I wrote this because over the past month or so, I've had to deal with a different kind of hatred.

He was already upset with me before. I left over six years ago. Yet this person still tried to dictate everything in my life and he still tries to til this day.

However, my heart is full and I am the happiest I have ever been. I have found someone who truly loves me. Someone who was hidden within the bookshelves of WattPad.

I love her more than she will ever know. She is my soulmate. @mmfaber ,
my Bebee 💜💚💜

This poem is called, "Abomination"

Now there are two different definitions that I have found.

1. A thing that causes disgust or hatred
2. an action is wicked, vile, disgusting, and morally wrong.

According to my ex, I am an abomination. Falling for my beautiful Fiancé is anything but.

So, yea... as a way to free my mind of the negativity. Here is the poem I wrote.
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Abomination, that is what you call me.
Call me what you want, throw your hurtful words
We were taught not to judge or throw the first stone
Especially when we ourselves are not without sin

The sickness in this world is hate
It consumes the soul, forgetting what it's like to love
Some are left to the most gruesome of fates
While others find the way and rise above

When we speak to one another, be kind.
Remember that your circumstance is different
We don't all walk in the same desired line
Our shoes tread differently, some are spent

While others have no wear and tear
Some of us struggle with our identity
Others with revealing a truth because of fear
Of what their loved ones would think, just simply

Coming out and telling them is quite the opposite
You have sleepless nice and try to convince yourself
That your heart is telling you lies despite
The ache you feel when you try to away... it's hell

My mom accepts me and so do many others
For that I am always thankful for more than words
So when you call me, your list of names, I'm a believer
That the love of everyone else protects against your

Relentless attacks to try and break me
Like you've always tried to do
But here I am still standing, strong as I can be
More myself than I have been in years, more true

I see the rainbow on the horizon
A brighter future for my love and my children
For you I am an abomination
The people who truly love me, I am family, a friend

I am a lover, a soulmate, a guardian
A trainer, A sister, An Airman, I am a warrior
I will always wish you well, but never again
Will I let you break my confidence, my armor

My relationship goes against your beliefs
Well my relationship has nothing to do with you
I am not the one making feel all this grief
Get off the couch, get a job, that'll do

I mean all that can do is help you, right?
Our lives are intertwined by two precious babies
Show them how to be a good man, forget your plight
They are always watching, they see, they're little smarties

Move on, be happy, stop dwelling in the past
I left mine a long time ago
My heart is free from your torment at last
For my heart is full of a love, I refuse to let go

Her smile brightens my day
Her laugh chased away the demons
That use to lurk in the darkness at bay
Ready to bombard me with my emotions

Of depression, anxiety and fear
Now all I feel is love, happiness, and joy
We've been together over a year
We roll with the tides, as our love will carry

Forever on into the end of time

(For those of you who struggle with coming out to a loved one or are being bullied for you sexuality or who you choose to love. Know that you are loved and that you can message me anytime if you need someone to talk to.  You are not alone. 💜)