I have a shirt that makes me "sad"

By am I really "sad" if I think about things that use to make me glad?

It was my boyfriends favourite shirt

But I yelled at him to give it back after he broke my heart

We're friends now and I still wear that shirt

But it still makes me sad cause every once and a while I will smell it to see if I it still smelt like his cologne

It doesn't

He would wear that shirt when he was happy

He wore it while he was sad

He wore it when he wanted to kill himself

And when he was punching the walls mad

It makes me sad to think of what he did or thought in that shirt but I remember good times

We cuddled at the skatepark while no one was around

Walking hand in hand with our eyes on the ground

A kiss goodbye before every class and a kiss hello at lunch

I don't know what it is about this shirt but it can make me feel happy while thinking about good times or sad thinking about bad

What I do know is every thing I have has a memory if you think hard enough