It had been at least a day since I left that voicemail to Laurance and I couldn't stop thinking about what I had said.

  "I-I love y-y-you.."

Did I mean it? I couldn't have. He's just my best friend. Just a friend... Maybe I did mean it... My Irene... I fell in love with my best friend...

  How will he take it when we get back? Will he hate me? Maybe he will.. What if he doesn't? What if he likes me back? What if me and him live together.. A-And start a family? With adoption of course. And maybe we'll get married, maybe we'll grow old together! Ooo! And maybe- "Gar Gar!" I snapped out of my gaze. "I, er- y-yes mom?" I answered.

    I slowly shifted my slightly dirty blonde locks away from my somewhat unatural colored cyan eyes. (Cause where are ya gonna see some cyan eyes, AMIRITE?) "Me and your father are going out tonight! And since Sylvanna told me you had lit taste in fashion, I want you to help me yo!" (I ACTUALLY AM LAUGHING SO FUCKING HARD RN) I cringed slowly at my mothers words. "A-Alright mom." I agreed before we started an intense search for a good dress.

(TIME SKIP)

  It had been a week since I finally realized my feeling toward the brunette beauty known at Laurance. And, today's the day we leave starlight. I'm to excited to finally see everyone after the long while. Especially Laurance. I'm ready to tell him my feelings.

Am I ready emotionally for rejection? No...

Am I ready if he shares the same feelings?
I think so...

Am I emotionally ready to get judged rudely by everyone on the street?
.........
N-No...

Maybe I'm just being crazy. Or maybe I could be right... Oh my Irene.. What if I am right? What if Laurance rejects me and I fall into really heavy depression? What if I end up being suicidal?! No no no Garroth.. You'll be fine. I'll be fine. I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror on the plane. I hadn't slept in a while. I kept having nightmares, and it scared me. I had some slight bags under my eyes, but nothing to bad.

    I had been secretly using Aphmau's concealer, but I just stopped a few days ago. A few people have noticed and asked if I was okay, but I would just tell them I was fine. I splashed some cold water on my face before walking out.

  I nearly screamed when I opened the door to see a worried looking Zane. "Garroth." He said in his usual mono-tone. "Uh.. Z-Zane?" I said, although it came out as more of a question. We both stayed quiet and stared at each other. It looked as if he was reading me without even trying. "Garroth..." Zane said again. But softer. I felt as if he was trying to talk to my soul, and it somehow worked. I blinked and felt as if my eyes had small tears in them.

  I looked down immediately. "Garroth," He said now looking more worried. "Talk to me." He sighed. "Zane.." I said slowly. "I'm in love with my best friend." I heard his breathing hitch and I felt my heart race. I looked back up. His eye was really wide, It held a look of sympathy. "I support you G-Garroth.." He said shakily. He hugged me. Zane, was, hugging me. This isn't natural.. Normally he wouldn't hug me unless something bad or tragic has effected me.

  But, I guess this is worth the hug. I slowly hugged him back. "Thank you baby brother.." I said. Soon enough he started blabbering about Kawaii~Chan and I walked away without him noticing. My mind was drifting to so many places, but no matter what, Laurance was always there.

  "I need something to get it off my mind..." I mumbled and looked around. "Hey Garrthy bro! Up for some pranking?" I looked over and saw a blue and green eye staring at me. I just nodded. Perfect thing to distract me. Me and Blaze spent the hours on the plane, pranking people, but I couldn't wait to get home.

  I walked back to my seat, and stared out of it's window. The beautiful city was below us, and it made my heart flutter. "Garroth.." I heard Zane beside me whisper. "I'm so sorry that you'll feel this way..." He said. His voice was more shaky, and it worried me. Once we landed, I was the first to get off.

  I couldn't wait to see Laurance. I couldn't wait. I felt like a little child about to see tons of candy for the first time. Once we got home, I saw Cadenza, but she was dressed in all black. Little Caleb had on a black suit and was crying. I looked confused and I turned toward my friends.

  Each of them held the saddest look, and others had sympathy in their eyes. Was I the only person confused? Cadenza placed a hand on my shoulder. "G-Garroth.. I-I'm s-sorry.." She said. She had to pause, and sniffle when she said it. I put the pieces together and suddenly dropped my suitcase. I ran. Within each step, all I could think of was, my Laurance.

I love him..
Step.

I need to to know..
Step.

He has to be okay...
Step.

  One I got to the cemetery, and looked around like a mad man. It was now raining, and I was breathless, but that didn't stop me from looking for him. I stopped in font of a tombstone. Seeing made me feel as if I had a bullet shot into my heart.

                Laurance Zvahl
        Cause of death: homicide.
             Died: August 8th 2017.

  I fell in front on the grave, and cried. My heart felt cold and dead. My brain was only playing memories of me and him. When we were drooled over in high school.. When we finally saw each other after summer... When me and him kept fighting over Aphmau... N-Now..

         I fell in love with my dead best friend...

          It had been at least an hour. I spent the whole time crying and morning for my dead love. I even kept saying "I love you" to it. I missed him.. It hurt so damn bad. I stood up, it was now raining heavily but I ignored it. I just stared down at the tombstone, more tears silently rolling down. "I love you Laurance.. G-Goodbye.." I turned my back and started the long walk to my home with Zane.

   Once I got in, Zane was pacing in the living room. Once I closed the door, he turned to me. "Garroth, Oh my Irene! You can't just run off like that! Everyone was worried!" He scolded. I just shivered slightly. I was still so sensitive to knowing my love interest, and best friend died. And I was still soaked from the rain. Zane sighed and I heard his footsteps walk away. I was still shivering, but not as much. The footsteps soon returned.

  I jumped slightly when Zane wrapped a towel around me. "Garroth, you have to let go." He said blatantly. I stayed silent and walked upstairs. I didn't want to hear from Zane. I didn't want to hear from anyone. As soon as I got upstairs, I changed into some dry clothes, and dried my hair.

Laurance wouldn't want me to be sad..

Laurance would tell me to cheer up..

Laurance would tell me that I don't look pretty when I cry...

Laurance would hug me and tell me it's alright...

Laurance would sing to me to calm me down...

I miss him so much....

 
   I laid down on the soft bed. I was facing the wall, thinking about my life. Thinking about him. It made my heart ache worse. Everything that happened, we did together.. Now it feels as if a part of me had just.. Left. I sniffled softly until I felt arms wrap around my waist. I turned around and saw no one there.

  I turned back toward the wall, the feeling of someone holding me close, not leaving. "I love you Laurance... I-I miss you a lot..." I said to nobody. I felt someone's grip become tighter. What I heard close to my ear, sent a shiver down my spine.

       "I love you too Garroth."

    I knew..Laurance wasn't with me physically..but he would always be with me spiritually.

The End.