Noor

Emptiness, saddness, guilt and a desire to kill myself .

This is my every morning thoughts . Every morning wishes.  I never wants my night's to end , never want my day to start .

Closing my eyes make me realise that day when I saw him for the last time .

Was I a psychopath to say that the guy I am in love , raped me .

Why I said that even !!?? Was my anger , my desire to dominate him was soo much on peak that I was not even able to see that what I am looking that day .

That day I lost two important people in my life .

Arjun and avnii bhabi. 

Arjun , well I don't even know where he is ? Neither do I deserve to know . And avnii bhabhi, she just stop talking to me .

She just lives with me as if she is a robot . And it kills would be an understatement .

Avnii bhabi always took my side.  Always loved me not than any one . But I, I disappointed her in my desires and anger .

I lost her love and my respect that day .

I lied to my brother who was my everything .

And this guilt of leaving saying him a lie kills me daily .

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I looked at myself in the mirror , this is the most difficult task of my day .

My sareer was just perfect . But my soul , I know how black it was .

I took my laptop and files and moved towards my car .

Skipping breakfast was nothing new for me .

The day I got this ceo position , I was glad and sad both. 

Glad that my hard work finally paid me off and sad because I had no one to share it with.

No one to love me. No one to listen to me.  No one to enjoy my happiness with. 

Who don't have fake friends ... and who have true friends in today's world . !!

" noor atleast have breakfast." Vikram bhai said .

" no Bhai, I am getting late ."

I moved quickly making sure not to have any eye contact with my bhabi. I can't manage to have that look which she gives me daily .

I was the soul reason my she had not talked with her brother for last 3 years . I was the reason why she had distanced herself from vikram Bhai. 

I am the reason for her sadness .

And I deserve loneliness for that .

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" good morning kara ." I said to my 60 year old pa . Today she is retiring.  I will really miss her .

" morning noor. "

" kara is it important for you to go.?" I said with a pout making her laugh .

" yes my girl.  "

I nodded. 

" and yes noor . I have found a perfect boy who could take my place ."

" well , then who is he ?"

She handed me a portfolio .

" their is his picture and all his information and details . "

I kept nodding. 

" he will come at 10 am. " she added .

" ohk kara . If you liked him , he would be just perfect then. "

" oh my noor.  You will too like him ."

She said to which I roolled my eyes.

I opened the portfolio and saying that I was shocked would be an understaement .

ARJUN KHANNA.

if miracles happen . Then this was one .

I looked at the click and it showed 9:59am

The moment 60 seconds passed . Their was a knock at my door and then he came in .

He look just the same guy.

My Arjun.

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So how you found it??

Actually the plot just can in my mind and I was not able to control myself.

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