"renjun, what the fucking hell!" the chinese male whisper-shouted to himself as he stared at his reflection in the mirror of his and jeno's bathroom, slapping his cheek with his hand.

"jun? everything alright?" jeno's voice asked from the other side of the door.

"yeah, yeah. i just lost the toothpaste behind the sink again." renjun lied, hoping that jeno wouldn't question his weird behaviour further.

thankfully, he didn't, allowing renjun to go back to scolding and insulting himself for being such a bad boyfriend.

why? for a very simple reason.

ever since he had met jaemin, exactly four days prior, the injured boy had been all that was on renjun's mind, day and night, when he was working or doing nothing, and whether he was alone or with his boyfriend. and this meant something wasn't normal.

renjun had been so happy when jaemin had promised him that he'll try to come and hang out with him one day after his work that every morning, renjun tried to wear the best clothes he had to be presentable in front of the boy. and yet, for the past four days, jaemin hadn't showed up to the convenience store at the end of renjun's shift – or an hour after the end of his shift either, renjun always made sure to stay later so that he wouldn't miss jaemin if the boy was late.

but why did he feel the need to do all of this for him, a mere stranger that renjun had saved from very bad injuries?

everything was so strange, so weird, and as time went on, renjun realised more and more that something had to be wrong with him, and that he had to be the shittiest boyfriend in the whole universe.

how could renjun be so mesmerised by a boy he had met a few days ago?

how could he be so worried for a stranger?

and why was his heart missing beats and his insides feelings all jittery whenever he thought about him?

as pleasant as the feeling was, it wasn't normal, and it shouldn't happen when renjun was facing anyone else than jeno, his loving boyfriend.

but then, why was all of this happening to him whenever he faced jaemin?

"no, no, no..." renjun tugged on his raven hair. "it's not possible."

as much as he tried to persuade himself that it wasn't true or possible, he couldn't ignore the very clear signals that his body was giving him.

getting excited whenever thinking about him... wanting to meet him again and again... becoming flustered... wanting to dress well to see him... thinking over and over again about what to speak when they'll be together... having this fucking jittery feeling in his stomach whenever he thinks about him...

yeah, he was starting to develop a crush on the injured boy.

"fuck you, renjun..." the chinese male swore, looking at his reflexion with hate.

and now, all he had to do was to make sure jeno never discovered this.

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"everything alright? you look like you're in deep thought..."

"t-that's because i am."

jeno chuckled, plopping on the couch next to the hybrid which had been sulking since he came back home.

his lips were in a cute pout and his brows furrowed as his eyes ran over the furniture of the house while he thought about his and jeno's plan.

"what's on your mind, my nana?" jeno asked, fighting the urge to bop jaemin's nose as it was still hidden under a small cast for it to restructure after being broken.

"i told you that renjun wanted us to meet again, right?" jaemin started, turning his head to the side and looking at jeno, not even noticing the endearment that jeno had used to call him.

"yeah, five days ago, when you were in the hospital." jeno nodded.

"and i don't know if i should go and meet him..." jaemin admitted, letting out a cute groan as he closed his eyes and let his body lean against jeno's muscular one.

once again, jeno let out a chuckle, allowing his arm to pass behind jaemin's neck and rest on his shoulders so that he could pull the boy closer against him.

"well, according to our little plan, you should." jeno stated, resting his cheek against the top of jaemin's head.

"b-but... i don't know if it's a good idea..." jaemin stuttered, sulking even more and leaning against jeno's touch, this simple act making his whole body warm and fuzzy.

"why not?"

jaemin sighed loudly. there was no way he would tell jeno why this wasn't a good idea even though jaemin knew perfectly why it wasn't.

he had seen renjun taking longer than usual to choose his clothes in the morning.

he had witnessed renjun talking to himself dreamily while mentioning jaemin.

he had heard renjun insulting himself for developing a crush on jaemin.

and he had come across renjun's internet history on which were dozens of questions on developing feelings for someone when having a boyfriend.

so, yeah, jaemin was sure it wasn't a good idea, but how could he explain that to jeno without breaking the boy's heart?

"i-it's just a feeling..." jaemin muttered.

jeno chuckled. "nana, stop stressing for that. i know that you have a lot of potential with renjun, and this is what could make him accept you in your animal form."

"i-i'm not sure..." jaemin continued sulking.

yeah, because renjun's feelings weren't the only thing that were problematic in this situation.

in fact, jaemin's feelings could be added to this mess.

effectively, jaemin had always seen how amazing of a boyfriend renjun was to jeno. as he had been living in their house for weeks now, he knew how affectionate and careful renjun was with his boyfriend, mostly because jeno wasn't always confident or because he didn't assert himself enough. 

and well, it's no secret that jaemin dreamt once or twice – or way more than that actually – to have a boyfriend like renjun. and let's say that this contributed highly to the feelings that he was growing for the chinese male.

just like he normally was, renjun had been so sweet and caring with jaemin when the boy had had his accident at the grocery store, and it had felt good for once to be the one to receive instead of it being jeno. at that moment, jaemin had understood why jeno loved renjun dearly and why he would do anything to keep him as his boyfriend.

renjun was just the perfect boyfriend, and jaemin was aware of that despite not being his.

so, in the long minutes renjun and him had shared together, when renjun was worried about him and kept making sure jaemin was at ease, the hybrid couldn't help but let his heart take over himself and enjoy the moment without a care in the world.

in fact, he couldn't register if the words that flowed so naturally out of his mouth when facing renjun were white lies voiced out for the sake his and jeno's plan, or if jaemin was really desperate and thankful for renjun to have been there at the moment of the accident. the fronteer between those two states seemed to be getting slimmer and more confusing... or had this fronteer never existed?

"stop pouting like a baby, nana... you're going to kill me with your cuteness..."

and here was jaemin's heart again, going crazy as if he never had received any tyope of love, but this time for a whole other reason than before: no more renjun, but jeno this time.

jeno... the tall and muscular male that acted so cutely and adorably around renjun who kept babying him. the same tall and muscular male that made jaemin feel so precious and loved with his pet names, his cuddles and his little attentions.

he loved the way jeno acted with him, as if jaemin was a percious jewel that he didn't want the world to see. in fact, jaemin had noticed that jeno somehow reciprocated the ways renjun acted with him on jaemin. the same way jeno was renjun's precious and beloved star, jaemin was jeno's.

this made the hybrid feel so happy and giddy, causing him to keep imagining what people would say if they saw jeno and him together. would they immediately think that they are cute just like renjun and jeno are? would they envy what they have?

"let's find you some nice clothes to wear, and then i'll accompany you so you can meet with renjun, okay?" jeno spoke, pressing jaemin harder against his chest for a second before letting go and standing up.

jaemin looked at the boy's stretched out hand which was supposed to help him standing up and lead him to the wardrobe.

the hybrid didn't hold himself, placing his large palm in jeno's and sighing at the pleasantly familiar feeling of butterflies in his stomach. "okay, fine... i'll go..."

"good." jeno chuckled, rubbing jaemin's hair while being careful not to hurt his bunny ears.

and so, jaemin was dragged to the wardrobe as jeno selected a few outfits for him to try on and impress renjun. 

jaemin gave all of his trust to jeno on that one. the hybrid stayed mostly silent, his mind far away, thinking of the two boyfriends which confused his heart so much.

was he developing feelings for jeno? considering how happy he was when they were together, he had to be.

and was he developing feelings for renjun too? well, his heart was screaming at him that he was.

but was it even possible to develop feelings for two people at the same time? and more than two people, two boyfriends that are madly in love and see nothing else than each other?

or perhaps... perhaps that it wasn't love... perhaps that this was just the feeling everyone got whenever they made friends with others.

but how could jaemin know? he had never received such love...