siya na madedelay ang flight ko ng isang araw.

When I came home, nagulat ako kase naroon ang parents ni Lia, ang ex-girlfriend ko. Di ko maalis na kabahan. Baka sabihin nilang may anak na kami at kailangan kong panagutan ang anak nila. Pero I was wrong. It's not like that.

Lia got into a car accident on her way to the airport pabalik ng Africa. She's a newly graduate doctor.

She lost her sense of sight and her limbs were broken which makes her paralyzed.

"So what can I do for Lia?" I asked her parents.

"We want you to take care of our Lia until she gets better."

"But I have a girlfriend whom I am going to marry. Actually I'm going to the airport now to see her in the Philippines."

"Please. We beg you. You're the only person we know who will make her happy. She still loves you but she wanted to pursue her dreams that's why she left you."

"Maam, Sir but I can't! I'm sorry."

Umiyak na yun nanay ni Lia pero hindi ako pwedeng mangako sa kanila kase may pangako ako kay Maine.

"Alden! You have to help Lia. Whether you like it or not!" Nagsalita na si Dad.

"Dad, I won't! It's not right. I need to go back to the Philippines."

"No young man! You will go with them! I assure you that if you insist to go back to that woman of yours, you will not receive any cent from us."

"Dad, I don't care! I love Maine and I want to marry her."

"Then go! But remember, you're no longer part of the family!" Napakamot na ako ng ulo ko.

I said sorry to Lia's parents and went on my way. Saka ko na lang irebook ang flight details ko. Magchance passenger na lang ako sa susunod na flight.

But while I was on my way to the door, Dad had a heart attack. Not again. I'm already held hostage sa bahay dahil sa mga circumstances na nangyayari.

So I brought Dad sa hospital. Turns out mas matindi ang atake niya. I felt sorry for being stubborn. But I love Maine and I think it's not wrong to love. But I can't call her right now dahil magulo pa ang isip ko. Ayokong mag-alala siya sa akin. So I did not call her.

Dad was in Coma for three days when he succumbed. At dahil sa kagagawan ko, sa sobrang konsensiya ko I resorted to alcohol drinking. Hindi ko pa rin magawang tawagan si Maine kase natatakot ako na galit siya pero I know na galit siya sa akin dahil hindi ako dumating. I'll face her wrath as soon as matapos ang funeral at burial ni Dad.

After Dad was buried, my Mom is so mad at me. Kasalanan ko daw kung bakit inatake si Dad. Pero wala naman akong ginawang masama. I only did what is right dahil I don't love Lia anymore. I just don't want to give her false hope na babalikan ko siya kaya hindi ako pumayag na alagaan siya. I visited her after my Dad was buried to tell her I'm already marrying someone and she understood naman.

Beyond Mom's knowing, I called Maine. So many times but it's either Coleen or Nikki who is answering her phone. Huwag ko na daw tawagan si Maine kase she's so upset and she does not want to do anything with me anymore. 

Nasaktan ako. I felt nowhere to go. My family is mad at me.

But then I tried talking to Mamu Celeste but she as well told me na hayaan na si Maine. Huwag na daw akong bumalik. Pero I can't.

So after mailibing si Dad, ako ang tumayong CEO sa kumpanya. My Mom already understood my point. She forgave me pero it cost me to lose my love. Hindi pa rin complete.

Ipinangako ko na aayusin ko lang ang lahat ng pag-aari naming negosyo bago ako bumalik sa Pilipinas at aayusin ko rin ang sa amin ni Maine. I wont stop until she forgives me.

Kaya ako narito ngayon ay iyon ang plano ko. Pero parang ang laki na ng problema. She does not want to talk to me. Nasasaktan man ako pero di ako titigil hanggang sa mapatawad niya ako. Kahit pa lumuhod ako sa harap niya, mapatawad lang niya ako.

And I promise to love her and to wait for her until she finally gives in. Siya lang ang minahal ko ng ganito and I won't let her escape me, again.

A/N So kayo na po humusga. Papatawarin ba o hindi?