"I knocked on his door, he didn't answer," I told Eden stressfully. She rolled her eyes before shoving past me in a hurry as she walked to Billies door.

"Billie!" She shouted through, pounding on his door for an answer. "Billie answer me!"

"I bet he's left again,"

"Don't tell me he's doing that again. Billie you wanna hope you're in there or by god you will be dead." She pushed the handle down before the door flung open, Eden nearly falling over herself before looking around his room. I watched her angrily scowl from the hallway before she muttered. "That little asshole!"

~

"Look who's back," Coby laughed as I sat down at the dinner table.

"Shut up. Things are awkward between me and Billie right now," I rolled my eyes laughing as I put my bag under the table. "I don't know what's going on,"

"Neither," Tre mumbled, his mouth half full of food as he chewed an apple.

"He's just being so weird. One moment he wants to take me out after school and show me all these cool places he 'thinks I'll like,' then the next minute he's completely distancing himself off like he doesn't even know me. Like I'm not his fake girlfriend right now,"

Tre finally swallowed before speaking back up. "Yep... he'll do that,"

"Huh?"

"That's how Billie is,"

"I never thought Billie was like that?" Coby questionably confessed looking over at Tre as Tre nodded sure of his statement.

"Oh yeah. He goes through little stages of isolation where he writes songs and stuff- don't get me wrong he creates some of his best work in that but... it's unhealthy. He calls it his thinking time where he thinks and 'orders his feelings' or whatever that means, and then he comes out absolutely fine like nothing happened. Only to go into another episode a few days later,"

"Really?" I asked quite shocked.

Billie had always seemed chill to me. Looking at him as always being, my best friends brother, he never seemed like that. So I was surprised to hear this was a normal thing for him.

"He's always done it," Eden shrugged.

"You never told me this?"

"It never came up in conversation,"

Billies P.O.V

"And so we're sitting here, currently down to two of us... and you still won't tell me why there only seems to be you and me here?" Mike asked, looking around at the empty table that only me and him sat at.

Because of the awkwardness I had accidentally created last night, I avoided seeing anyone this morning leaving straight for school. Probably making things worse.

"Because things are awkward between me and Blaze okay? That's all,"

"Blaze?"

"Well... yeah?"

"Not Birdie?"

"Why do you care so much?"

"Well why are things awkward then?" I felt like I was almost being interviewed by Mike here with all these questions and his intrigued eyes staring across the table straight through me.

"Because... I told her last night- by accident!- that I wanted a real relationship with her...and not this fake stuff..."

"And did you mean it?"

"That's such a stupid question- a- of course I did Mike!"

"Well y'know what that makes you don't you?"

"An idiot?"

"Not the one I was looking for, but you wouldn't be wrong with that guess," he laughed slightly.

"Then what? What does that make me Mike? Enlighten me with your absolute brilliant observing skills,"

"You're a hypocrite,"

"A- a- but- a- a what?"

Mike blinked a few times at me silently. Before repeating the world. "A hypocrite,"

"What? How! No I am not! I am most certainly not a hypocrite I-"

"-you can't want to be with Blaze but then not let your own best friend and sister be happy... even if that means with one another. Blaze is still at the end of the day your best friends sibling. To Tre, Eden is his best friends sibling. You can't want one thing but not allow another when they're the same scenario and same answer. It's selfish,"

"You can't be serious right now Mike,"

"All I'm saying is... if you really choose the security of knowing Tre and Eden aren't happy with each other whilst sacrificing everything you've built with Blaze... then your sacrifice wasn't heard from me,"

But how would that be sacrificing what I have with Blaze?

Well I guess for starters she wouldn't wanna date the guy who made her best friend unhappy. Or the guy who chose himself over his best friend. And I would be both of those people.

Maybe I am being a jerk. And a- well- a h- whatever Mike said. But there's no real way that my own best friend has fallen in love with my sister- right? It's all got to be a prank or something- or revenge. Could that really have happened in the background of my life while I focused on keeping a fake relationship with my own sisters best friend?

Gosh I am a hypocrite. And a jerk.

~

Blazes P.O.V

"Didnt see you this morning," Eden mumbled as Billie entered the living room awkwardly.

"I'm only in here to ask if I can talk with Blaze," Billie rolled his eyes telling her.

I looked over at him at the mention of my name as he looked at me. "Me?" I asked confused.

"No, the other Blaze," Eden laughed sarcastically behind me.

"Yeah, is that okay?" Billie asked me.

At least he was talking to me right now. "Yeah- yeah sure." I got off from the sofa and followed him. I was surprised to see he walked straight past the kitchen leading me up the stairs.

Finally we walked into his room as I took a seat on his desk chair, he sat on the very end of his bed not far from me. Looking pale and nervous.

"Are you- okay? You look... sick," I asked him as I slowly stopped swaying back and forth on the chair realising how unwell Billie was looking.

"Yeah, yeah I'm okay. Birdie- I need your help,"

"My help?"

"Yeah, I need your advice. Y'know... your input on something, on a situation,"

He looked nervous as I nodded quickly. "Oh- oh sure, course yeah. What is it?"

"Well," he re adjusted himself in his seat straightening his posture before he continued. "Well... y'know about Eden and Tre... right?"

He looked at me as I nodded quickly. I didn't know exactly a lot about it. But I knew there was something there between them both. But with Billie being weird about the situation I don't think even they were sure if it was going to go anywhere.

"Well... I know you know I think it's bad. But- I don't know if it's a good move to just be... well be okay with it. It'll be weird for me- and I know... that sounds selfish. But... I also don't want any relationships ruined. I don't wanna loose Tre because something happened and he suddenly can't stand Eden. Or even the other way around- what if Eden hates Tre in the future and she's angry at me because I'm still friends with him? What do I do then? It seems so risky and complicated. Not to mention how weird for me this is gonna be... seeing them together? I don't wanna see my own sister with my best friend that's gonna be so odd,"

Sometimes. Boys only really do think about themselves. He wasn't thinking about his best friend here. He wasn't thinking about Eden here. He wasn't thinking about even me here. How if he really was to do this that would mean I wasn't in any right to have a relationship with him. Did he even consider how much I liked him? Fuck like- love. He was really gonna just throw that away for this?

I promised Eden I would help her out.

"Billie," I breathed.

Even if that means throwing myself under the bus.

"Yeah?"

She owes me.

"Can I tell you something? Promise me you'll listen very closely because it's important,"

He looked a little unsure before slowly nodding. "O....Kay?"

I took in a breath, looking him straight in the eyes trying to act as serious as I ever had with Billie Joe. "I love you,"

"Wait- me?"

"Yes you,"

"What? You? You love me? You- are you sure you love me I- well I mean-"

"-Do you love me back?"

"Well... I mean... do I? Im not saying I don't- I mean- i do- oh my god I do- I actually do... but-"

"-And now its time for you to pick between your own relatives happiness and your selfish desires. You say you love me back, right?"

"Yeah, I do. What does-"

"-If you loved me back. You'd want to be with me right? A real relationship? But if you really love me, you wont throw away what we have because you don't like the thought of Tre making your sister happy. When you love someone. You love their happiness no matter what. Even if it's not from the person you thinks right or the person you don't like. If it makes them happy- even for a little while. Then that's all you should care for." Was all I really answered him with before leaving him in the room.

I guess I did enjoy being that little bit more dramatic, but I mostly left him after that to think about it. If I really meant much to him, I would see in time. If anyone meant anything to him, they'd see in time.