September 21st

Wake up
Open your eyes
Please

The cold tears fight their way to the surface
I'm staring at your face
But it's not you

Hooked up to wires and masks
This isn't you

You are healthy
Happy
And full of life

You are carefree
Rebellious
Yet kind

You are bright and warm
Not cold and gray

Ten days ago
When the buildings fell to the ground
As we were running for our lives
The screams rang in my ears

I looked behind me
And you weren't there
So I stayed
People were running past me, pushing me away
And yet I stayed
Waiting for you to emerge from the rubble

But you never did

After it was all over
They managed to pull you out
A small breath fighting to escape your lungs

Even now
That was still the most broken I've ever seen you
It broke me, too

Ten miserable days ago

Now
Your lemon hair is falling into your closed eyes
Your blue pupils no longer show
Your soft hands are bruised
Your chiseled features are mangled
You are torn

And I can't do anything about it
All I can do is plead
And pray
And hope

That you'll come back to me
That I'll hold you in my arms again
That I'll hear your laugh again
That I'll see you smile again

Just one more time
Is that too much to ask?
One more time
So I can say goodbye
Instead of talking to your shell

I lost everything that day
I lost half of my family
And I lost you

What's the most painful
Is speaking to you
And getting no response back
I know you would never really do that to me
But I'm not looking at the you I knew before that day

I know you're in there
You're going to make it through this
Just hold on
A little bit longer

We'll get there
And I'll see you again
Our story won't end like this
I won't let it

Someday
I'll come back here
I'll be with you again

Someday
I'll be back
I promise

But before I leave again
I need you to wake up
I need you to open your eyes
Please