Sometimes, there's her good days.

"Samanatha!" Daniel gasped out her name in shock as he stared at her.

Sam couldn't help but give him a little smirk as she licked her finger that was filled with chocolate frosting.

He then wiped the frosting out of his cheek with his finger and just glared at her. "Was that really necessary?"

Sam shrugged. "Depends on the level of necessary that we're talking about right now and if you want to know about mine then yes, it is really necessary."

Daniel licked his finger. "Why?"

Sam shrugged. "Just wanted to know your reaction."

Xendrix snickered from his chair and the two looked at him.

He gleefully smiled at them. "Well, sweet plums, you're a smart girl and as a smart girl, you'll know that Daniel's reaction would be... " He trailed off, tapping the table as to mock a banging drum and continued. "Royally pissed. Yup, lucky you."

Sam snorted and crossed her arms. "Uhm...  Excuse me, stranger. Where's the rude and mean Xendrix? Happy Xendrix scares me, especially when he's super happy."

Xendrix gave her a glare. "Shut up, that was just upsetting."

Daniel chuckled. "Well, I think that I know how to lure the big bad wolf out."

Sam hummed in amusement. "How?"

Daniel looked back at the cake and Sam followed his sight and she just grinned when she realized his plan. She looked back at Xendrix and he just completely paled.

"I know what you're trying to do." He started to clumsily stand up with a nervous smile on his face.

Sam took a little swipe of the chocolate frosting and smiled lovingly at him. Daniel did the same.

"And what do you think we'll do?"

"Sam, you better stay." He warned and he glared at his brother. "I mean it, you asshole!"

"Now, now!" Daniel smiled. "No foul words, Xen."

"For fuck's sake!" Xendrix shouted, backing away from them. "You keep moving and I will kill you two!"

"Two against one?" Daniel asked and shook his head. "I don't think so, baby brother."

Sam couldn't help but laugh weakly at them. "Baby brother?"

Xendrix groaned. "Shut up, Sammy."

"Don't be so bitter." Sam pouted. "It hurts me."

"Well, get ready because you'll get more hurt if you get closer to me!"

"Hey!" Sam growled. "That's unfair, how about Dani?"

Xendrix shrugged. "Him too but whatever! I'm outta here so bye, idiots!"

And Xendrix took off as the two followed him.

Good things stay as good things.

They stay and let you remember all of those fun, lovable memories that you have once have experienced and it's beautiful.

It's beautiful and it's even more beautiful because you can remember it forever. You can cherish it and place it close to your heart where you put all of your loved ones near.

They love her and she knows it.

Her aunt loves her.

Xendrix and Daniel does.

The way they looked at her makes her heart flutter with nothing but love and joy. She kept thinking that maybe this could be her permanent family. She could stay with them forever and be surrounded with nothing but love.

She would like that.

She would like to play tag on the sandy beach with a wonderful sunny day. The breeze would play with her hair as the wave make a soothing sound in her ears. The seagulls would be squawking as her aunt would work on the grills and make them some barbeque for later.

Maybe her friends would come. Gabriel would be beside her, saying nothing but sweet words to her ear as her family teases them about it.

That would be lovely.

But then there's the bad days.

"Sam... " Lucas said, entering her room.

Sam couldn't help but groan. "Lu, there's a door."

Lucas raised an amused brow at her. He crossed his arms and gave her a little smile. "And?"

Sam gave him a confused look and sighed. "Knock. That's that. Knock!"

"No can do, baby girl." Noah entered her room with a grin. Sam grumbled and crossed her arms. "Your room is our room."

"And your room is?"

Noah took a moment of silence and shrugged. "Our room is ours."

Sam huffed out an annoyed breath. "You're unbelievable."

"And that's why girls like me." Noah said charmingly but Sam rolled her eyes.

"Shut up!" Kyle then entered followed by Jayden and Tyler. "As if. You look like a caveman. An ugly one!"

"That's style!" He defended but Jayden snorted.

"Yeah, I think that's style where teenagers like nowadays. A style where it looks like you just woke up in the morning." Jayden commented.

The siblings looked at him like he was crazy.

"No offense." Tyler started, trying to hide his chuckle. "But you're a teenager."

"Apparently, a tenage boy who's rare in this world nowadays." Jayden stated with smirk. "I'm nice and perfect."

Sam rolled her eyes. "Is he being arrogant in my room right now?"

Choruses of 'yes's and 'yup's arose and Jayden glared at each and every one of them.

"Rude, idiots."

"Stop bothering Sam!" Isaac entered her room with a stern look on his face. "She wants her privacy."

"But you're here." Kyle deadpanned.

Isaac rolled his eyes. "I'm here because of you guys."

Noah snorted. "Yeah, okay."

"Out. Now." Isaac said and her brothers slowly walked out of her room, bidding her goodbyes and kisses for good night.

Isaac smiled at Sam and the girl gave him a thankful smile.

And that's where she wakes up.

Do you know what's more worse than a nightmare?

It's the dreams, the memories.

Do you know why?

Because those dreams, those memories, those beautiful memories, they were all in the past. And when your past was good and your future ended up bad, you remember the good things back then but then you started to think, 'Huh, this might never happen again.'

For Sam, it won't. It won't happen again. It would never happen again because she knew that they were breaking apart. She knew that those fun times that they did, the chaos, the love, the joy... All of it. Gone.

And that hurts.

More than some nightmare. More than her conscience eating her up. It kills her.

She knows that she's hurting people in the process. She knows that they're trying so damn hard to help her, that they're worried for her, that she should just forgive her family and move on.

But she can't.

She can't move on, she can't forgive her brothers.

After everything that has ever happened, she has never felt pain that's far more worse than what her family did to her.

Her family broke her.

They didn't do anything physical to her, they didn't abuse her, they didn't neglect her. But the mere fact that they chose to stay quiet because they were trying to save themselves and Lydia was unbearable.

She wanted to know.

She wanted answers.

And not a single answer was heard from them.

She was begging. She was begging for some kind of help. She was begging for help because it was getting so painful, it was getting so damn cold and lonely and nobody, not a single soul, answered her.

And they betrayed her.

As a friend, because they chose to stay quiet and they kept secrets from her.

And as a sister, because they chose Lydia over their own sister.

And do you think that she doesn't deserve to be at least a little bit mad at them?

Did any of them felt the same emotions she was feeling?

It's a constant feeling of small throbbing pain in her chest that was blooming into something even more painful. It was like someone's cutting you everyday and you don't know who that person is and you know that you're bleeding, that you're slowly dying,   but you also know that no-one will help you because you didn't know that the ones who's cutting you is the one that you keep close.

They kept secrets, she never said anything about that. They said lies, she never said anything against them. They chose Lydia over her and she went over to the girl's grave to say sorry because all she wanted was to move on. All she wanted was to finally have a family. A proper one.

And now, she can't.

And that is what makes her pain so much worse.

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I'm having a mild case of writer's block. XD

But I'm here! Yaaaay!!

How was it? Any thoughts about it?

I tried to focus on the emotion which is anger, and I hope that's visible.

But how about you? How was your day, darlings? I hope that you're doing a lovely day today :)