"Please don't go, please don't go, i love you so i love you so.."

Guess i should've been a little more caring, or a little more loving when he left me. I tired to make him stay, but all i got was a slam of a door, and the start of a car leaving me forever.

I sit here on the floor, to weak to stand, or maybe i forgot how to. So many tears were shed, i never cried so hard in my life. Why am i crying? He wasn't even the least bit sad leaving me.

Overdramatic. Just like he use to call me.

I knew he didn't truly love me, but i wanted to believe otherwise. In the beginning he did, or maybe that was just me.

I never loved before him.

But that's all behind me now, and i don't know what to do now.. I lay back on the carpet flooring, staring up at the ceiling as loose tears managed to slip down. He was everything to me, why did he leave? Why? Was i not enough or something?!

A sob broke through, and i didn't want to cry again, but i couldn't help it. My heart was aching and i wanted to wake up from this.

Overdramatic.

The sound of my phone vibrating perpetually ruined my self pity party. I reached into my pocket and saw that someone was calling me.

Roman.

Out of all the people he could of called, he had to call me. At this time in my life.

I dreaded the thought of answering it, but this was roman were speaking of, he'll just assume im dead after 10 unanswered calls later. Here goes everything..

"Virgil? You still coming over for movie night? Patton is not letting us start till you and Janus come."

I almost lost my composure at the mention of his name. I forgot about tonight completely.

"Im not coming." I say, my voice raw and tired.

"You ok? You sound tired or something."

"Verge are you sick?!" I heard patton in the background yell.

"Im fine, patton. Just.. Tired."

I knew they weren't going to believe me, but i didn't know what else to say. They don't need my problems.

"You need a hug? Or is this one of those days?"

"I would love a hug.." I say finally, tears yet again springing to my eye's. I told myself i wouldn't give them my problems, but i guess his lies rubbed off on me.

"Oh shit you crying?

IS MY SON SAD?-

we'll be over soon."

" Thanks.."

_____

I was still laying on the floor when they came, not a question was said as both Roman and patton layed beside me.

"He's gone." Was all i said.

They both shared worried glances, knowing what i meant. My eyes welled up again, spilling over like a flooded damn.

Overdramatic.

Roman hugged me from the side, and so did patton. No words were spoken.

It was just a pile of emotions and friend's comforting me, and that's all i needed for now.