Guide To My Life

First:

I gain a new person in my life

Second:

I realize that I've never had a relationship like it with anyone else

Third:

I only want to be around that person

Fourth:

I warn them that they will end up leaving me eventually

Fifth: 

They say they will never leave me

Sixth:

We grow closer anyway

Seventh:

My days become better each time

Eighth: 

I realize a flaw in the friendship and bring it up with the person to fix it

Ninth: 

They ignore me because I brought this issue up

Tenth: 

I blame myself

Eleventh:

They leave me

Twelfth: 

I say "I told you so"

Thirteenth:

Repeat

A/N: This is actually very true. It's been very hard for me lately to not blame myself for what happens with my friends and family. I was recently at a good place, until this cycle started once again. I really messed up. I have given up my phone and I am only using my laptop. I am trying to convince my parents to let me buy a flip phone for texting and calling them in case of an emergency, but I don't know if they will. Thank you guys for sticking with me and being my backbone through it all<3