"Y'know..." my eyes drifted away from the ceiling and over at Billie, who laid beside me on my bed. "Coby said the weirdest thing when we were hanging out yesterday,"

"Oh yeah?" He questioned slightly, shifting positions as he sat up, looking down at me. "Well what's that?"

I didn't wanna sound big headed bringing this up. Because I knew Coby was wrong. It was announced before. But, I just can't wrap my head around why Coby would think something like that? Or where that idea would've came from?

"Well." I began. Budging up too as the both of us sat leaning on the headboard. "With Eden and Tre. Coby mentioned he didn't see it coming. Or me and you. Which turned into me being questioned if I ever liked you before any of this,"

"Which you didn't," Billie nodded along following. "Is that what was weird?"

I shook my head. "No. No it wasn't that. He actually said- well it's really stupid actually- he said that even if I didn't always have my eye on you, that didn't mean you didn't have yours on me? I don't know, it was weird for him to suggest. Because I know you didn't," I glanced back to him.

Of course I thought he would jump straight to a point. But he just looked back at me.

"Bill?"

"Did erm..." he swallowed quickly. "Did Eden agree on that?"

"I mean, I don't know. I guess she just pointed out how I've always been Birdie and not Blaze to you. But I mean, I know you didn't have your 'eyes on me' or whatever first, we've said that already. I guess it was weird to think where Coby got that idea from,"

This room would always Be the high room. I accepted that this morning, as Billie roamed in with a joint he wanted to share with me.

But when I did look to Billie, although he looked just as stoned, he also looked at a lost for words. Which if I need to add, is a weird way to see Billie Joe.

"It wasn't that I always had my eye on you," Billie began. I wasn't sure what I was gonna hear, but I knew I was ready to listen as he continued. "I guess I just always liked to know if you were okay,"

I didn't understand. I looked at him puzzled before he continued.

"Remebered that time I told you I always use to ask Eden if your mom was back? I gues it just gave me peace of mind. I guess maybe... it was my fault this fake rathonship took us so far? Maybe I got caught up,""

I didn't know exactly what most of that meant. But I sat up. "Billie, you don't think I'm angry this relationship is wher it is now, do you?" I asked nervously.

But as my eyes met his. I realised he felt the same amount of anxiety. "I don't know, are you?"

"No Billie Joe. Course I'm not. I'm happy where our relationship is. I'm happy where we are. I'm happy now where I am. Here. Next to you. And I mean come on, it was partly my fault any of this happened," I chuckled light heartedly. "I did come out with the lie you were my boyfriend,"

"I did agree," He shrugged.

"Well, that part was never meant to happen. But I don't regret it,"

He stared in front a little bit longer. Zoning out quietly as he bit his cheek thinking. "Maybe I... well, would it of been bad? If say, I did have my eye out for you?"

I looked towards him confused. "Why... would that be bad?"

"Would it be weird?"

"It'd be weird if you were asking me if it was weird if it's not true," I replied honestly. "Why?"

He sighed, ruffling a hand through his hair as he breathed in. "I don't know. I guess...? I guess maybe I did? In some way?"

"In some way what?"

"Maybe I did in some way... y'know... kinda always like you? Only just a little bit- I think,"

My eyes stayed to him as I stared oddly. "Billie I don't understand,"

"I did like you," He huffed, looking to me now. "I probably didn't know I did. But I always liked to look out for you, I liked teasing you-"

"-I didn't like that part,"

"Maybe that's why I enjoyed it so much," He smiled.

"So... you're saying? You're saying you use to like me? Before the fake relationship?"

He shrugged one shoulder. "I guess? I mean. I just liked talking to you sometimes. Or even just y'know having you around? I mean... remember that day Eden got that puppy?"

I thought back recalling. "Yeah somewhat,"

"When I was sat next to you? Do you remember when I tried leaving before my mom saw the dog? You told me you didn't wanna stay awkwardly, when I told you you was like family Eden agreed?"

I looked at him confused. Not seeing what any of this had to do with anything else meant. "Uhuh?"

"Eden asked me? And I told you, you weren't a sister to me? Because that was weird?" His brows raised.

I thought back harder.

"Have fun with that." Billie smugly remarked as he stood up and attempted to walk away.

"Hey where are you going!" I asked him grabbing his arm and tugging him back down.

"Well I was going to leave,"

"No you're not,"

"Why?" He smirked. "Want to keep me here?"

"You flatter yourself too much, no. I don't wanna be awkwardly sat here when Eden gets screamed at that's all,"

"Awkwardly? You're like part of the family how are you gonna be awkwardly sat there,"

"Yeah! You're like my sister! It was your idea too! If I get done you get done too!" Eden shouted jumping to her feet.

"I'm not part of this family shut up!"

"Tell her Billie!" Eden pleaded with her brother.

Billie took one long look at me. Up and down. "I wouldn't consider her a sister,"

"Excuse me?"

"You're not my sister, that's weird,"

"Why aren't I?"

"Cause I don't see you as a sister,"

"Why-"

My eyebrows scrunched. "That was why?"

"Well- I guess I didn't myself know why that was weird. But maybe my hunch was right, it'd of been weird wouldn't it? To say days later we'd be fake dating,"

I felt my lips curl into a smile. "I remember being offended at that,"

"Are you still?"

"Not anymore,"

"Or, well what about the holding hand incident?" He asked.

I thought again. Reminding myself.

"Yep I'm going." Billie repeated as he went to stand up again. I quickly grabbed his hand pulling him down, forgetting to let go as Ollie began to speak.

"What's in there...?" She asked hesitantly.

"Eden's dog," Billie outed.

"Billie you dick!"

"There's a dog in there!?"

"Mom stop shouting you'll scare her!"

"Why would you get a dog when I said no!"

"It wasn't my idea!"

"Don't you blame me!" I jumped in looking over at Eden.

Ollie looked over at me and Billie. "And why are you holding hands?"

I looked over at our hands, realising that not only had I kept his hand in mine. But he even held mine back.

We let go off each other's hands embarrassed as I heard Eden try to change the topic. "Why an Earth were you holding each other's hands?"

"It just happened! Shut up you got a dog!"

"What about it?" I mumbled out.

"You wanna know a secret?"

"Go on,"

"I didn't really let go of your hand. I knew we were holding them, I don't know why- but I didn't let go,"

I felt my lips engulf in a huge smile. "You best not be fucking with me right now Billie Joe,"

"No- I'm not. I just... I think I always knew in some way I didn't just think of you as..." He paused, flickering his eyes around. "Well y'know, as a friend,"

"So..." I thought slowly. Connecting everything in my mind as I tried to piece it all together. "What was the point of our fake relationship?"

"I mean, I still did like Mave. I really did. I thought I was set on her, y'know? She'd of been good for me. I think I just liked faking a relationship with you a little bit more,"

I think this was the point where it all really did feel worth it.

All the confusion. All the pain and all my jealousy. All of my bad nights and all of the worse ones had finally been worth something more than self loathing and pity.

And it felt beautiful, when you get to the point in your life where you realise it wasn't all for nothing.

I had survived it. The early mornings and the late nights where I wondered if I could out live this tear stained part of my life. And I had, hadn't I?

"I hope you prefer the real relationship to our fake one," I joked, letting out a small chuckle.

Billie wrapped an arm around me, draping it over my shoulder as he pulled me closer. "Course I do,"

I think we'd both made it. And it was weird to think I had made it with Billie Joe. When months ago I wouldn't of even given him my time. Now he had it all.

And although we both had to make a few sacrifices along the way, I'd say it was worth it.

Because yeah, sacrifices are never easier. But sacrificing for him was.

A/N: THATS THE END! ITS FINALLY FINISHED, it took long enough.

This is probably one of the books i always forget I have. Not really one of my favourites I've ever written, but I hope you enjoyed reading through!

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